I have thought about this for so long now. Why should I complain about wanting to die? I have a pretty good home life, an amazing boyfriend, supportive friends, even a good life going for me.
But there’s this tiny side of me that scares me.
I have my parents bitting at each others throats, jerks who wantto talk trash about my boyfriend, friends who abuse my feelings, and all these bad traits I see in myself.
Who said life is perfect? Why do I have the right to want to die?
I do though.
I really Do.
I have lied to so many […]
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Does death have to be such a stigma ? If I choose to go can my loved ones be satisfied knowing that peace is with me (I hope) and I no longer suffer the unbearable, day to day mental obfuscation my own mind commits yet is self unrecognizable while it’s happening and too late to matter enough after the fact ? That has been my struggle since I was 18, I suppose, I’m 26 now and I’m ready to join the 27 club(if I get there). Everybody has their problems I suppose and I am no different, however I do feel like a 1 in […]
Just not sure of everything again. I cannot believe this feeling would revisit me this soon. I feel like it was just weeks ago that I started feeling great inside. Today, it’s just the opposite.
Everyday, I’m feeling irritated of almost everything and everyone around. My family’s full of judgemental beings. My parents are way too preoccupied with caring for their favorite daughter’s son. My brothers are way too busy playing their games. Older sisters are too busy with their lives. Younger sister currently living under the same roof is full of judgement. At one point in this lifetime, I feel close to her, like […]