If we are going to continue to have a society in which 1. teens think they have no other option but to off themselves, and 2. we need to neglect the poor further because people like the Trumps and Waltons need a few hundred million more, well, the second coming can’t come soon enough for this miserable fucking planet.
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Frustration
Post-analysis: I’m sorry for anyone who reads through this.. it’s an utter bullshit and compared to other really serious posts here it seems out of place..but it might help me pick myself up again and i can’t just post this on facebook can I
Hi there, me again with my bullshit (and my bad english). It’s always the same deal with me. Time to time I feel like I’m slowly decomposing from the inside and it’s always in the worst time possible. Right now I’m in my most difficult year on Uni, studying mechanical engineering. I’m 23 y.o, have loving family and some friends from uni. […]
Welp, it’s been three years since the last time I visited this site. I’m in a pretty similar scenario too: feigning illness to get out of school and be alone at home, debating what my next action should be. It’s so frustrating that I keep feeling unsatisfied , like something is missing. I have friends, caring ones at that, good grades. Hell, I even have a girlfriend now, whether that’s for better or for worse. But I still struggle to feel attached or feel compassion for anything. Sure, in the moment I can forget about my desire to be wiped off this existence, but it […]
I Give Those Upper Classmen On My Bus My Thanks Sarcasitically!!! (Rants)
written by LittleMissPurrfection
Are the people of society today kidding me? Like what is wrong with them all? Is it really funny to throw grapes at people while they’re talking to someone and it is none of their business to do anything like that?
A long while back earlier on the bus ride home from my high school I was pelted with grapes. There were no more than three, that hit but obviously were aimed at me and they were laughing about it! Is it really so funny to you to pick on people smaller and younger than you? For your information, and if I could snap my fingers I […]
I’m never good enough, I never make the right decisions, according to everyone else. I managed to pull A’s and B’s out of my ass when my mother passed away. I went back to classes two weeks after my entire life was destroyed before my eyes and yet I passed a university semester with flying colors. So, I tell my parents, being my step mother and father that I want to take an aerial silks class to, you know..do something for myself for once. I am a straight A student, I personal train three days a week and I hold a really good job, and […]
I wish to terminate the continuance of a certain existence,
though it is obvious that the identity is of someone regarding myself,
I do not wish to expose the exact identity of the person[s] involved.
So I will simply yield this Inquisition:
Why not?
The hour grows short; hasten your responses
Before I write my post, I just want to say how relieving this place is. Strangely enough, every time I write a bit, after I feel better for a while. It’s like if writing a bit once in a while was a drug. But it feels goddam good to tell the world.
Sometimes I wonder why we should trust people. I have incredibly big trust issues. I really do not know who to trust. Ever.
Not my family, thats for sure… I can’t stand their judgemental “advice” .
My friends; Â I have many but none I can really truthfully talk to.
My best friend; I don’t know her sometimes. […]
Why do people push love away before they can give love a chance?
by sleepxdeath
written by sleepxdeath
Fear, Frustration, Anger and Heart Break changes that.
Have you ever been so excited and so alive with one person yet for no apparent reason they just leave and everything changes? One day you guys are doing so much and are so happy that you can’t leave that person behind, because you think that there isn’t anyone as loving like them or enjoy each other’s company? You’ve done almost everything together and feels like nobody can ever replace them? Then one day, you both wake up. They leave you behind for other people. They lie; make excuses. Then they or another person tells you that they never met […]
Kinda pathetic having this realization from an anime of all things but it actually spoke to me better than most people can. Anyways its this show called Watamote and it just had its final episode. Its about social anxiety ,loneliness, generally just things that I could relate these past few years (frustration from trying to make friends, no love life, no sense of fulfillment) which is the reason I started watching it and basically it ended on the note that after all she did nothing has changed and shes still lonely but the thing is she just laughs it off and says “it doesnt matter […]
I’m so depressed today ,I’m all alone.Everyone’s so pretty and happy.What the f*** am I? A f***in loser that can never stay happy for no longer than 5 minutes.Kill myself.It’s the only solution.People never help me and I can’t help myself anymore,I’m tired . No one actually needs me . If I were to kill myself sure some people would cry but No one has EVER made me feel wanted or loved.
“…anyone who attempts to do both, to adjust to his group and at the same time pursue his individual goal, becomes neurotic.â€
― C.G. Jung
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And thus, i have discovered the most refined and concise words to express the source of my frustration.
