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Just want to CTB

by Silent Lucidity 2/3/2016

written by Silent Lucidity

My parents and fad mily don’t care, all they do is put me down and nothing positive ever comes from them.

I have no friends, and no girlfriend, I am alone in a world where my existence is madness.

I have never belonged, no will I. Each day I grow more and more tired of fighting the world trying to

merely exist. Why should I exist ? I have no purpose, Nothing good ever comes from me.. The moment I think

I have found even a moments happiness it is taken away. I will never find anyone that cares, nobody to love me,

hold me in their arms and tell […]

2/3/2016 5 comments

I registered that any more credible post is automatically sent to spam or deleted completely. I miss the times when this page was more credible and available about CTB. Â Any mention about inert gas or N or other are shredded aside.

Well, Fu8k you, when you keep the vulgar, Â the meaningless and the mocking ones and delete the ones with something to offer, that says the most about you.

4/11/2014 7 comments

I think ctb-driver “graduated” from SP

by cyanidesofmarch 7/3/2013

written by cyanidesofmarch

I get the feeling ctb-driver pulled the trigger a few days ago. Maybe I’m wrong, I don’t know. Hey I never got to hear your songs.

7/3/2013 5 comments

Suicide in a psych ward

by kazukithreat 1/11/2013

written by kazukithreat

I’m currently stuck in hospital, not sure when ill be released but they’ve kept me in here for 3 months before. I can’t wait any longer to do this so I’m just going to do it in here. problem is I’m a wimp with pain so want to do it as painlessly as possible. Not to mention the lack of things I could use to CTB with. my plan is to use the exit bag with valium (diazapam).

My question is, how much diazapam do I need? I don’t want to puke just lose consciousness. I’m going to start hoarding it and think I can […]

1/11/2013 1 comment

5 years ago

by hollywood1919 10/18/2012

written by hollywood1919

5 Years ago today is when I tried to ctb. I was 16.
The events around it that triggered it, I admit, were bullshit but my reasoning behind it was not.
I got home from school. the bullshit that happened was that I thought I lost a friend, someone I loved, due to some stupid shit that happened that I thought was my fault. I blamed myself for everything back then. That’s what triggered it. My reason behind wanting to die is that I saw myself as a worthless person who could never do anything right and would never amount to anything in life. I […]

10/18/2012 4 comments

officially on meltdown – seriously considering ctb

by Little Bonkerz Lisa 4/23/2012

written by Little Bonkerz Lisa

hey world …. hey people .. hey life ? ..
34 years old female from the ukÂ – long term mental health problems
( depersonalisation , derealizationÂ , dissociationÂ Â ,depression * hey whats with all the friggen d’s ? )
anxiety , blah de blah blah – yeah i know im boring youÂ *sigh*..
to cut a long story short …. ive come to a point in my life where i feel i have no other choice but to give up , everything i try to do DOESNTÂ and everyones lives ive come into contact with ive fckd up ! .. im […]

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4/23/2012 18 comments

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PLEASE HELp !going crazy

by idunno 4/16/2012

written by idunno

Well, my “manic”(happy) mood was short lived, now i am anxious. I need someone to give me tips on,For lack of a better word, how to not give a ****I just have to emphasize how serious I am. I just can’t convince myself to realize that I am overreacting and I am irrational.

{let me quickly summarize this for those who don’t want to read all my complaints:Â I want to be able maybe speak my mind, and not feel embarressed about it, tell me how to not care so much}

I AM JUST SO PARANOID>

No matter how hard I try I get paranoid and think that […]

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4/16/2012 2 comments

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My daily battle

by hollywood1919 1/9/2012

written by hollywood1919

Depression is kicking my ass right now.
I feel fat and ugly (I’ve never felt really bad about my appearance before. It’s like when I look in the mirror, I see the fat 12-year-old I once was. Now I feel that way even more, even though I understand fashion and makeup and hair even more than I did in high school.)
And I feel worthless no matter what. My parents treated me like shit for 19 years, all they ever taught me is that all I’m good for is sex, chores, and looking pretty, and that nothing I ever do is good enough. Well, thanks […]

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1/9/2012 4 comments

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To hell & back

by nikster 1/8/2012

written by nikster

I was picked up out of my home and thrown into a mental hospital on 12/30/2011 for a week so it really thwarted my plans of ctb before the new year. I left the hospital with a false sense of optimism, and now I’m sitting in my apartment on suicide websites again…..feeling like my soul is dead and I’m just going through the motions because that’s what I was told to do. Truth be told, I have no idea what the next day or weeks ahead of me hold….I know today was a shitty day, not sure when the glimmer of sunshine will show through […]

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1/8/2012 1 comment

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