I do. It seriously feels like a disability often. You have so much that you have to worry about like making sure you don’t get raped. Every time I go out somewhere, I’m always told not to be out too late since it’s “especially dangerous for girls.” I hate that. That makes me try to dress as much like a boy as I can, so maybe I’ll be mistaken for one. I think about cutting my hair short and not shaving, but then I’ll be labeled as a “butch lesbian” since I am gay. It’s not fair. Aside from the obvious things like getting your […]
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….I would greatly appreciate it. 😀
Ha.
If I communicate with anyone more before my craziness has subsided, it shall be using a telegraph and morse code. Much harder to act like a complete dumbass/asshole/moron/idiot or whatever else I may act like whilst insane that way.
I mean, unless someone wants to throw a brick at my head, in which case, sweet.
I was in love with this boy. He had black hair, bright blue eyes, and scars on his arms. He held me in his arms everyday I saw him. He grabbed my hand when he saw hopelessness in my eyes. He kissed me when I felt alone. What else could I have asked for? When we were in bed naked, lying next to each other, he’d kiss the scars on my arms. The bruises on my hands. The burns on my wrist. I was in love, so deep, that I would have never imagined the day to come that he’d no longer want me. Love […]
Death looks pretty attractive right now. The other night I went up into my attic looking for some guns my parents have been hiding. I fell through the attic and busted up my leg pretty good. Needless to say I feel even worse now. The last two days at work I haven’t been able to stop myself from crying. My supervisor gave me an extremely simple straight-forward assignment and I can’t do it. I can’t focus or concentrate on it. I’m stupid and worthless and lazy. I don’t deserve a good career. I don’t even deserve a bad career. I deserve no career. I fuck […]
kay so today i was in the lunch room and my tray was slammed into my face and a girl got in my face 🙁 so she strted talking crap her friend said wtf just punch her already…….. so she did :'( no one bothered to help me wtf i was picked up early i went home and my mom had to go back to work and i decided to be a dumbass and drink bleach……….. again……… i was n the hospital al day they flushed my system >:( i really dont understand AGAIN WHY AM I STILL HERE i tryed hanging my self too […]
Okay so lately i have been a real dumbass getting myself a lot of stupid things & i might do ecstasy pills this week &; i might also do weed brownies:/ i have never ever done drugs but i feel my old depressed &; suicidal self is coming back & i dont want to cut anymore but it seems like im turning myself to drugs :c i dont know what the hell to do cause i truly dont have no one who truly understands what im going through. I feel like if i done drugs i will be happy again & i wont have to […]
i am a woman,but i feel like a child sometimes. im married with a child, i dont know want to have these thought because i love my family but i feel like shit. i dont know if im smiling or im just waiting for the end of the day i stay at home ive only had 1 job n been out off work for a while He works and goes to trade school…somedays i try i look online for work i clean but i just give up its like forever is a day and it comes everyday we’ve moved far away from my […]
My name is Alex. Everyone thought I was the happiest person they knew. I made myself believe it at times. I have been depressed since I was about six. And now seven years later…I Still am. My father left me, my sister, and my mother just so he could run off to live in Oklahoma with his hooker girlfriend. I believed everything was my fault. That nothing would ever get better. That nothing mattered. I was six. I was so depressed.Everyone thought that because I was so young that I wouldn’t be able to understand what was happening. But I did. They didn’t think that […]
Ok, so I want to talk about the first (and only) suicide attempt I’ve ever made. It took place about a year ago. It was a pretty fucked up time in my life, as I’d just gotten my 2nd DUI and almost at the same time I was breaking up with my girlfriend. I was so in love with this girl I won’t even bother to elaborate on it, as it would probably make most people sick. That said, I was on my way to work one morning shortly after I’d gotten out of jail, and recieved a call from my ex. As we were […]