Here’s my latest project, finished last Sunday.
It’s supposed to reflect the upheaval and turbulence of needing answers to certain things, but not having those answers– and coming to terms with the possibility of never having them.
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http://suicideproject.org/wp-content/uploads/2016/05/Not-Knowing-2.mp3
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Title: Not Knowing
Key: C-minor
Meter: 7/8
Instrumentation: Violin, Viola, Cello, Bass, Piano
For those of you who can read a score, here’s a screencap of the last five measures:
I posted this awhile back but had my usual panic attack and deleted it after it only had one comment… I always worry that everyone hates it and is just too nice to say anything.
I have to admit it’s one of my favorite things I’ve written so far.
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http://suicideproject.org/wp-content/uploads/2016/04/HeartBegs.mp3
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Instrumentation:
Choir (Soprano, Alto, Tenor, Bass)
Piano
Strings (Violin, Viola, Cello, Bass)
Tympani
So instead of posting it and sitting back in anxious panic, waiting for comments to show up, I will do this:
I will post it, then I will walk away. I will go out to the car and drive somewhere many miles away. Maybe […]
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