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end it all

Help Myself.

by GTSuicide_6 3/2/2016

written by GTSuicide_6

I wrote a previous post about me finally having the opportunity to see a psychologist. I also mentioned how I am going to end it all in a month.

Please hear me out:

I want the answers. I want to hear it from a real psychologist, the things I have. I want to know if there’s something else. I want to know if I have OCD or if its something else that makes me react at times. I want to hear the doctor confirm that, yes, I do have depression. Yes, I do have something. Yes, all my self-diagnosing was correct. I want to hear that I […]

3/2/2016 10 comments

Getting Help.

by GTSuicide_6 3/2/2016

written by GTSuicide_6

I’m finally going to go see a psychologist.
I set up a meeting for next week.
I don’t know why I am doing this. If most of y’all have followed some of my posts, I stated my decision to end it all in a month.
I guess I just want to hear the problems directly. You know, self diagnosing? I say, before I die, I want to hear it formally. A real diagnosis.
How can I really die if I’ve never heard a professional confirm it?
But hearing it all is, ultimately, not what I want either.
Its just another reason to point out and […]

3/2/2016 5 comments

slowly giving up…

by voiceless 2/21/2016

written by voiceless

I just can’t find any reason to live anymore. I try to be grateful for what I have because I know thousands or even millions of people have it way worse than me, but I can’t realize what I have right in front of me. I’m on the verge of failing all of my classes and I’m slowly giving up on school as well as my life. I always think about how my life will be in the future if I don’t get my shit together now, like get my grades up and whatnot. However, I also think about how I could just end it […]

2/21/2016 7 comments

So lonely

by HenkWeg 2/21/2016

written by HenkWeg

The constant thought of ending my life is tearing me down. I wish to end it, but somehow I can’t.

The thought of suicide keeps coming back and slowly becomes stronger and stronger.

My friends and my family have abandoned me. I never bothered to look them up. Now I want to look them up, they don’t have time for me :'(

I don’t care anymore whether I live or die and now I am dealing with my survival instinct. I wonder when I will find the strength to finally end it all.

All the harassment cost me my friends and the people doing the harassing and stalking have […]

2/21/2016 6 comments

First Post

by Alan Ominous 2/5/2016

written by Alan Ominous

Reaching out, maybe I’ll get some insight or relate with someone.

To start, I don’t want to commit suicide. I would however welcome the embrace of death. So if it must come by my own hands, it’s something that will take time to build courage.

See, I don’t really want to die. I’m just failing to see another option. I’m trapped, currently. Bound in captivity. Not a situation I can fight through. I’ve been fighting for years. Though I may win a battle here and there, it’s clear I’m losing the war. I can’t escape, or run away. There are many dependant on me. So what will […]

2/5/2016 5 comments

Tomorrow

by Kninea 1/14/2016

written by Kninea

Today I wanna talk about suicide. I don’t mean to offend anyone when I say this, but most of you are looking for the easy way out. Now I know you’re thinking ‘You think this is the easy way out?’ When really it is the easy way out. You don’t want to stay and fight through the pain like most of us have. You can’t handle the pain so you want to end it all. The point of this post is to tell you all that are contemplating suicide that you don’t have to end it and you’re not alone. Look at all these people […]

1/14/2016 12 comments

And I’m telling you, I just want to die.

by mranony 1/2/2016

written by mranony

My parents discovered my cuts because my aunt told them when she noticed it.

I don’t know how to explain it to them. I just want to end it all. Yes, I appreciate the good things. Yes, I am aware of your love. Yes, life is beautiful. I KNOW. I FUCKING KNOW. BUT I JUST REALLY REALLY HATE MYSELF. I JUST WANT TO DIE.

Why do you say it like it’s my fault that I need to say sorry? Why do you say it like you’re the victim? Because you were hurt? That the pain on your back is coming back because of my cutting habit? Why […]

1/2/2016 13 comments

Just another year

by fruitpopsicle 1/1/2016

written by fruitpopsicle

hey so I found SP while I was researching on pills overdosage and ever since the past few months been lurking on this page, reading many posts and decided to make an account today.
Its another year and most of the people I see are anticipating what the new year brings but im dreading it. Really, really badly. School is starting which is bad because I have to deal alot with being lonely and left out and anxiety issues which sucks alot. I know there are way graver problems out there, people starving in Africa, beggars on the street. And here am I, letting my […]

1/1/2016 7 comments

I’m writing this…

by tiredthoughts 12/29/2015

written by tiredthoughts

I’ve been considering dying for awhile now like 8 months. Since I got let go by a girl that made it seem like it would work. I’m still hung up on it, i was told I did nothing wrong blah blah. But I never stopped believing or even, I never had let go of it. For months of self sabotage and begging and pleading respectfully. I got nothing but a “I don’t care, it was nothing” to her. Although everything to me. I self sabotaged, cried and sought out everything. Really the ppl of sp is all that ever helped. But I lived with it […]

12/29/2015 26 comments

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by whiskered-fish 12/23/2015

written by whiskered-fish

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12/23/2015 12 comments

Perpetual silent agony

by Demiurge 12/13/2015

written by Demiurge

I’ve been thinking about suicide since I was 13 years old. That was a long time ago.

