I want you to think of something, but not just anything. About you. About you life. Ever wondered how many people around you actually care and how many are just people waiting for gossip. Or if the people you loved so very much would care if you just one day disappeared. See I recently discovered just how many people “care”. We try to hide the things we love the most, and that’s exactly what I did. For many years I had a best friend. Someone who knew everything about me and the one person I thought really cared. I chose not to see who she […]
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I have stumbled across this site on accident and after looking over it all night and then joining, I am so grateful to have found it. I’ve been needing to talk to someone for a long time (decades, really). I realized I am scared to share it on here, also. No one will care (even though I know that here is the most probable place I will find like minds), it will be too long (because it is, indeed, an extremely long story and would probably have to be done in increments), because even though my problems ARE severe, I am fully aware that many […]
We all have felt the pain of this cruel world. Bullies, insensitive adults, ridiculing teachers, and so much more. This is a pain that seems to last forever. Truth is, it really does. I still can remember the pain I felt when I was bullied in elementary school. No matter how many cuts and bruises we take, we will never feel a relief. I love to feel the bite of any razor, and even cut over the same cuts over and over. Still though, over time the pain I recieve from these cuts dwindle more and more over time. My body now ridden with dozens […]
Things to be, things that are there, things to keep… They are the things that must exist. Because they stay unaffected by the evils of other things. They are like glass, even when broken, they keep shining. Â They are different for each person. They may not follow standards or fashion, only the person’s soul. So they don’t necessarily have to be material (like dreams). But what is certain is they are always the dearest, cherished ones. We cling onto them, never let go of them, and cry, when we lose them, or when they’re suddenly taken away from us. And even then, when they are […]
I just don’t know what to do anymore. I have a planned suicide date, a method(very effective) and I’m ready to die.. I’ve taken dozens of different meds and I go to therapy, I have a great family and awesome friends but nothing helps! I try to diet, go out with friends even when I don’t want to leave my room and I try to do things that make me happy but nothing works! I have 7 days left at this point and I’m 95% sure I’m going to go through with it. I really don’t know why I’m asking this but if anyone can […]
so like, i’m going to kill myself this weekend.. i write suicide notes all the time, but now the only thing i have to say is goodbye. after dozens of pages, all i can say is goodbye. that sums it up really.
I’m 24 years old and have been depressed since i was six. I was raised in a family where i could never be good enough no matter how hard i tried. I was always compared to my older sister because she did well in school, and was grounded pretty much from first grade till high school. I have tried to commit suicide several times, usually with something going wrong (or right according to some people). In high school i started cutting myself to deal with my depression as it became worse. When i went off to college i met this girl who was popular and […]
After I became an adult, I realized that the world is full of sufferings
true there’s joy as well, but the sufferings are much more severe
in everyone but children I see a shred of suffering
this site for example, has dozens of posts a day, only a small portion of the actual viewer, and I bet very large number of world populations also feel the same, don’t forget the people without internet connection in Africa or such. But in Africa everything is trying to kill everybody, death by suicide is the last concern
For all this sufferings, I wish God would help us all, I want to be […]
So, I’m going to be on therapy soon. For years I’ve been trying to cope with my past psychological traumas with heavy alcohol and drug use, had various sex partners I barely knew, nearly got killed several times, got injured heavily and got myself even more psychological traumas and now it seems they have reached their critical mass.
Worst is that I wanted to spray some positive graffity on the wall of my room and I googled “love” and ended up crying after seeing a whole lotta couples. But deep inside myself I am laughing about myself still being affected by my classmates making fun of […]
So … I was reading the comments and someone (I think emptyness7) said she’d seen so much suffering and evil in the world … so have I … lots … I’m arguably one of the oldest on this site so yeah … I’ve seen a WHOLE lot of bad shit. but also I’ve seen a lot of really, REALLY good stuff – from a lot of sensitive and caring and selfless people … like a lot of the kids on this site.
You wear you hearts on your sleeve and bloody it with your blades … and it pains me to think you’ll either kill it […]
“Enough is enough i can’t go on……”
I’m nearly fort-two, and suddenly i realized that if i was to die right now nobody would know. I have always felt this loneliness inside me since being a young child but until now i have never understood what lonely really was.
I’m going to end my life. I have tried several times before but failed in my attempts. I think if i try one more time i would get it right. I’ve searched the net every day looking for different ways to end it all, now i know i’ve been doing it all wrong. That’s why i keep failing.
I […]
The past 2 years have been hell for me, I cut myself, purged, and binged. The more I did it, the more I realized what I did to myself only made my problems worse. I hit rock bottom when I tried to kill myself… but a song saved me. I realized how stupid I was being and went back to writing music– something I’ve done as long as I can remember. As of today, I have dozens of songs written down and I have 12 about those 2 years that I’m actually going to record and put on an album someday. It really does get […]
i’m suicidal all the time. it’s always on my mind. i’ve only made one “serious” attempt that got me in the hospital, but i’m scared of asking people for help and i’ve made dozens of mini-attempts (that no one knows about) or put myself in risky situations countless times. i just wish i could die already. i’m scared of what comes after death (i’m agnostic, i don’t have a particular belief because i don’t know.) but i’m scared of what living will bring me as well..
my story is not particularly abnormal or interesting. rejected by a drug abusing father, raped at 18, kicked out of […]