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Im a ghost

by WillowH. 8/23/2013

written by WillowH.

Im so pissed right now…back then when i was lying in bed all day with fresh cuts on my hands noone gave a fuck… but now when i have to get a stupid highschool diploma suddenly im in the center of attention.

HEY! IM SUICIDAL OVER HERE!!! Help?

“but you wont get anywhere without proper edjucation, darling!”

am i dead already? what the hell giong on… noone can see nor hear me. Im crying through the day… how can you not notice mascara all over my stupid face?

okay, i dont need help anyways, i dont want it… but atleast before i die it would nice to hear things […]

8/23/2013 3 comments

How my life turned to hell.

by Mezzy 8/18/2013

written by Mezzy

I’m writing this because i want to get my story out.

I don’t want anyone’s sympathy or help, I want my story out so if something ever happens to me, at least my story is public and people know why I did it.

As a first thing I’d like to make note of the fact that I do NOT want to kill myself! It just seems like the only way out of my misery. And it’s been that way for quite a while already.

At first i laughed at myself for having a quickly fading suicide moment. (wich smart and sane person wouldn’t?) but after a few years, […]

8/18/2013 2 comments

why not

by jeroen steeman 8/1/2013

written by jeroen steeman

so some guy Â told me to put my story up here and wait for reactions on it before i do anything.

why not.

here’s my fucked story:

i am Jeroen Steeman. i am currently 17 years old, and i live in a small village in the netherlands. my life is garbage.

i used to have a happy life tough. lots of friends i hung out with. two awesome older brothers. a happy mom and dad. then my mother got multiple scerose (that’s the dutch name for it anyway) and lost her shit. all the joy that once exsisted in our family life just got destroyed. both my brothers moved […]

8/1/2013 1 comment

I hope there is something after this…

by fragglerock 7/4/2013

written by fragglerock

Well here goes nothing. the car is started and I’m taking the easy way. full tank of gas and airtight garage. I really loved life. I did. I had all the promise and every opportunity in front of me. But couldn’t stay away from drugs. been clean 3 years but a felon with a history of abuse is just a piece of societal garbage. I really am justired of failing. Â I’m fucking scared. But I’m done. I hope I get another chance to do it right. I won’t waste it. What a pathetic way to go out, I just am not strong enough to Â do […]

7/4/2013 2 comments

Advice, Information, and.. maybe…help?

by Cardio_respiratory_stop 6/7/2013

written by Cardio_respiratory_stop

Hello! I’m writing this in order to get some help, and be sure that i’ve made the right decision.

I wrote this to another person on another website:Â <<<Â I feel the same as you do/did “Every day I wake up feeling terrible! I don’t want to die,i just don’t want to live like this.” and i felt it since i was your age 17/18 and then i was dreaming about killing myself but i talked to others and i was to weak to take my own life so i said that i’ll wait, that things will get better, two years have passed and i had a big […]

6/7/2013 2 comments

tired of life.

by daniela_ 5/8/2013

written by daniela_

Alright so, I may be young but I feel like I’ve gone through a lot. I feel tired of life. I’ve thought about commiting suicide so many times but I look into my future. I have a lot to go through. But anywho, the reason why I feel like this is because of my family, especially my mother. For a long time now, its turned into an everyday thing to argue. My mother makes me feel like im nothing. Wishing for me to not be her daughter, and regreting to have me. Im not good enough, I don’t do anything right. All I do is […]

5/8/2013 1 comment

Can’t take it anymore and can’t escape it.

by Akuin 5/1/2013

written by Akuin

I just need to get it out. I’m 30 in July. I’ve never once had a job. I’m mentally disabled but can’t get on disability. Everyone treats me like I’m trash not worth helping. I’ve been bullied all through school, treated like I’m scum by the government, and my own family looks at me with contempt.

All I do anymore is sit and cry. When I try to talk to anyone it’s always “What do you have to be depressed about.” I can’t afford to get help, the government keeps denying me help because my parents aren’t complete assholes, and every place I apply to looks […]

5/1/2013 0 comment

Hopelessness

by aLonewolf 4/17/2013

written by aLonewolf

I am so lost… i am a single father 2 kids, their mother is a drug addict and has abandoned them for 3 years march 12th, i have 2 deaf parents so growing up was very hard, to never be able to talk about your feelings to your own mom hurts me alot, i know sign language but its just not the same… i have constant feelings of giving up, when i look at my kids i cry, when i think about my family i cry. i have gone nowhere for my whole life, dropped out at 16 and never made a attempt to be […]

4/17/2013 7 comments

“Partying”

by hadldhjf 12/21/2012

written by hadldhjf

I do not understand, at all, what people enjoy about going out “partying”. It stinks of shit, cigarette smoke, stale alcohol, urine, sweat and garbage, it’s fucking loud, as in so FUCKING loud that you’ll go deaf and you have to scream in each other’s ears to be heard, it’s expensive, a rip off, a con, and you’re supposed to get drunk, and if you don’t drink you’re a fucking loser. And obviously – OBVIOUSLY – I can’t fucking dance so that’s hopeless as well.

And then to ‘cap the night off’ there’s some sort of obligatory purchase of a street food item, usually a fried […]

12/21/2012 12 comments

Give me ONE reason not to do it…

by DiefreeLivehard 10/12/2012

written by DiefreeLivehard

Please read my entire post before commenting…

My whole life has been me slipping in and out of depression, so I know what it’s like finally feel renewed and pull out of depression.Â That said, I’ve never felt this bad before about myself… it’s unprecedented for me to feel THIS bad.Â You know how people say they’ve hit rock bottom? Well, to give you perspective, I feel like rock bottom was the thing that hit me on the head, that’s how low I am.

