no one understands me, no one knows how much i suffer everyday, i cant believe im depressed again. i lost my loved one, i wish i was better for them, i wish i brought myself to show love and affection, i couldnt, i couldnt even keep myself up while im being stressed from school and everything, its so hard for me after the 4th(?) break up, it killed me, no matter how much i love him nothing will be the same. i dont wanna be with him anymore but i do, im confused, im so confused, i dont know what i want but all i […]
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Feeling Lost
This may be my only post on this site. But I needed some place to just talk about this. I feel like I really don’t have anyone to talk to. Some days I feel like I have a lot of friends but most days I just feel alone. I don’t really feel any connection to anyone except one person, really just because I don’t trust anyone except her. She’s my best friend and has been for the past 4 years. I, of course, am in love with her.
The highest and lowest points in my life have always been because of her. When I first met […]
I have had anxiety my entire life and have been depressed for the past few years. I am going to be a senior in high school where I am supposed to start figuring out what I want to do with my life but I’ve never felt so lost. It is summer before my senior year and summers are tough for me because it gives me a lot of free time to think and feel lonely. I am afraid of choosing the wrong college and not being happy. A lot of people see me as a nice person but I don’t think people know how sad […]
My body…
As i lay i count the amount of scars on my body. My broken cut ridden scarred body…
I start counting, and only count what is still visible after months to years of time for the wounds to heal. My scars all have a story of their own, and all signify a problem, feeling of hopelessness and lost cause, emotionless, a perfect day in hiding.
I count 10…54…71… 84 well that’s it for those that are visible in my shorts and cut off T-shirt. Most of them aren’t visible and overlap so it’s impossible to get an accurate count of them the ones that i have […]
I lost my new job. Have no car. My family has disowned me. I have no car and live in a motel with my bf who also recently lost his job. I don’t do drugs, I hardly ever drink, I’m honest and kind. But I am bipolar and diabetic and ADHD and depressed and probably have personality disorder. I am stubborn but very sensitive. I’m so tired of being stressed and broke and scared and feeling worthless to the world. I hate how others gladly walk all over good people and mistreat them for their own success or profit. I’m sad. I sometimes dream of […]
hi. well my name is zoe I’m 14 and I think I’m really depressed I’ve had emotional issues since I was in fifth grade but I haven’t ever told anyone about it. I’m a middle child in between two brothers. my dad neglects me and verbally abuses me while I think my mom is great. I hate my life so much and no matter how hard I try I can’t seem to find anything to do about it. I’m so scared that I’m going to end up killing myself cause that’s not what I want to happen. I cut myself on a regular basis and […]
Feeling really lost at the moment.
I am currently studying for exams and doing my final essays for the year, the results i have gotten back have been great and usually when i get an A or A+ i can’t contain how happy i am, this excitement usually gives me energy for the next essay and so on.
However i have realised recently that i will never be happy with myself. And my life is not going to be better if i get good grades.
I can’t believe having good grades and excelling in school was a replacement so i didn’t have to face the reality that […]
That moment when someone tells you something that makes you feel worthless, stupid, unwanted..when all you can do is sit there and cry and cry until you cannot cry anymore, wondering why this happened to you, why people are so hurtful and careless, why the world is so cruel. That moment when you feel so alone, that everyone around you is elated, while you sit there, contemplating whether or not you should commit suicide, because you realize(or assume) that no one cares and no one will notice when you are gone, until it is too late. It is the most painful feeling in the world, […]
i have been feeling loved lost lately by my own family
Suicide
how can i make this stop
Suicide
It’s all i think about
Suicide
Can’t get it out
Suicide
So hard to resist
Suicide
resist the urge to slit my wrist
Suicide
wishing i had a gun
Suicide
all i have is a small razor
Suicide
so i drag the blade across my legs and arms
Suicide
wishing to do myself much more harm
Suicide
and i wake soaked in blood
Suicide
cuts all over my body
Suicide
and im still somehow alive
Suicide
deep and long so much blood lost
Suicide
how am i still here?
Suicide
I really need a gun
Suicide
one day… one day
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