i fantasized about dying for a good 2 years. it was my source of comfort.
i dont need my cipralex anymore, so i’m taking myself off it. a week in and those familiar suicidal feelings are back.
i know it’s just the withdrawal doing this to me, but it all feels so… familiar. and real. surreal. i wanna go partake in my new life, but  i’m having momentary thoughts of throwing myself off a building. i know it’s all biological. just gotta let it pass. it’s just made very uncomfortable by the fact that my left arm is in a cast for another few weeks, […]
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i am ready to die tonight. i just took 31 cipralex pills and have t3s as well as random high prescription strength pills for lord knows what. i have a full bag of 50 high strength advils too, i wonder what else i can find. once i start to feel sick/dizzy/who knows, i am going to tie a plastic bag over my head and fall asleep. i tried just the bag a bit ago and i did not like the feeling. i have some staples ‘anti-static spray’ that says ‘fatal if swallowed’ on the bottle so im thinking about drinking that too. my goodbye notes […]