all my life , I’ve been that fat girl, the ugly girl. The girl noone wants to be around. Okay . I’ve had my fights and stuff but I just still don’t get why nooone has ever liked me. I’ve had ftoends and boufroends but I always find out what they really think of me.. its always my personality .. Im numb.. all I do sometimes is cry. My dad used to be an alcoholic now my mom is an abusive alcoholic.. my first love is now gay.. Im 17 years old.. I weigh 200 pounds. I have acne all over my face and body […]
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Fat Ugly
i wish today was my last day that i would cry
i wish today was the last day i hurt someone really badly without trying
i wish i didn’t feel fat or ugly
i wish i didn’t feel stupid and sad
but all this wishing is getting me no where
i have tried to fix what i cant
i have tried so many times
so i am sorry to all those i have hurt i am sorry i cant stop thinking like this. i am so sorry but you’ll never understand how sorry i am
maybe if i was dead i wouldn’t hurt you i wouldn’t do anything wrong
i just wish that i […]
I push people away when I’m afraid, because I don’t think they could ever handle my feelings, I’m still trying.
Have you ever had one of those days, when you just hate everything? And even dropping your pen makes you want to break down and cry?
I always feel as if I treat people right, I strive to make sure the people I love are alright, even the ones that hate me. But have you ever had someone that continues to tell you that they dont deserve you? or they just keep rejecting your love? but they still stick around. It confuses me, do you […]
Fuck everything, I don’t matter? Im nothing. Every night after I get home from school is cry, all night. I try to be happy then I just over think everything and it makes me angry. The only time I’m ever happy is when I’m either smoking or drinking. I’m young and I’ve already fucked up my life. Why don’t I just die now? I have nothin in my life, my mom and dad are divorced and they both hate me, I never can fucking do anything right. I try and get good grades but I can’t, I just can’t. I try I try so hard […]
Fat.Ugly.Loser.That’s all I hear from people when they think I can’t hear them and some people will say it right to my face.I want to say something but I’m only the fat girl in the corner while her own friends laugh at her.Everyone is surprised how I’m friends with the popEven at home it’s bad everyone always compliments my family and everyone’s always surprised I’m related to them.The family of beautiful swans and I’m the ugly duckling everyone seems to liek whispering about how fat and ugly I am as if I don’t already know that.Is life really worth it when your a  screw up?