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I hung myself this morning

by MaxBlaise
written by MaxBlaise

For a long time now I’ve been subconsciously planning my suicide. My main reason for this is this ever growing sensation of “weltschmerz” – feeling the pain of the world and the uselessness of existence and living.
I have a good job that pays well. I am married to a woman that loves me, I have two beautiful and adorable children and still these aren’t good enough reasons for me to keep on living.

For as long that I can remember, I’ve been trying to live life, but never really knowing how. On the outside I’m am successful, but on the inside there is only this […]

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Here I Am

by Olivia Katelynn
written by Olivia Katelynn

Never thought I’d end up here again.

Im sitting on my bed with a pile of pills in front of me and i dont know whether or not to do it. It seems like everyone has given up on me. My mother saw my cuts and everything started falling apart. My sisters have nothing to do with me any more. My parents send me to my room a lot. My friends exclude me from many things. I just want to be normal. I want the cuts to heal, but they cant if i keep making new ones. I dont know why i cant stop.

Im a fail. […]

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Try so hard but it always hurts

by missmysons
written by missmysons

Thank you for reading my text because I feel totally alone right now. I grew with a rageful alcoholic mother who turned all her self-degregation on me. I always felt like a doll not a person and she was so very very scary–could slice with her words in a way that made you feel like nothing at all. But, I was well-liked at school and in sports– I tried so hard to be good. When I was a teenager, my father wrote me a letter telling me that I wasn’t worthy of being their daughter anymore. I had tried so […]

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Fuck. My. (So-Called). Life.

by cocoblair
written by cocoblair

Everyone’s annoying and out to get you. Your friends are disrespectful and unappreciative little cunts who don’t give a shit about what you’re going trough (the only reason they ask ,,what’s wrong” is purely curiosity) and the people around you stopped appreciating you a long time ago. 

You’re an ugly little ***** who no guy will ever date, fuck or marry.

You’re not doing well in school or work ergo you deserve to die because you’re a useless member of this society. 

By wanting to kill yourself, talking about depression and anxiety, having anger fits and complaining makes you either boring or a scary individual that nobody wants […]

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im already dead inside.

by axilisdead
written by axilisdead

I cant take it anymore. I miss the old me..you know that happy one. That tiny with the actual happy smiles. The real smiles. Im so tired and i cant even find something i like anymore. i could say i want to get better. I’ve tried, many times. But the only time i feel happy is when im with one of my friends…well used to be friend. He helped me through everything. Yet, i pushed him away. He never gave up. ever. he probably still has hope for some reason im scared to be with him. My girlfriends wo i barely tell anything to has […]

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I wanted to reply “yes”.

by hazelleyes
written by hazelleyes

I feel drained.

All my energy is being drained by that dark hole I so often talk about.

To whoever said it will get better, well fuck you, cus it doesn’t. It just keeps getting harder. And I keep getting weaker.

 

My bestfriend today texted me “did you die?”. And I know she didn’t mean anything wrong, whatsoever (she doesn’t know how I feel or how badly I want to die), she was just saying that cus I hadn’t said anything all day (well, given that I woke up at 8pm, it’s understandable). But, as I looked at that text I just wanted to reply “YES“, and I […]

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I Know a Girl

by RobynsRose
written by RobynsRose

I know a girl. She always had two sides to her.

The Outside; She was pretty, happy, loving. She always put her friends first, did everything she could to help them, always had a smile and a hug set aside for anyone who needed it. She had hopes and dreams for a future, she had a loving boyfriend, who was dedicated to her. She always told the truth when it came to other people, even when she knew it would hurt. She always found the brighter side of everything. She had good grades, she had every talent, she was amazing.

The Inside: She hurt. She couldn’t cry, so she […]

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falling

by indifferent
written by indifferent

once again ive broken to pieces. how pathetic is that? im not suppose to break down. what the hell am i suppose to do? i just want to crawl into a dark hole away from everybody and just stay there. can i do that? no i cant. everytime i hide away i get dragged out and forced to face the fact that my life sucks. yea, sure there are plenty of things i can do to make it better, but it just seems pointless. everytime i try to do something that i want to do or that i think would be fun i get wierd […]

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Barely Holding On

by Another Number
written by Another Number

I don’t understand how all these little things can hold me back. Make me feel afraid. Too afraid to actually go through anything, and I all can manage is to hurt myself.

She’s one of the reasons why I’m holding on. She makes me feel so happy when I’m with her, and whenever I talk to her, I just end up smiling. I forget the rest of the world and I just want to be with her, always talking, somehow always communicating. Cause she’s one of my lifelines making me stay here.

The endless possibilities. The curiosity of what life will be like if I stick through […]

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Only time will tell- which i might not have

by Kgalalelo
written by Kgalalelo

ppl its been so long since iv actually written something.

nothing has really changed in my life except dat it gets worse and i keep on sinking deeper and deeper into this dark hole, im so tired of all these emotions. Iv been going to church alot lately but when i get home i go back to the same old darkness and neverending pain. i cant stand this pain no more. i have nothing left to lose and its not like anyone really cares or truly loves me and it will be best if i just left dis world.

i thought it will get better with time […]

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my mermaid

by saddest-panda
written by saddest-panda

a dark hole .. falling down ..

i miss the days ..she  was around..

shes still here but the feelings are gone..

a kind of love that didnt last long..

before had no reson no life to hold on..

i has torn apart at the very bottom..

scars that would never be forrgotton..

i hope you know you where my only reson..

my only hope .. only smile to beleve in

and even though.. its true you where taken ..

i hope you know you gave me heven…

your by best friend.. i know you care..

you numbed the pain i could not bare..

only you coud give me laughter..

and .. i know that where not right together..

but […]

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