It’s incredible to think that I have to stop here. But the pain is overwhelming. I am afraid of being alone. Too afraid. I have no family. I was abandoned by my parents when I was 6 and I never saw them again. Right now I have a GF who abuses me psychologically, she is a drug addict who cheats on me and I cannot leave her because I am too scared of being alone. Loneliness is my handicap and I can’t take it anymore. I have no self respect to say NO and way too much resentment towards her to be able to solve […]
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Dead Man Walking
Until I got the news today, the news that just might finalize my decision, I felt like a dead man walking for the past few months. And back then, things were going relatively well. But now…
There is something comforting about knowing I’m going to die. I’m scared too. But honestly, every life is a death sentence. There is some beauty in being the one to end my life. A sense of real control.