I don’t really know where to start with this. The school year’s just begun but I already feel like I’m dying. Like, I really just want it to end and I feel all alone and I dunno. I know that people would miss me if I died but now I just can’t bring myself to really care as much. I’m just empty and numb and I don’t know what I’m doing with my life. Like, why can’t I just move out and go to college already so that I can fuck up my life without anyone here to see. Like, why was I born. Why […]
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Dead Inside
No longer pregnant so I have my method picked out. It’s a double method because suicide has a 75% failure rate or so. Basically the only way to be successful is overkill. Both have a high failure rate but in combination and how I’m going to carry them out I’m pretty confident in the ability to complete.
I just got to wait until there’s not a doubt in my mind. Doubt will save ya.
I’ve never felt so dead. You cant ever erase what you see or hear, the hurt will stay forever. This world is full of mean people. Therefore, I crash and burn, but sadly I always stand back up. I guess I’ll never learn.
I know how much my family loves me and I would never do anything to hurt them. I cannot escape this world, because loved ones keep me here. My past haunts me and so does the future. College is hard and I feel alone even though I am not. I put on a painted smile because I dont want them to know […]
I may not fake happiness; but I know its not real.
I may not cut myself; but that’s how I feel.
I may fear death; but I still want to die.
I may be young; but I feel old.
I may be up; but it feels like I’m down.
I may want things; but I know I have to wait. .
I don’t know how much longer I can stand.
I may have friends; but no one who understnads.
I may love sports; but how does that help?
I may have family who cares; but they’re all busy with themselves
I may be alive; but that doesn’t […]