i ate a fortune cookie. the fortune read,
‘if you would have managed your plans properly, it would not have caused chaos.’
ironic, right? as, it hits pretty close to home.
Whispers in the wind do I only hear when you’re not here
I bought you flowers so a petal falls every time my pedal hits metal
For every risky move I breathe in a soft wish for death
But you already know that…
I ask for nothing but peace for you as your memory lays 6 millimeters under
May the wounds of your fathers stop in the afterlife where answers come
I wasn’t the best grandson but may my intentions and good heart be plain as day
But you already see that…
There weren’t always obvious roads to take in the clouds of confusion
Paths I rejected accepted me wholeheartedly until I was too far down to turn
Spirit remains as I feel you all around me guiding me into nothingness
But you already said that…
Wishes deferred have made my soul sick grandmere
Dreams dead and gone have made my mind depressed granny
Loves crushed and destroyed have eroded Fortune’s goodwill my dearest grandmothers
But you already feel that…
An elegant suicide is the ultimate work of art.
Bad art is more tragically beautiful than good art because it documents human failure.
There’s too much beauty to quit. There’s too much goddamn beauty.
Your troubles will cease and fortune will smile upon you.
Between the worlds of the living and the dead there is a place you’re not supposed to STAY.
”And It Doesn’t Seem To Matter
And It Doesn’t Seem Right
‘Cause The Will Has Brought
Still I Cry Alone At Night
Don’t You Judge Of My Composure
‘Cause I’m Lying To Myself
And The Reason Why She Left Me
Did She Find In Someone Else?
I Am The Damned
I Am The Dead
I Am The Agony Inside
The Dying Head
This Is Injustice
Woe Unto Thee
I Pray This Punishment
Would Have Mercy On Me
Somebody Hurt My Soul, Now
I Can’t Take It ‘Cause I’m Lonely”
Michael Jackson – Who is it?
No matter how bad you feel and how difficult it is to get going – remember that any opportunity is a possible turn of fortune.
The laws of co-incidence mean that situations and people will keep coming into your life, provided you keep getting out there. That means that your future could be better as a chain reaction gets going.
Ignoring / blocking opportunities that arise by being too depressed, means that you might be preventing yourself from meeting someone that you need to meet., without realising that you are limiting your situation.
Keep going each day and look your best – care about yourself and try to enjoy as many things as possible. Keep trying new things and keep learning.
Avoid things you don’t like or things that bring you down.
Block out any negative thoughts and just live day by day.
Reading some of the posts here just break my heart.Â There are so many people that have been, or – in some cases, currently subject to the most hideous abuses by those that are supposed to care for them.Â Those with drug addicted or alcoholic parents, those that are being physically and sexually abused by members of their own family, or even worse.Â Â It makes the trials and tribulations of my formative years, whilst far from idyllic, seem like paradise in comparison.
Then, there are those for whom fortune has gone and taken a great big dump all over them.Â These are the people that were once fully functioning and relatively settled members of society, but now stand to lose almost everything because of an freak incident that happened outside of their control.Â An illness; an injury; the sudden loss of a loved one … all potential catalysts to send one down the road of self-destruction.
This, in turn, fills me with guilt.Â What right do I have to be clinically depressed when there are so many others out there going through much tougher times than I am?Â With these thoughts, I feel even more depressed.Â This then feeds my guilt, which then feeds my depression.
Some people on here post that they are ashamed to be complaining because they have a relatively comfortable life outside the specific troubles they are dealing with.Â There is no reason to be ashamed because you happened to be born in a developed country to people who can give you a decent lifestyle as far as food, clothing, and shelter.Â That is the fortune of your birth and you had nothing to do with it.
Sure you can help people who you consider less fortunate.Â Â Still it does not help your mental state for you to add guilt or sadness to your already existing pain.Â Nothing wrong with wanting a life free of all trouble even though it probably will not happen during your existence.Â Add in all the religions that have paradise as a beginning state/reward for mankind and one can see some people are pretty much programmed to want an end to all suffering here and now.Â
Not talking about the ‘change in persepctive end.”Â Speaking of a more tangible end.Â And with certain theoretical technology being developed and new ideas being stumbled upon, humanity may well eliminate quite a bit of present problems in the future.Â
Jesus may have come down not to save humanity, but to show humanity that with the right knowledge and utility, humans can become gods in their own right.
No offense to any religions.