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Gag

Entry one, of records for proof.

by Silverteardrops 4/28/2013

written by Silverteardrops

Dad constantly hugs me, kisses me, messes my hair *affectionately*, rubs my face with his hands, the same hands he used to hurt my mum. Makes me feel SICK.

He constantly calls me, last thing at night, first thing in the morning.

Whenever my fon beeps “is it mom?” no dad its my friends lauren. Whenever im texting somone “are you texting mum” any word from mum? G’on text mum for me. Makes me text stuff to her I don’t want to say

My position is that I am lying. Constantly lying through my teeth. I don’t love him, don’t want him back, I HATE HIM DISPISE HIM, […]

4/28/2013 1 comment

Annoyance

by DAlex 6/7/2012

written by DAlex

So yesterday my mom decided to pinch at my zits because I am ugly as hell. I naturally dislike this since it hurts a ton. Well needless to say she got all pissed off, and that got me upset also. So she makes me apologize for being angry and I do so but not actually caring. So she yells at me some more and tells me to fuck off. I go up to my room and start reading some Zelda manga. That helps me forget about whatever bad things happen, so I like video games. So my mom comes upstairs and interrupts my ritual, and […]

6/7/2012 4 comments

Why do people say suicide is for cowards?

by Babyfacedcomputergleek 5/16/2012

written by Babyfacedcomputergleek

Ok my teacher went on a rant on how suicide is for selfish cowards. And I don’t understand how she can say this, yes its a bit selfish but I think its more selfish to make someone live when they have so muchÂ happensÂ to them and they have been strong for so long don’t they understand there is only so far you can bend before you snap? Also how can they say its for cowards they have never had to pick up the blade, tie the knot, gag on the pills. They don’t know how much courage it takes to end your life to have the […]

5/16/2012 7 comments

Bloody tears

by bloody_tears 3/5/2012

written by bloody_tears

Please talk to me after you read…..I need…idk..

Tonight is the night
Through my hate and demise.
I sit, waiting in fright.
In darkness blinded by my own surprise.

Weeping for hours.
And screaming in tears.
Walking through towers and showers ,
Through my own bloody tears.

What is the sound I hear in my mind.
Ofcourse it’s the sound I know all to well…laughing and jeers
To some,it would be of some wicked crime

I grabbed my military issued knife and tied a gag
As I slowly but surely cut my wrists
Watching slowly as the blood drips in a bag..
Wishing more hate apon my soul in […]

3/5/2012 9 comments

Psycho

by M. 2/11/2012

written by M.

I’m a FUCKING psychopath and I know it! I’m the sickest person you’re ever going to meet. I can’t remember the last time I felt the SLIGHTEST BIT of empathy. You don’t believe me? I don’t need you to. I’m a sick ***** who gets enjoyment out of other peoples pain. And my own pain as well. I’m a sadist who enjoys looking up serial killers and their ‘modus operandi’, the more horrible, the better. I manipulate people for my own enjoyment, still not convinced? I watched a real video of a real suicide (that was back when I wanted to kill myself, it was […]

2/11/2012 8 comments

Fear of Failure?

by deadright 1/15/2012

written by deadright

Laying around the past few days trying to get over this sinus infection before I go, my thoughts have revolved around possible failure.Â I do not fear success in killing myself but rather starting, and then waking up in a hospital bed with a breathing tube down my throat and my ankles and wrists in restraints.

That actually scares me since I have a terrible gag response to anything touching the back of my throat and even the thought of my arms being restrained would put me into claustrophobic panic.Â They could tie my feet and legs but not my arms being pinned down, as that […]

1/15/2012 4 comments