I’m in my early 20s now and I’ve survived a tough teenage, including several suicidal attemps. I’ve always been an “alternative” girl, listening to non commercial music, not wearing fashionable cloths, not going to the disco, not smoking/bingedrinking/fucking with everyone around. This fact made my life more complicated and allowed a lot of people to talk shit about me and bully me. I’ve tried several times to convince myself that my being unique should be a reason good enough to live, but it didn’t last too long. My family is a normal one, but my parents don’t support me, don’t like what I do and […]
I’d like to discuss self-harm with you guys and gals. I don’t cut, I wanted to get that straight! But i do self-harm. I burn. It reminds me that I’m still alive on this dumbass planet. I love how the flame flickers on a match or candle. I realise we have much in common with a match (/candle). That our human form flickers while we work our very short lives and then goes out.I used to think that I would make MY flame shine he brightest and that my flame would survive longer than most. There is NO afterlife, no god to greet us, I […]
funny thins is…the guys..gals…we in the people in tis website….seem to be highly intelligent people…we tend to be self aware….but how come…or why is it that we feel this way….or maybe are driven to this manner of depression by outisde factors….is it maybe that we are worse than others that we absorb their bullying…or is it maybe that they know that we are better and that we end up getting bullied because they know we are better…or is it just plain dumb luck that we get treated illfully and end up being in a depressed state….maybe thats it…after several years of mental brutality by the […]
oh my, look at this. Ain’t this some fucked up shit?Â So now i sit here in the wreckage of what you have done, you added more scars to your only son.
Why cant you control yourself? Why do you always make my life Hell? I try to sit and picture death, to me it just sounds like the best.
I want to live, just not in this sequence. You mom, have always been my greatest weakness. I can’t sleep so I toss and turn. Imagining how great it would be, just to see it all burn.
My heart is beating, but im hardly alive. Life is a […]