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Delusion

A Haven for Hellish Creatures

by hobojoe167 5/14/2015

written by hobojoe167

Does anyone ever think that begging for help causes more depression. I know I didn’t; or rather, I didn’t want to accept.

Hell is not the place we go when we die, it is where we are right now, the reason why this website is in front of us.

“He who fights with monsters should look to it that he himself does not become a monster. And when you gaze long into an abyss the abyss also gazes into you.” -Nietzsche.

I have recently finished Ayn Rand’s The Fountainhead and I feel a great disturbance, now, as I partly felt before, when people say “I won’t judge” or “It […]

5/14/2015 2 comments

Delusion…

by RealTalk30 11/5/2014

written by RealTalk30

This is something I’ll have to try and explain to my therapist. I figured I’d try to write it down first.
I suffer from delusional episodes. I don’t consider too many of my delusions “off the wall” or entirely “crazy” but never the less they exist only in my mind and it’s been proven to me on many occasions, but not before making outrageous claims, embarrassing myself and losing people I would have hoped to keep as friends..or more. This is why I say I suffer from delusions, because I drive away everyone who cares and the ones that stay get sucked into my pitiful […]

11/5/2014 8 comments

Vengence, Victory and Vindication Through Suicide

by Twilightdirge 7/4/2013

written by Twilightdirge

It’s the ultimate revenge, the ultimate statement upon this sick, delusional, worthless farce known as humanity. Life is so very overrated. Everything we think we know is bullshit. Everything is a delusion. Dreams. Success. Love. Charity. Compassion. These are all illusions that hide the craving for disease and evil humanity promotes and chases. To end one’s life is the ultimate finger in the face of all these delusional lemmings. To end one’s life is the ultimate statement of awareness. It tells the universe that you see through the lies, see through the bullshit, and no longer want to drink the Kool-Aid anymore. It is only […]

7/4/2013 6 comments

Chainsaw

by flatus 6/9/2013

written by flatus

Forlorn lists true contempt destruct
Dripping red is it time to come clean
Wash away everything
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tJngx-X-mTU
Hold the frame still life focus
One’s intent to not be noticed
Lost in lies graceful charms
Losing touch with everyone

Management terms and conditions
Waiting for own in addition
Contract is raised

The world’s greatest mortuary

Self destructive mechanism
Introvert overturn assasination
Make from steel the ugly weapon
Killer’s instinct from man to trigger

Peaceful time direct potential
Living through one’s own dementia

Come on hold arms
Dissect division caress duress
Invite delusion back moving through the keyhole
Trust in keeping a value judgement
Overthrown like a […]

6/9/2013 8 comments

Looking for someone to talk to who shares my views

by earbuds 4/21/2013

written by earbuds

I’ve been trying to discover some meaning in life but keep coming to the conclusion that there isn’t one, because there isn’t. I wish I had a delusion like most people in order to get some fulfillment out of this, but I don’t, I never have, and I can’t lie to myself to create one. I’m too much of a realist, and I see how shitty this world is, and how pointless it all is and I just don’t want to be a part of it. I really hate life. Not mine in particular, although mine does indeed suck in many ways,Â but life in general.Â I […]

4/21/2013 10 comments

i want to go like him

by pessimist 11/16/2012

written by pessimist

first off let me start by stating that i dont believe in any sort of afterlife. i dont belive in god or heaven or hell. i dont believe in reincarnation. i believe that once we die we are just simply…gone.
anyway my boyfriend died a little over a year ago from heroin od. we used together but we had a falling out & he started shooting up which we never did. at around the one year mark (august) i felt like i had finally recovered and moved on from his passing but lately ive started shooting up and i chase that feeling constantly… that rush. […]

11/16/2012 4 comments

A Dissertation On Life: Researched for xx Years

by AGenericPerson 5/10/2012

written by AGenericPerson

There are only two things in life. Success and failure. Call them as you will, happiness and discontentment, power and disinfluence, or fame or obscurity. There is only one thing after life. Death. To those who want it, it comes too late. To those who don’t, it comes too soon. Life is the long winding road to death. After our deaths comes the death of all who we know, and then the death of all who they have ever met and so on. The chance that everyone you have ever influenced will be dead increases over time. But you already know that. We delude ourselves […]

5/10/2012 0 comment

the glass wall

by ivansings 4/22/2012

written by ivansings

When I went to the nuthouse, I brought two books with me: Orhan Pamuk’sÂ SnowÂ and Gyorgy Konrad’sÂ Stonedial.Â The latter is the closest I will ever have to a bible; every time I’ve gone somewhere new, that book has come with me. After all, Dragoman wouldn’t have walked through the double doors of the psychiatric hospital with shoulders rounded, arms clenched, flinching at every touch and trying to make himself as small as possible so as not to be hurt; Dragoman would have walked in like he owned the place, grinned, cracked a joke… he would have treated their confiscating of his clothing as amusing and, if I’m […]

4/22/2012 1 comment

Solace in solitude and impending demise

by U.N. Owen 4/3/2012

written by U.N. Owen

Go away. I do not want you around. Let me alone. Stop asking what is wrong.

You cannot fix it. Nobody can fix it. No I do not want to see it a different way because it will still exist.

I do not want to deal with it at all. I never asked for it. I never wanted it.

All your suggestions have been tried. And I refuse to settle.Â Refuse to accept and deal with that which is not wanted.

No more risks.Â No more grasping at straws. No more extending a hand only to get it burned or bitten.

No more believing the lies.Â No more giving in […]

4/3/2012 8 comments

I’m Fake.

by xXxWrAtHxXx 3/27/2012

written by xXxWrAtHxXx

I learned this recently. The story is very confusing. Are you ready?

This is who I thought I was: a severely schizophrenic German boy, who was severely abused as a child, alongside his twin sister. He has a boyfriend, who also has a twin. He is in Foster care.

Who I really am: a Canadian girl, less severely abused, with no twin, no boyfriend, and no Foster care.

What happened: I have multiple personalities. I suppose I’m transgender, because all the personalities are male. I am also schizophrenic, though not as badly as previously thought. The original personality, the female birthed 18 years ago next week, is gone. […]

3/27/2012 2 comments

The more I know the less I know.

by everythingis 2/16/2012

written by everythingis

The more I know the less I know. I truly know nothing. Life is about living outside one’s self, the world is greater than your perception of it, I know this, believe it, feel it, yet I still feel numb. I feel guilty for what I have and resentful for what I don’t. I’m in constant contradiction. I just cannot fill the void that’s inside me. I know deep down I’m blessed, seeing others, knowing and feeling what others go through only makes me feel lesser than what I am. I’m stuck in thought and just fail to progress. This to shall pass, but is […]

2/16/2012 1 comment

Maybe

by batdern 1/22/2012

written by batdern

I think about suicide quite often these days. I am waiting that irresistible wave that finally will sweep me to this inevitable moment of madness. A moment that past and future will disappear. Only the body between other side and now ,to be destroyed. Moment of crystal clear intentions of living in permanence instead of constant agony of trying to catch it. Such a delusion! No wonder most of us choose to live when we turn that corner of no return.

Why would anybody creates such a tempting site so I can actually sit and contemplate my demise? And more importantly who takes her/his time to […]

1/22/2012 3 comments