Struggling to stay in this world, like flames on the inside because all i hear is some things that are the opposite of pleasant, everyday i go to school i feel like police cars are having their sirens on, flashlights falshing at me, people staring at me, like it is such a crime that i am even alive, staying in the world is like crushing a can, becuase crushing a can gets hard when you try to keep it straight……….., in the palms of my fingers i feel thumping, like *thump* *thump* *thump*, on the outside you see a smile…, but do you see the […]
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http://twitter.com/TheRock
http://en.wikiquote.org/wiki/Eleanor_Roosevelt
The Rock pushes me to keep driving my body forward; Roosevelt settles my mind when it all starts feeling too fruitless/nihilistic.
In my mind, I’ve separated death and dying. Death is the one thing I look forward to, when I can just finally stop, cease to exist, back to 0; the weight of this flesh body finally lifted as my consciousness disperses into the cosmos. I don’t think that people are anything more than walking flashlights and I really can’t wait for my batteries to run out. No more guilt, no more expectations, no more desires; just nothing.
Dying is a lot more real than […]