Slowly fading away lost in so afraid where is the hope in a world so cold, life is full of bull shit no one their to listen when you need some1 all I do is just push people away that do try to help, ha I guess im a fck up person been thru so much n still same shit like always, still doing the crazy shit to myself, but people won’t care so why live?? I always ask my self that but all ima do iz just hurt the ppl that loves mi
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Crazy Shit
I promised I wouldn’t do ‘crazy shit’ to my psychiatrist, but I just can’t hold it anymore. I don’t live my life for me, I live it for them.
But fact is; they don’t care if I’m here, there or gone. My councilor at school is totally lost with me, he doenst know what to do with me, the kids at school ( yeah, they’re kids. freaking childish barbiedolls. I’m turning 19 in less then a month and my class is full with 16 y/o barbies :l ) don’t see me. I will give my parents, my family, my friends rest. My parents will have so […]
So, I’m going to be on therapy soon. For years I’ve been trying to cope with my past psychological traumas with heavy alcohol and drug use, had various sex partners I barely knew, nearly got killed several times, got injured heavily and got myself even more psychological traumas and now it seems they have reached their critical mass.
Worst is that I wanted to spray some positive graffity on the wall of my room and I googled “love” and ended up crying after seeing a whole lotta couples. But deep inside myself I am laughing about myself still being affected by my classmates making fun of […]
hey world …. hey people .. hey life ? ..
34 years old female from the uk – long term mental health problems
( depersonalisation , derealization , dissociation  ,depression * hey whats with all the friggen d’s ? )
anxiety , blah de blah blah – yeah i know im boring you *sigh*..
to cut a long story short …. ive come to a point in my life where i feel i have no other choice but to give up , everything i try to do DOESNTÂ and everyones lives ive come into contact with ive fckd up ! .. im […]