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fearful

“I have loved the stars too fondly to be fearful of the night”

by fox 5/17/2016

written by fox

I’ve been feeling very badly lately, and it has been amplified by how others treat me, what they do and don’t do is affecting me deeply.

Lately, I’ve been in so much pain that I can’t seem to be able to verbalize my thoughts. I’ve spent too long being closed. I feel I haven’t had anything positive to say about myself, so I stay away from people. I also feel very bad about myself, so I avoid seeing anyone. I’ve been a recluse for the last few years, and because of my circumstances, I will never change back.

The only person who truly has […]

5/17/2016 2 comments

by kittykat 4/24/2016

written by kittykat

What is death if not the opposite of life?

How beautiful is to await the coming of the end of life and the start of a dead beginning

How will I see death then?

Will I be able observe the process of death (which I dont even know how long it lasts) and await the beginning of a new life as fearful as I am for death now?

why the waiting in line for something we can have now?

will it be the same when I am dead? waiting in line for life to begin again but eventually having the option to begginning when I want?

4/24/2016 3 comments

there is no “should be”; there is only “what is”

by sunshinestate90 2/4/2016

written by sunshinestate90

Looking back on my posts from six months ago to recent, I can’t fathom how I was able to make it through my life. I am extremely glad I did though, because now I am less fearful than before. I went out into the world and face a bunch of my fears, did a bunch of things that made me uncomfortable, and now I feel like there isn’t much I can’t handle. I didn’t understand that before: that all you have to do is handle life. Take a deep breath, do your best and know that even if we don’t get that job, there’s always […]

2/4/2016 1 comment

Afraid

by Elliyis 11/19/2014

written by Elliyis

I’m more fearful of people than I am of death. I’m close to getting what I need to exit peacefully. It’s a shame that I have to hide my intentions or face being locked up. I just want the noise to stop, the mind to cease its chatter, to stop being a slave. To be free of my body, cruel people, and the infirmities of human kind. A peaceful place to rest is where I wish to be.

11/19/2014 1 comment

when will i snap

by passionfruit3 1/31/2014

written by passionfruit3

I hate the fact how i can do good not being sucidal and staying out of hospitals.Then you make one stupid mistake and it ruins everything.My mistake was being curious and that curiousity led me to find the pills my mom hid away..I now have a bunch of those pills and dont know when i will snap and try to kill myself.I just know i cant help it and it willl happen.I will try to kill myself at some point.Ive only told my best friend she asked if she could tell my parents i threatened to do it sooner if she did.I felt bad about […]

1/31/2014 0 comment

I can’t give up, even though i want to!

by tigerlily93 2/21/2012

written by tigerlily93

What society and God expects of me is hard. i don’t know if i can bear this burden, but no matter how sad i get i cannot give up.

2/21/2012 2 comments