“I don’t understand why we must do things in this world, why we must have friends and aspirations, hopes and dreams. Wouldn’t it be better to retreat to a faraway corner of the world, where all its noise and complications would be heard no more? Then we could renounce culture and ambitions; we would lose everything and gain nothing; for what is there to be gained from this world? There are people to whom gain is unimportant, who are hopelessly unhappy and lonely. We are so closed to one another! And yet, were we to be totally open to each other, reading into the depths […]
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Deathbed
White roses scatted over the frozen ground
Snow falling disguising the beauty
Silence in this small corner of the world
Peace at last
Laughing and racing through the purity
Anxious for the end
Reaching it she finally sees
And regrets immediately
There is no way to forget
Wishing to un-know
As the first flickers of pain
Burn her consciousness
Unable to stop moving
She sprints through this forest
Evergreen towers judge her from above
And the day slowly fades
Her ivory gown flaps dissonantly behind
Like the wings of a mangled sky-beast
Her breath comes rapidly
As the torment closes in
There is no way to escape
Wishing to un-know
When I say it’s been a “full” life, I definitely don’t mean it’s been a happy one. But I’ve accomplished a lot, experienced a lot, and now like a runner who’s exhausted and crippled from running so hard I’m going to stop.
Human society is anti-suicide. Everyone tells you it’s wrong, everyone tries to talk you out of it. That’s fine. But I really think suicide is a logical action when you no longer have a desire to live (a lot more logical than continuing to do something you don’t want to do).
I lost my desire to live a year ago when something horrible happened. I held on for […]