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Deppresion

Seconds away from death.

by Different 2/4/2013

written by Different

Today I was seconds away from ending my life. What changed my mind I still do not know.

After 10 years of SEVERE deppresion I am tired, I am tired of it all. I am exhausted.

I tried fighting back for year after year. Medications and therapy(many different therapists) for 10 years and I have not moved a single step forward. Not one step..

2 years ago I gave up. After 8 years of trying I was tired of fighting and in the end i realised I am never going to feel joy again. Â I gave up hope.

I have always had suicidal thoughts for as long as I […]

2/4/2013 2 comments

How does it feel?

by Wishitwasbetter 1/1/2013

written by Wishitwasbetter

How does it feel? Your brother sees the cuts on your wrist. The scars on your thighs. He tells your sisters and parents. Now everyone knows. Months later… Your brother tells you to stop being so mad ” This is getting old. Nobody gives a shit. Deal with it. Emo” Then your sisters… ” Stop being so mean to people. They did nothing to you.” NOTHING? HUH. Thats why i have bruises from Dad. Thats why mom use to yell at me for trying to make new friends. HOW DOES IT FEEL? They are the reason i’m this way… Then there is people at school. […]

1/1/2013 6 comments

THANK YOU GUYS SO MUCH!!<333

by oemh 10/15/2012

written by oemh

i just wanted to say thank you to you guys you have helped me with soo much it. talking to you guys masde me feel like im not alone adn that other people feel the way i do too:). I’m trying to be happy i tried to do it awhile back but someone thing happended and i cracked</3.Â I’ve decieded not to tell my parents that i probally have reacurring deppresion becasue… well 1 i ont want them to think im screwed up and 2 im afariad of’ve what everyone else will think of me…. anyway THANK YOU GUYS SOO MUCH!!<3333 I PROBALLY WOULNT BE […]

10/15/2012 1 comment

i havent felt this scared in a long time

by birthright 7/11/2012

written by birthright

things with my deppresion and life in general have felt overall better recently, but it is a daily fight, its like the celldweller song-birthright “holding on until my hands and mind start bleeding” it feels like they are bleeding, beeding pain. im getting tired anmd i can tell, everytime im having a bad day i have to fight every waking moment and its making me tired, what if i slip back and end up so deep or deeper as i was before? honestly im scared, all these what ifs are running throught my mind, im getting tired of the fight. “hes on his way to […]

7/11/2012 5 comments

first time here

by birthright 3/23/2012

written by birthright

so this is my first post on this site, im not really sure what im expecting from it, iv been in counseling for 2 years and i have gotton worse i have severe clinical deppresion and its feeling like something i will never get rid of more and more each day, truth is im tired, of feeling like i want to die, of talking about ways to cope and what triggers my deppresion when theres nothing left i havent thought or said before, ive attempted suicide in december, and still my only regret is that i hadnt succeeded, there have been some difficult situations […]

3/23/2012 0 comment

Black widow

by grimallthetime 3/5/2012

written by grimallthetime

Here we are again.
i thought i was number one,
But now i have a chance to be a black widow on your wall.
i listen in every now and,
then when your about to cry,
Your deppresion has blinded you,
from what you need the most.
i’m supposed to be your host,
but its seems i’ve dissapeared.
the important thing is to remember,
i am always here.
i listen in every now and then when you scream,
though it looks like i m still,
as if i was serene.
your noise shakes my webs,
that i have spun neatly just for you.

3/5/2012 4 comments

mama’s girl

by jasmine 5/29/2009

written by jasmine

In 7th grade I had the bestest friend you could ask for, but then, she became a band geek and she just drifted away. Then in 8th grade i made a pretty damn good best friend. But then high school came and my bestfriend went to some other school, and everyone just changed. I started to look at everyone diffrently, andÂ all I saw were inconsiderate assholes. Then I noticed the shit my mom was going through: woke up at 5am, worked ’til 10pm every day, no days off. I feel so useless because I can’t do anything to help her. And she works her ass […]

5/29/2009 3 comments

I’m Sick and tired of being sick and tired!

by Zakulover101 3/9/2009

written by Zakulover101

So it all started in the fifth grade, My uncle had just died from cancer. I was sad of course. I started to wear alot of black. People of course did’nt care all they did was call me gothic and emo. My life was just so stupid, I didn’t know what to do at the age of 10, I had friends but why would I tell them anything?Â So I just became really isolated and just kept to myself, I thought this was just a new to live life, But then my mom was diagnosed with deppresion and Bipolar, Before that my parent’s split upp, […]

3/9/2009 2 comments