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Hoping for a peaceful end with CO

by enoughofthiscrap 7/21/2013

written by enoughofthiscrap

I’m over 50, unemployed and very likely to remain so despite a good college degree and lots of experience. Â In November, my unemployment runs out so I shall be reduced to 400 euros a month – nobody can live on that.

My plan is to rent a chalet on a camping site – in October when it’s not too warm – and burn two hibachi barbecues inside. Â I was planning to do it in my camper, but I want to leave that to my sister and she wouldn’t want it if I’d died in it. Â Plus, I can leave the cat there as it is her […]

7/21/2013 2 comments

dont read this, its boring

by SadSteve 5/19/2013

written by SadSteve

I’m bored so….The first time, I was 14, I was scared to death my dad had a meeting at the school and he was going to find out I was flunking out. Â I went into the cabinet and poured a bunch of Aspirin into my hand and swallowed them. Â I laid in bed and closed my eyes. Â This was my most sincere attempt because at the time thats what I knew, I had heard on TV (lots of times) about overdosing on pills. My teenaged brain didn’t have the defense mechanisms it has today. Â All that happened was I ended up sleeping for 14 hours […]

5/19/2013 1 comment

It Can’t Be Perfect Again

by Domino Jays 2/7/2013

written by Domino Jays

Ello. Domino speaking. Back from the hospital. And being closely monitored by a drunk dad. Hahaha. I failed once more. What is this, the 5th time? Fun.. Anyways, while I was in the hospital, I was given the ‘privilege’ of having looseleaf paper and a pencil to draw. But of course, I didn’t draw, I write. So I just slept until a dream stayed in my head, and it turned out to be one of my old memories. I feel bad for leaving you all like I did earlier, so I’m gunna type it right here for you all to know a little bit more […]

2/7/2013 2 comments

I just want to die

by T 11/3/2012

written by T

I just want to die. I have plenty of friends, great job, beautiful house. But I’m just tired. Tired of pretending my life is great. My husband is a selfish ass. And of course the only thing that matters is how he sees me. Even though I know he is a selfish ass. I want him to give me some credit. Not put me down for every thing I do, think or say. Of course I’ve tried to talk to him about this ( only for 18 years). but women are the ever ” I can fix it” – with enough love understanding and communication […]

11/3/2012 2 comments

Not today..after all

by Russianboy91 9/3/2012

written by Russianboy91

Well that is it. I skipped class today after just another shitty day without talking or knowing noone in this huge class of over 100 students and already by now everyone has study groups. After that moment something glitched in my brain and I simply did what I always do. Escape. So I took the first bus home. I was so pissed off at myself that I turned to the closest mall and told myself that I would not be a ***** any longer and go through with taking my life today..so I bought a six pack of ice cold Heinekens and a bottle of […]

9/3/2012 0 comment

Planning To Die

by icantsay 8/27/2012

written by icantsay

I’m not worried about how I’m going to do it. Or where I’m going to do it.

I just wish I knew what to do with all my stuff. My dog. My cat. I’m thinking about putting it in boxes, and maybe dropping them off at the humane society. I can’t help feeling extremely guilty but I feel like I’m having a negative impact on my dog. I’m sad because the humane society is such a shitty place, but I can’t burden my parents with him. I just want it all to be on my tab, and something that no one will have to worry about […]

8/27/2012 7 comments

Tips to stop a binge?

by crimson regret 5/18/2012

written by crimson regret

I don’t know where this post will take me, but i just need to write to take my mind off walking to thesupermarket and buying a binge fest. I have already eaten 6 bars of chocolate, 3 packet of crisps (potato chips?) 1 tub of ben and jerry icecream… Been for a run, had an extremely hot shower and my empty void is still there.. Add to that the half block of cheese i just ate and the two cheese toasties that are cooking..

I am also going to my dads for tea, his fridge is stockpiled with binge worthy food…. Argh… Anyone got any tips […]

5/18/2012 9 comments

I know it’s going to happen

by TheUglyOne 5/7/2012

written by TheUglyOne

I know it will it is just the details I want to fill in. I see knifes and I get ideas. I see my moms diabetic medication and I get ideas. I go to school I walk upon the top of the staircase and I see the bottom and I Â get ideas. Â I today held a knife and pointed it to my chest. I know I’m not afraid of dying. I’m sick of being treated like shit. I am infected with the miseryÂ decease which was stung into my heart by the needle of destruction. I see my money and I see guns online and I […]

5/7/2012 2 comments

I’m eating icys for dinner

by thegirlwhocryedwolf 5/1/2012

written by thegirlwhocryedwolf

I have never been rich. There was never a time where my mom had money to throw away. We always have had just enough. But it has never been this bad. My mom has never really bothered me with financial problems. Usually if we are late on a bill or something she just finds a way to pay it. But its gotten to the point where there is no way. My step dad doesn’t work enough to pay for everything and my moms disability check barley pays 1 bill. Everyday something new is getting cut off. Now my mom is selling pot to pay the […]

5/1/2012 41 comments

still alive,

by noexception 4/28/2012

written by noexception

woke up pissed off,well i guess im just gonna have to drink more this time,i drink it last time and i started feeling sick as hell and started getting drifty,mabey i felt so sick because i have been starving my self,if i eat i eat fruit only, i weigh 100 pounds and my doctor says im under weight, but i dont see that wen i look in the mirrior,so i only got fruit in my fridge,monday im gonna buy diet pills to, im gonna damage my body because i hate it.i guess i dont really want to die yet, i am to scared, but if […]

4/28/2012 6 comments

a dream of another reality..

by saddest-panda 1/14/2012

written by saddest-panda

one night one night i had this dream .. the sky was dark and the whole worls was mean mommmy you where there but you went the same ..you had no money and you were insane i remember you spent everything we had on morphineâ€¦

you couldn’t pay the rent of a two bedroom so we shared our broken house with a couple of goons .. who sold drugs and where all cracked out they stayed in the living room sleeping on the couch ..

momy mom why rant you eating â€¦ im not hungry dear .now goodbye im leaving.. she walked out the door sometimes it […]

1/14/2012 0 comment

Jan 3 or 4

by vthrohrt 12/31/2011

written by vthrohrt

I’m a 22 year old engaged mother of one. My family takes care of my son and I entirely. I own a home, a car, I have food in the fridge and the lights are on.

I have failed at everything I’ve ever tried. I only graduated HS because my dad put me in a lock down boarding school where I didnt have a choice other than to graduate. I recently got kicked out of a school I’d been working 3 years to get into due to my anxiety/having to take medication for said anxiety.

I cant keep my house clean, I cant keep my kid happy, […]

12/31/2011 8 comments