I am still alive. now at the age of 21 looking back on what i have been trough and it starts making sense again.
I reached to the breaking point again and remembered this site from long ago and was thinking i should spill my thoughts here.
I never told much about my self from the few posts i made here and now i feel is the time to reveal some details about myself just so things would seem more clearly.
so what to begin with? since when i was a little kid our family had lots of problems. we never were a big family, […]
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Good Girl
This is my story and i hope it gives all of you out there some hope.
I was always a good girl. I had friends not many but yea. First everything was good. I wasn’t the thinnest but I was happy with who I am. But when I came to 5th grade, all my friends were away. All of them were on another school. I thought it couldn’t be that hard to make new friends but it was. No one in my new class liked me. They called me names like fattie. Everyday I got home I went in my room and cried. I just cried, […]
hi my name is umair ad i am 21 years old my story of life is very unique when i was 5 year old my cousin said me that she loves me she was just 4 years old and now our love is 17 years old this is very strange we started to love each other when we did not know the meaning of love but i think we started to love because we born for each other i was living very happy life with her but at the start of this year my cousin told me  that her parents are looking for a good boy […]
My whole life I’ve always thought of  myself to be this “good girl”. Like success was the only option and I was so confident that I’d get the whole “storybook” lifestyle. And I’m not someone who believes things are handed to you so I knew there would be some hardships but I just don’t think anyone should go through such constant disappointments. I think I’ve reached my limit, I’ve completely lost myself. Nothing I do makes any sense to me But I just can’t stop it. I just want to be happy, but I never can. I’ve always been a good student but I’m flunking […]
i really dont know what to feel today, and i felt the same last night. i just really dont know what i feel, or if im feeling at all. i looked at myself in the mirror, and i just look blank. my eyes are blank my face is blank. i dont know if i should be worried or not. but i beleive i feel something, because sometimes i get a heavyness in my chest. almost like somethings missing. but it could always be my imagination.
so theres a rant ive wanted to do for a while and id really love your guyses thoughts on it if […]
Hi, I haven’t posted for a bit…but I need a few people’s help. One of my friends tried to commit suicide the other week and he really needs people to talk to. When I first came on I know good girl and one_day really helped. If dawg’s still on, of course him…please…just try to help him.
My bdd has reached an all time high
I stand in front of the mirror and watch as my body grows
I feel gross
I used to be the skinny, gorgeous one
Now I always feel fat and ugly
Add that to my crappy personality and you have a real winner right?
I have no real friends, no one to talk to
I have a new addiction: sexting to random strangers online
i used to be the good girl
The attention makes me feel good, hot, strong
it’s also good for my social anxiety.
I wish I could be so confident with the people I know
No one around me knows my dirty little secret
What I am […]
I used to be a very happy person. In fact, I was that loud and annoying kid who was always laughing and didn’t care what others thought. I do well in school; I dont really try very hard and I get all A’s. I have friends; they all think I’m the happiest guy alive. At school, I still act happy even now; I don’t want them to know. I have a girlfriend; a beautiful, sexy, funny, silly girlfriend, and I loved and still love her very very much. But on October 1st, 2011, she sent nudies to one of her guy friends. When I found […]
You cheated on me for another guy, when I thought we were always happy.
You look at me with your cold eyes, and tell me i’m just a friend
2 years long our relationship, it means nothing to you.
You tell me it was because I didn’t treat you right, that’s why you left me.
Can’t you just take the blame? Can’t you see how much I’m hurting?
Can’t you tell me that you’re not a good girl? So my image of you can finally shatter?
I’m holding onto our good memories, you made me so happy
You were so beautiful and so cute, I considered myself lucky
Finally, I said someone to […]
So a guy added me as a friend on facebook tonight. I didn’t really know him, but we had mutual friends so I accepted. He then messaged me and we started talking. This happens a lot to me and I always feel bad ignoring them. I just like making others happy, so I try my hardest to be nice. This particular guy, very attractive, he’s 21. I’m only 16. I know the type of guys that do this, desperate, just want to bang. I’m an extremely good girl though. I am in honors classes, I play sports, I don’t drink, I don’t do drugs, I […]
I’m the good girl in my family. The smiling one. The girl who’s always offering to help out around the house. The girl my parents have never really had to worry about. I only ever argue with my sister, and I get on really well with almost my whole family. I’m the bright, spirited one. I have an opinion on everything, but I accept everyone. I’m the kind and loving girl and my parents constantly tell me how much I mean to them.
But that’s changed so suddenly.
In just a matter of days, I’ve fallen apart.
The thoughts have been there for years, but only now are […]
Im so hurt at the moment… I lost my virginity to a 24 year old guy I’ve only known a month. Im 18, I made a promise to myself I would wait til marriage to have sex. It was important to me, it meant something. I’ve been this good girl my whole life, I rarely date. I would never do something like that, but I did…. I would barely let a boyfriend kiss me. I guess for the past year I’ve been in a spiral downfall and depression. My mom all my brothers moved, and I was left in this town. I’m still in high […]
i dont know who i am. i feel like the awkward girl who cant make friends. i feel like a loser. ive lost my self confidence and self esteem. i have nothing going for me. everyday i question myself and ask why did this have to happen to me? why was i made like this or put into such a cold world? those questions will never get answered..i miss having my family together. i miss being the good girl i use to be. now every weekend i want to drink and get drunk all the time. deep down i know i am a good person. […]
I push you away, but i keep going back for more. I utter the words and maybe after all this time they’re not true. It’s me I don’t trust believe me its not you. Not even you can take my pain away. I want to leave this world, but I know I have to stay. So God if you’re out there please hear my cries. I try and shut out the world tired of their lies. The more I try, the more I feel trapped. “She was such a good girl” they’ll say. “Until she just…..snapped.”