Dads.tatoo – A new website and a place to tell my story and educate the masses! Â Would love to hear what you think about it!
my mom is always yelling at me , acting like im stupid ,and that i dont ever know what im talking about . and when i try to talk to her or make a conversation all she does is ignore me . she talks about me to her friends , and my family , and not in good ways . i havent cut or done anything to harm myself . but i dont want it to happen , so i wanna get this out . i hate my life . i live with my mom and step dad , he has money , and thats […]
I’m young. 14.
FUCK?! A 14 year old wanting to die already?! Damn…
Well… Lets see if you still think that after this; …
I was 3. My dad had walked out on my mum. She had me, and two other kids, Older than me. Both different dads to me. Mum had to work 12 hours a day, So my older brother and sister would go to their own aunties/uncles house while she worked, And I would go to mine. My mum chose the wrong uncle. Alan. Even the name… Ugh! Anyway… I’d be there with my cousin, Jay. Who was my other uncles son, […]
So i faced my worse fear.. But the so called “vacation” i suppose to have fun on didn’t go as i planned… When i got to Ontario the first 2 days was relaxing and sorta fun. I hadn’t relaxed in a long time it was nice but after that my depression took a spiraling turn for the worst… I got extremely depressed i couldn’t even find the strength to play with my 2 year old baby brother Jayson whom was plastered to my side the whole time i was there… When we got home a week later i started to loosen up and relax.. But […]
well…i guess i can say it started when i was only a few years old….my parents were both drug addicts…i was in the bars with my mom and dad till my dad met my step mom when i was almost 4…for me it was normal….but then again so was buying my own food at the store, stealing money from my mom while she slept of the drugs andÂ alcohol for the food, being used asÂ collateralÂ when she didnt have drug money, and being molested by her many boyfriends. then id go home to my dads, he and my mom worked alot…and did drugs so they werent always […]
I feel so much hate by my mom . I don’t even know her anymore . She’s always getting mad at me for no reason ? I ask her something and she get’s mad . But i can tell she loves my middle sister more . She’s always talking about her and she never gets mad at . I’m 15 and ive always tried to behave good just so that my mom would be proud of me . I dance , and i don’t want nothing to ruined it . Since i have a boyfriend , my mom thinks im going to open my legs […]
i dont want to be here anymore
i dont know what going on my lifes so messed up. everything went wrong when i was taken from my mother at the age of 11 i had to move to my dads because social services said my mum emotionally and mentaly abused us i was a good kid i looked after my younger sibling while my older brother and sister took drugs with my mum so when we was taken i was relieved in a way but my whole life changed from there. i have 4 sisters and 1 brother we all got seperated and we had supervised […]
I don’t know where this post will take me, but i just need to write to take my mind off walking to thesupermarket and buying a binge fest. I have already eaten 6 bars of chocolate, 3 packet of crisps (potato chips?) 1 tub of ben and jerry icecream… Been for a run, had an extremely hot shower and my empty void is still there.. Add to that the half block of cheese i just ate and the two cheese toasties that are cooking..
I am also going to my dads for tea, his fridge is stockpiled with binge worthy food…. Argh… Anyone got any tips […]
kso lately i feel like i ruined everyones lives.
i ruined my moms life because she had to have me when she was 16 and drop out of school and couldnt become a nurse like she wanted. but she did go back and finish high school. 10 yrs later.
i ruined my dads because, well he had to have me also at a young age. but he walked out on my momÂ when she was pregnant with me.
i ruinedÂ my families life because i just did. they always tell me they would be better off with out me. (well my sisters always say that)
maybe they will be better off […]
IÂ stop cutting awhile ago, but now i have been having problems again, and i started cutting again. Every once in awhileÂ I get a feeling like if i aint here(earth) everyone will be happy.Â I feel like i ruin everyones lives.Â I ruined my moms, my dads, my WHOLE FAMILIES lives.Â I want to be and i want them to be happy. The only way that will happen is if i am gone forever.Â I just want to be happy.Â I have been suffering from depression since i was 8 and now i am 16.Â I want to end this now. So maybe this is a goodbye forever.
For the past two years my life has been completely screwed over because of the sickest most evil selfish woman i have ever had the misfortune to meet. We had a beautiful baby girl togeather. Afterwards when I signed the birth cert she said to me “hah, now youre gonna pay” but I only realised after she kicked me out three weeks later that she only wanted me as a means of having a kid and when I signed the birth cert she could then feel free to kick me out of the house and take me to court and try to get as much […]
hi. i’m buggie29. buggie because thats what this boy used to call me. i want to die. im scared though. my dads a police and he kinda used to always tell me stories about people who wanted to commit suicide. i always thought they were so stupid, but now im in their position. im scared, but i dont want to have to deal with this bullshit that happens anymore.
Hi People! Again its me! no joke… i dont write that often x)
anyways! this night, high again but this time on speed… thinking about some things ive done
today for a change i went to my moms place to see her (ya she kicked me out umm.. 1 month ago) so yaa i went to see her to pick clothes and my guitar and also talk and mayb arrange things… abviously she talked to me in a bitchy way this made me FUCKING angry i tried to calm down but i started replying back in a stupide way to joke around (btw i was […]
Hello, I am 15 years old and I have tried to kill myself 17 times already.
My Dads a murderer, I don’t get my mum anymore, I’m scared, she’s so empty, so angry. You see my mum suffers fromÂ borderlineÂ personality disorder, I’ve been brought up around so I should be use to it by now surely? But I’m not, I’m petrified, my Mums also physically ill however won’t go to the doctors. I’m afraid she might have cancer. Â It’s like she’s in denial, like she refuses toÂ acknowledge her ill health. It’s hard, I’m lonely, I have my friends, but thats not my mum. Its always been me […]
Â The very first time i had ever cutÂ my self on purpose was when i was 11 with a shaving razzor I saw my sister that was visiting from Tennessee kissing my nieghbor and i dont know why I felt even that young that cheating on someone was and is wrong but i remembered my brother telling me something about cutting helps some times so i grabed my dads shaving razzor and broke it apart and started cutting downward pretty deep it stang for a while and kept stinging for days but after i thought about it in some way it did help so i […]