So what happened to get me this low?Â It’s a list of things that have piled on me.Â 1) I only have $30 […]

10/12/2012 11 comments

I used to hurt.

by just breathe 10/12/2012

written by just breathe

I used to be depressed. I cut, and hurt myself, even thought of suicide because I thought there was no other way out. I know a lot of you will dismiss this post as garbage, it may even get taken down, but I want to help. I would know more than most that sometimes you just need to have someone reach out to you, let them make the first move. Now that I’m healing, I’ve made it my life goal to help at least one other person through what I experienced. If you want someone to talk to, let me know. I’m not offering professional […]

10/12/2012 1 comment

Was it all a lie?

by Fallen_Hearts_Hopes_Lost 9/24/2012

written by Fallen_Hearts_Hopes_Lost

I have attended four highschools, all completely different. With completely new teachers, new classes, and new classmates. With each school year I’ve been that girl who rarely spoke, the girl who just went to school then went back home.I had no life, because I never opened up and allowed people to get close to me.
Every new school year my mother says I’ll find some new friends who won’t stab me in the back, but every time I’m invited to hang out, my mother says no. She claims it’s because she doesn’t know these people, and I think ‘how will you ever know them if […]

9/24/2012 8 comments

Planning To Die

by icantsay 8/27/2012

written by icantsay

I’m not worried about how I’m going to do it. Or where I’m going to do it.

I just wish I knew what to do with all my stuff. My dog. My cat. I’m thinking about putting it in boxes, and maybe dropping them off at the humane society. I can’t help feeling extremely guilty but I feel like I’m having a negative impact on my dog. I’m sad because the humane society is such a shitty place, but I can’t burden my parents with him. I just want it all to be on my tab, and something that no one will have to worry about […]

8/27/2012 7 comments

I want to hack both my wrists up :(

by kthxbai2u 7/30/2012

written by kthxbai2u

Everything today has gone to shit….

My brother just waking up and going to watch tv somehow got on my nerves

I had a credit card company call and leave a message

I had a bike stolen a while ago which was given to me by my landlord and she just asked where it was…. (least of my problems)

I lost a friend and I don’t know why… I just woke up and all of the sudden shes unfriended me…. 🙁 this one hurts the most…

I ruined my plant – I was trying to change the cycle to make it bud, covering it with a garbage bag, and now […]

7/30/2012 19 comments

I have 24/7 heartache..

by jacknthbox 7/22/2012

written by jacknthbox

I took 12 lortab and nothing happened.Â Tomorrow I think I will take 20 and all the xanaxÂ Â I have.Â I cant stop from breaking down.Â I always get abandoned.Â I always get used.Â I am tired of the loneliness, I miss my ex…I dont know how I could just be disgarded like garbage afterÂ all the love I have given.Â Why do people lie and say they love you when they only want to use you.

My heart is just broke, it wont heal…I am tired of living with this pain…it just wont go away….I am invisibleÂ nobody will miss me anyway….

7/22/2012 4 comments

I’m done with life

by just.me.19 5/30/2012

written by just.me.19

I’ve been laying on the floor for the past 30 min, crying. I’m losing my mind a bit more each day. My fire is gone, my fight is gone. I feel like garbage. Nothing can make it better. Fuck, I can barely hold myself together to write this. I’m dead inside, dead for too long, soon to be dead for good. I can’t do this anymore. They all want me dead. Don’t even know what to say anymore… Everything is pointless… everything is pointless…

5/30/2012 31 comments

I feel like such a selfish dick.

by Aelnova 4/3/2012

written by Aelnova

Sometimes I feel like I have no right to feel as horrible as I do. I’m not facing peer pressure, I don’t have horrible parents that do drugs or would kick me out if I was gay or anything like that, but I just feel like a piece of crap all the time. I try as hard as I can to be a good person, really. I never ask my parents to buy anything for me unless they ask for a birthday or Christmas list (and I never put more than three or four things down, knowing that we can’t afford much), I do anything […]

4/3/2012 11 comments

Anyone else just tired of living?

by AbnormalPsyche 3/27/2012

written by AbnormalPsyche

What’s there left to it? Or shall I say – what did it have in the first place? It seems as though we’ve Â instantly been Â preconditioned into thinking that life is a “gift” and should be cherished wholeheartedly. Well, you can take this garbage gift and get your refund, ’cause I don’t want it anymore, and never have wanted it. There is nothing “beautiful” or “magnificent” about “life” – I’ve seen more spontaneous things in the toilet bowl. What’s the point of carrying out what’s already been planned? Go to school, work, marry, have children,Â retire, die. We’re supposed to be satisfied by what exactly – […]

3/27/2012 15 comments

Just fake a smile

by rachel223 3/24/2012

written by rachel223

Most days I wake up with a fake smile plastered on my face. It’s like my own little lie to the whole world because I’m afraid they would know my thoughts. I guess it started when I was little because my dad got really sick he was the only one who understood me. He died in 2010. My mom is the type of person who literally runs from problems with out realizing how much that effects me. She’s never one to tell me that she loves me instead she tells me what others say about me. Around my friends I paste a smile on my […]

3/24/2012 1 comment

I have a love/hate relationship with Metal Slimes.

by Aki 1/18/2012

written by Aki

So, I’ve set the date on the 31st of January. I thought that it would give me ample time to do the things I still want to do like play, watch, eat, etc. Â However, I ran into a little snag that surprised me. I’m running out of cash, and thus, I probably have a two or three days worth of takeout left. So annoying.Â Of course, I could always go out to the cash machine down the street, but get real. I’m a recluse who hasn’t set foot outside my flat for months. I haven’t even taken out five months worth of garbage, so you can […]

1/18/2012 1 comment

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