I thought I was on my way to overcoming the sadness but it seems I was wrong. I feel so so so so alone and also unbelievably numb but somehow really sad all at the same time and I can’t really explain how bad I feel right now, just that it’s been a while since I was this low and that yesterday I cut over the almost completely healed scars on my thighs. I don’t even really know why I did it, I think I just like seeing the evidence, seeing that my inner pain can be converted and can mark me on the outside […]
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Cuts And Scars
i tell her that i need to go to a different school, a school where there are only a few people so if anything only those few could pick on me. but she won’t let me leave this one. she says life is full of obstacles and people who won’t like you and people who you won’t like either. stay in this school so you’re prepared. well hey, does the “real world” consist of nobody liking you? does the “real world” consist of thoughts of suicide? does the “real world” push you to the fucking edge? did you try to kill yourself because the “real world” ended up just like school?
im not quite sure whats wrong with me anymore. i fall apart so easily on little things. i do not fear death at all but when someone makes a shrewd comment to me about my scars i completely shut down. why?
the other day when hurricane sandy came through, i was with my uncle and a couple of his friends at an atv park. well it was really windy and and the weather was bad. i had gone inside the camper and just 5 seconds of me going inside a tree fell on the camper literally missing me by inches. i almost had my life […]
Okay so I won’t tell you my name just incase someone reading this knows me. I randomly found this website just before searching up suicide things on google. Anyway I am a seventeen year old girl living in New Zealand. I have been diagnosed with depression by a doctor and people tell me all the time they think I suffer from other disorders like bipolar and OCD and others like that.
I have three half-brothers and one half-sister as well as a full sister. I have met two of my half-brothers about three time. My other half-brother and my half-sister don’t even know that I exist. […]
Im really scared… Im going to camp today for a week… Wat if i cant make friends cause I’m to shy … Wat if no one likes me… Wat if people see my cuts and scars …. Wat if people judge my appearance? All these things keep swirling around in my head.. I’ve been to this camp every year since i was 7 but i wasn’t depressed or cutting b4 i was 12.. The staff know me quite well but theres always new kids… Idk wat to do -.- Â /:
Hello, my name is Marissa. I’m 14. And I’m desperate for help.
Let’s start with my average day, I go to school at 6:50. The first starts at 7:15 an so does my depression. I’ve never been good at making friends and expressing my feelings. No one really knows about my depression besides my best friend. I have 3 classes with her daily, study hall, math and English. I go to youth group every Thursday but Christ doesn’t seem to love me anymore. I’m verbaly abused everyday by everyone. I want to be an art teacher when I get older( that’s if I’m still alive). My […]
Ive been so depressed lately I just don’t know what to do with myself any more I have cuts and scars all over. One of my friends laughed at me when I told her I cut. My mum thinks I stopped I just don’t have the strength to tell her. My step dad abuses me I have a cut on my head thanks to him. I cry every night. I can’t get the image of my aunt out of my head since September when she died. She was more of a mum then mine. I haven’t seen my father since 2005 he said he loved […]