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Elephant

Annie dog

by flatus 6/22/2013

written by flatus

Amphetamine Annie-dog
Pulls her trash and her stories
From place to place and bed to bed
Gives of herself and the magnet head
Another floor another ceiling
Counting stars with double meanings

Is it wrong to be swallowed whole
To disappear in her
To give to her the priceless peace
Of giving up control

We tumble out into the streets
And Annie dog she drags her leash
Pretty face ugly mouth
Bitter breath and so released

And by the no and in the yes
Annie goes if you couldn’t guess
A simple man a sycophant
Her elephant with the laughing call
She wants clean […]

6/22/2013 0 comment

Well I’ve been struggling with depression and suicide for a long time now as well as my own anger and hate of the people that bullied me my entire life in the name of their God. I have been at peace with death for a long time now and feel that it would be best and easier if I can just die peacefully. I’m waiting till I get back to my college dorm room for a couple days so I can get everything together for my family and few friends. I feel as if my emotional pain and mental illness are unbearable no matter what […]

3/23/2012 5 comments

sadness

by sad hat 2/19/2012

written by sad hat

i want to disappear, forever. it’s been a year, the most agonizing and painfully slow year of my life. i should be better, but i’m not.

recently, i was admitted into a psychiatric unit as an inpatient. i was on suicide watch. they locked me in a room and had a police guard sitting outside my door. then i was diagnosed with depression and borderline personality disorder. i had to call my mom. she cried. it hurt.

i cut. i hate myself. i hate my elephant body. i count calories meticulously, but i also go on terrible binges. i purge. my sad bouts get progressively worse. i […]

2/19/2012 1 comment

Elephant

Annie dog

Ready to die

sadness