This morning I woke up alone in my house, with this urge to end it all even stronger than before, but I know I’m not gonna do it, because I’m a coward, because I’m afraid, because I don’t want more suffering. I know that if I try something I’m gonna fail and gonna be in a worst physical state. I have this horrible pain in my arms, I don’t know what it is, but the stress and the depression make it worse.

I checked Facebook and I found all this […]

12/13/2015 11 comments

stupid…

by Nowhere88 12/8/2015

written by Nowhere88

I’m 30 now and still can’t Forget my father spanking me, pointing the gun to my mom’s head. My older brother and sister hitting me and hurting me, and other kids making fun of me at school. They hurt me so many times and then they ran away soon and I had to grow up as an only son. I cannot forget that I could not sleep quietly because he threatened so many times of starting a fire on our house and on me and my mom in the Middle of the night and Kill us both and himself right after. I can’t just erase […]

12/8/2015 6 comments

When is it going to end?

by imperfectjenny 11/29/2015

written by imperfectjenny

Apparently I was already a member here, but I don’t remember joining. But I’m glad I re-found this site. I need a non-judgemental place to talk. I’ll try to keep it short. 😛

I’ve been severely depressed and suicidal for over 19 years now. I’ve had some periods of “ok-ness”, but nothing too exciting. Pretty much tried all the meds/med combos/ketamine infusion/ECT/different therapies/hospitalizations/residentials/etc. Had some random, minor attempts. And here I am today, still depressed as hell & just wanting to end it all.

My nephew killed himself almost 2 years ago. It was extremely heartbreaking and I’m still not even close to being over it. If […]

11/29/2015 21 comments

I’m Afraid of Myself

by Gry 11/24/2015

written by Gry

It’s been months since I’ve had a truly good day, lots of okay days, thanks to my wife, but no days where I don’t think “You should end it. Today.”

Somewhere along the way, I picked up a coping method to keep myself alive: My “72 Hour” Rule. You’re going to kill yourself? Fine, but there’s a 72 hour waiting period. Do whatever. Plan it, buy supplies, make sure your affairs are in order, but you can’t kill yourself for 3 days. You’ve lived this long, what’s 3 more days? I’m not even saying you have to get out of bed – Just don’t die, that’s […]

11/24/2015 11 comments

for everyone

by princessxx 11/14/2015

written by princessxx

I have wholeheartedly decided to end it all on Tuesday (when i have money). You are all so kind, it has warmed my heart. However, my pain is too strong and this is the only way

11/14/2015 35 comments

I’m really tired

by lonelygeneral 11/11/2015

written by lonelygeneral

It’s been 7 weeks today since I woke up from my failed attempt. I’ve struggled with anxiety and depression most my life. Since going to college it has gotten worse. This past semester, I was kick out of my suite because my roommates didn’t feel safe with me, because I got high twice. Of course having anxiety, I didn’t cope well with the change. I lost my best friend, I was struggling a lot and I just wanted to end it all. I took some pills, but I ended up waking up really sick. It was horrible. Things haven’t really gotten better. Everyday is hard […]

11/11/2015 2 comments

I don’t want to die, but I feel like there is no other way.

by Ninane 11/8/2015

written by Ninane

I’m a 17 years old girl who has been living with a depression for 4 years now. Everyday, for that period of time, I’ve been having the lingering desire to end it all. I have been subjected to bullying and intimidation for most of my school life which pushed me over the limit so many times. I only found comfort in cutting over and over again. I would, and still do, keep shattered glass somewhere or a blade which I would throw away but somehow always end up having anyways.I still want to live, and look forwards to the having a futur but sometimes it […]

11/8/2015 6 comments

Feeling done :‘(

by brokenredbutterfly 11/5/2015

written by brokenredbutterfly

so I haven’t been on here in a while so I thought it was a good thing but you people on here always help out when I post something and reading the comments you place really help me a lot to help myself.

I have been getting bullied a lot I dunno why. I have been getting called fat so I started going to the gym a few months ago I thought twas improving my appearance til some people at my college started taunting me calling me fat and ugly. You see I have a twin and she has always been the one people idolize over. […]

11/5/2015 7 comments

Have you ever reached that level of desperation?

by iicookieii 11/5/2015

written by iicookieii

The one where you’re so desperate to kill yourself that you’re willing to do anything? Where you’re willing to swallow anything, try anything, jump in front of anything? That level of desperation where the smallest and most minute of annoyances is enough to convince you that life isn’t worth living and that your only conceivable course of action is suicide? Where you’re just so desperate to end it all you just want anything to come along and take you away, even if you know that it won’t kill you, just hurt you.

I hate it when I reach that level. It’s like being a a wolf […]

11/5/2015 1 comment

The feeling of control…

by dummyaccount 10/7/2015

written by dummyaccount

I think… feel… know I’m worthless. This feeling of worthlessness does not solely originate from external factors. I’m a lazy sonofva, an unmotivated fool, a academically inept, and pretty much a waste of space of a human being. Those are some the sources of my pitiful wanting to end it all. However, as weird as it may sound, when I “tried” to actually “end it”, at the moment of knowing it will all be over, I felt joy, relief, and “not” depressed. Obviously I am still alive evidenced by me typing and sharing this and also I’m not in a hospital or any medical institution. […]

10/7/2015 2 comments

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