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Faith In God

Is Suicide Okay?

by Dais 8/23/2013

written by Dais

I am not going into full detail of all the shit that made me who I am today but I’ll give you aÂ little summary.

I was bullied horribly and pretty severely at a private school with 100+ kids and 20 kids in the grade. You were with the same people your whole pre-k to 8th year.

I contemplated suicide at the age of 11 and still do. I wouldn’t let my mom leave because the thoughts of it were overwhelming. She didn’t leave without me but she didn’t take it seriously. I was really going to take a knife and stab myself in the stomach. She didn’t […]

8/23/2013 6 comments

I hate my life so much

by NWiegert2013 7/26/2013

written by NWiegert2013

Lately it seems like everything is falling apart. I used to be so into church. God was everything to me. I finally got married to the woman of my dreams. I had a crush on her since i was just a boy. Everything seemed to be going great. We were married on July 28th 2012. Almost a year now. I had a great job, was a member of a wonderful church, and things seemed like they couldn’t get any better. Then i lost my job last December just before Christmas! Everything started to go down hill from there. Things seemed like they were going to […]

7/26/2013 5 comments

No hope

by No Hope 4/9/2013

written by No Hope

This is my first post. I’m Â a 31 yo female, a cutter, overweight and ugly….I deal with the pain every day. My dad is getting on in years and he has been forgetting a lot lately, which makes me even more sad becuz I know that he has real reasons to be depressed and want to die, but he doesn’t. But maybe it’s cuz he forgot he wanted to. My pain is mostly from love.
In 2011 I met someone I fell in love with, hard, and I know he didn’t feel the same way. How could he, I’m me! But over all this time […]

4/9/2013 4 comments

No one understands

by elise 3/6/2013

written by elise

Soon it will be seven months since the love of my life passed away. No one understands what it’s like to have to go through life without him. I feel completely lost and have wanted to give up so many times but I can’t because losing him gave me my faith in God and the fear of not being able to go to heaven and be with him again is too great to actually end it all. Every day is a challenge and some days I honestly miss him so much I just can’t even get out of bed.

3/6/2013 3 comments

Swallowed by Night

by lost and found 2/1/2013

written by lost and found

So, for my English class, I have to read Night by Elie Wiesel. I do not like reading about the Holocaust, because I am prone to nightmares. I don’t mean the fun kind, where you’re on a ship with Odysseus passing under Scylla and you know you’re going to wake up, because it’s a nightmare based off of ancient fiction. This is the kind of nightmare that you know real people lived and died, and there are pictures and film to prove it. Yes, the night I read the book, I dreamed that my school had gone Third Reich Etc Etc. I told my dad […]

2/1/2013 2 comments

How The Hell did I end up here!!!!

by samwisenomore 10/17/2012

written by samwisenomore

Ok, Let me first tell you, what prompted me to look up this website today, and vent out my frustration . I’ve been having suicidal thoughts for the past 3 years.

Having been a remarkable student all my life, something happened 3 years ago, that all of a sudden, you can even say, overnight, turned me into a loser! Its not a specific incident or anything, but I’d even move over to the occult and say I’ve been struck by bad luck. My performance academically started dripping, my concentration levels started dwindling, nothing that I wanted, even with all my sincerity and hard work, I got. […]

10/17/2012 5 comments

in need of some help

by johnny 10/10/2012

written by johnny

Im not sure if this is the right place or time for this but here we go:
For the past years ive been struggling with my sexuality. Its literally been eating me alive since I finally realized that I was different from most guys. It consistently brings me down in a sense that the people that i love and surround myself with truly do not love me, but the shell i expose. Ive been able to calm my nerves for what seems like forever but as i enter college ive been exposed to new struggles that i honestly cannot deal with anymore. I cannot come […]

10/10/2012 6 comments

The one I love.

by Dark Instinct 7/24/2012

written by Dark Instinct

I’ve had suicidal thoughts before, but I’ve always turned to my faith in God and he has brought me out of it. Just recently, a girl who I love so very much, more so than any relationship I have been in before, left me for another man. I have nothing, I would have done anything for her. I did my usual coping methods, drowning out my sorrow with loud music, getting rid of my anger with violent video games, and even turning to God again. Yet this time, when I turned to him, I didnt feel anything. I’ve never questioned my faith before, but now […]

7/24/2012 21 comments

WARNING:

by Nolentwohundred 7/14/2012

written by Nolentwohundred

Warning: If you are one who still has faith in god and/ or government, do not watch the following link and/ or movie:
Zeitgeist the movie

How Science save my soul

7/14/2012 2 comments

A walk around the world

by lostchild445 5/27/2012

written by lostchild445

I walk around the world today
All I see is pain
The strife of man against the world
And man has nothing to gain
Ive seen death, I’ve seen poverty, and ive seen sickness
And all of my attempts to fix this were fruitless

A smile. A hollow smile is all i I get
From ones who claim they love me
Either they forget or just don’t care
That I can’t smile back

This strife we fight through in life
Will be forgotten soon enough
The only thing we’ll be remembered by is
Our headstone reading “in memorium of”

I’ve seen greed and glutton,
I’ve seen cheap basterds […]

5/27/2012 1 comment

Is it really worth it?

by lostchild445 4/16/2012

written by lostchild445

life
Is it really worth it?
To have no hope for tomorrow
To believe in nothing
To have lost faith in god and man alike
To wish, nay beg for death just to end the suffering
That you never asked for to begin with

They say be grateful you’re alive
It’s a miracle they proclaim
That you lived through being electrocuted
And stabbed
And hung
And cut
And poisoned
And starved.
You should be thankful you’re alive!

They don’t realize that
volts cook muscle
Stabs leave scars
Rope leaves burns
Cuts leave marks
Poison leaves damage
And starvation kills the stomach

They don’t get that living through […]

4/16/2012 1 comment