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Upon first reading it, i read: “to adjust his group,” instead of “adjust TO his group.” Both are valid, in different ways.
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But what if my individual goal is to achieve the requirement of adjusting my group (or perhaps the entire world), in order to gain access to a particular configuration of circumstances that would be required to enable my actual individual […]
I have changed so much in six years.
It amazes me that people from my past still recognize who I am.
But its clear that people only see the person I have shaped into.
I use to be quite shy, reserved, Â pretty much distant from people. No friends. You know, that one girl.
You will be surprised how far makeup, hair extensions and becoming anorexic can do for someone.
It changes people.
And its awful to say but it sometimes changes for the better.
Because now I am seen as “beautiful”.
If only they knew the frustration I went through to be this terrible conceded girl.
Its still painful.
Because you never can accept yourself. […]
I would just like to know about any songs that just change your opinion or decision of something.
Have you ever been so built up with frustration and other emotions and then as soon as you hear a certain song or poem, you just instantly change and start to calm down or approach the subject/event differently?
If so, Please just share some songs or something. I’m interested in what people think of their music
It’s always the same.
The feelings of being lost, worthless; having no purpose in whatever life I’m trying to create. Trying to feel alive again. Begging to feel happy even just content. Why must everything feel so cold and dark? When did my view become like this?
My skin holds my confusion, pain and frustration. Every notch on it reminds me of the lost soul I am. Yet it makes me feel like I can be found. Is that even possible? So many question but they cannot be answered.
I need a release, to feel like I am here; that I have emotions. My smiles never hold true, […]
I have a good life but since elementary school I was always determined to kill myself before I grew up. In September I turn 20. I still sleep with my baby blanket and have never been kissed and here I am turning 20. In May I told my parents I was planning on killing myself. Summer is almost over and my councilor is trying to make me promise to forget suicide but I can only imagine postponing it till December. I was to kill myself when the weather isn’t 100 degrees outside but at the same time I don’t want to spend 6,000 dollars going […]
Well I’m back again and glad to know I’m not pregnant but because of the scare he left me and I’m starting to regret that it happened. . . but I’m over it and I’m glad we are no longer together because surprisingly if i was he wasn’t going to be there for me or our child. During that time i had time to meditate and mature some more and realize i should just exclude everyone out my life and start over 🙂 even though i still have days i cut myself because of frustration I’m very much good and getting better thank you for […]
I’ve been thinking about dying a lot. For some reason that makes me feel better. Things haven’t been good lately. My life is really pleasant on the surface, I’m doing the things I want to do and have a mostly supportive family. But then I have horrible self-esteem and I just end up in the worst situations and it’s really my own fault.
I am really devastated over this thing that happened recently with my boyfriend. I was away for a few months, volunteering at a school in a really remote place and making a documentary, and while I was gone he cheated on me. I […]
I have always struggled with anxiety and depression.
It started when I was 10, I had just started middle school.
I was Bullied. Badly.
Everyday after school I would rush out of the school and try SPRINT home so that the bullies wouldn’t catch me.
They usually did, And I usually went home physically and mentally abused.
I was depressed… but I NEVER thought about committing suicide.
It took a while but my parents finally noticed how depressed I was.
I went to counseling.
It helped, but It didn’t stop the bullies.
That February we moved cities to get me away.
My new school was much better.
I made friends, True Friends. I had my first […]
And I have no idea why I’m posting it here but, I am. I’m exhausted. The only true smile that has come to my face in the past few years was just before my attempt several weeks ago – the rest of the time it has been this forced curvature which, I must say, I’ve become quite the expert at creating. The sadness. The consistent failures. The burden I’ve been to so many for so long. Iit’s just so tiring.
For almost 30 days I’ve had no contact with anyone in my personal life save three individuals one being my “brother” who lives quite literally thousands […]
When I think back to when I was a kid, I can’t remember being happy.. And I don’t know why. And then I thought..
I’ve always been unhappy.
My family has many issues that now I know effected me; screaming and yelling, name calling, blaming, frustration.
I remember it all.
I remember getting these overwhelming feelings like I was trapped in a small bubble and couldn’t get out, I know now that the feeling I felt was probally depression..
I’ve been depressed since I could remember..
And I really don’t remember a lot because that’s how my body copes..
I want to talk to someone but […]
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