I’ve always wanted to submerge myself into something that would help numb these feelings,
I’ve always wanted to experience that complete lostness you see in someone deep into their work,
I’ve always envied that.
I’ve tried to lose myself in alcohol,
but these feelings make is seem as if I’m drinking poison.
I’ve tried to lose myself in drugs,
but these feelings make the strongest “uppers” into downers.
I knew these weren’t positive things to lose myself in,
but I didn’t care,
I was so desperate.
I’ve always wanted to be a great writer,
I wanted to paint beautiful scenes with my words,
but creativity […]
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Honestly its pissing me off and I really needed somewhere to rant and get out all these terrible ideas and thoughts out of my head.
Me and my boyfriend have been going through a rough patch with my trust issues and his past relationship. But I have been trying to put up with it for a long while. I mean, I do understand that we will things that the others left behind but saying the you have already got rid of it and lying to my face. It hurts. The reason why im just so incredibly angry right now is because I found naked pictures of […]
New to this, but have experiences I would like to share and would also like any advice from others.
I have large scars on my leg from top of my thigh to the knee, some very long and wide. On my left arm I have scars on both sides of my arm including my wrist. I have been in this situation for six years. I use to live in small towns where scars were more acceptable so I showed off my arm with ease and didn’t have any issues. I moved to a city a few years ago and have found peoples reactions more of an […]
But I always feel a empty inside me… Sometimes it’s very hard hold this feeling and I start cut myself…
It’s insane I know but I feel a little better after this…
And always whem I have a fight with my girl this empty grows and one peace of my heart disappear…
She have afraid of me, she said… She’s afraid that I do something stupid…
Sometimes I think she’s with me because of this fear… Fear of I keep cutting myself or do something worse…
I’m a insecure person, jealousy and depressant…
When I was diagnosed bipolar in 2007, my life was greatly devastated. Since 2002 I was taking online screening for depression on a pretty often basis and finding I was considered “severley depressed.” Now I was being told that sometimes I’m extremely happy? When have I ever been happy? I was hospitalized for 3 days a day after the first Christmas my Grand-Mother passed away when I was diagnosed by this hospital as bipolar. I could understand if I may have falsey put on a smile when saying hello to a nurse in passing but, it doesn’t even sound logical that I was happy. I […]