Hii my name is Arianna… I done something I can’t take back.. I took a handful of pills.. Idk if I’ll die or not, if I don’t post anything else then obviously I’m dead, but I’ll make sure to keep y’all updated. Thanks for everything guys, it really helped.. Goodbye..
I made a Kik specifically for you guys here on SP. Just in case anyone ever needs or wants to talk, vent, rant, etc privately, it’s anoynomus and I’ll get back to you as quickly as I can. Just so you know I’m here for all of you, whether I know you or not. The username is haileeonsp. Have a lovely night guys.
Sorry to worry u guys iv been trying to keep busy thank u for caring I appreciate it very much u can contact me on my email if u want to chat if u need support I can try my best
iv been thinking of u guys
I can’t remember everyone name
Any there many others hope your all ok thinking of u guy been trying to give life a shot if not there always the exist plan how r u guys hope everyone ok
This isn’t a very important question, I’m just wondering, how old are you guys? I’m 15 and a sophomore in high school, I’ll be 16 on June 25
Hey everyone, new and old SP members. I know its hard for you guys right now. But do me a favor and keep fighting. Im fighting too.
I’ve recently been into reading much more than I usually am. There’s this author, Paulo Coelho who seems to understand everything its crazy and be able to express exactly what i think and feel in his work. I don’t know what your situations are, but I really want you guys to consider no read these books. Im not saying they will change your life immediately. but they will definitely have you thinking, and acknowledging and growing.
I know a lot of you are probably in a dark place right now and the last thing you want to hear is my book suggestion. but while you’re holding on for dear life. Take the time to read something for me, for you.
The books are: The Alchemist, and Veronica Decides to Die. I can’t promise an immediate change of heart and mind. But I promise you will learn something and feel understood. Finally.
Just try. For me. For you. For whatever is still keeping you here, breathing.
Thank you for reading. Much love.
the universe works in mysterious ways every time i have a bad day or im in a dark place I get signs that show me that everything is going to be alright
like when I tryed my 3rd attempt I found money on the way to the hospital
today A baby was smiling at me on the train on my way to college after I gave a man some change I had and then I passed my final test wile walking up the road the sun felt like it was shining right on me there is something much more powerful in the universe what ever u want to call it god higher self Angel etc they really do exist and I just want to say thank you to my angels and u guys on suicide club the support we give each other is aswsome if any of u guys need support or to unload or just have someone to talk to I’m here for u email me
Don’t give up fighting even no we might have some dark nights theres always a brighter day after
te amo chicos
Well I made it thru today with only a few minor scratches and awkward moments at work. To those of u who commented this morning (my time), may ur karmic bank accounts overflow!! Without spewing too many platitudes u guys really helped. Example….where I wouldve gone to the bathroom at work and watched YouTube videos of the golden gate bridge and budd dwyer repeatedly, I just checked ur comments on my post. I reckon that’s much healthier behaviour. Hang tough mofos and try to keep it together. That’s all I can do atm.
Well hey lovely people of suicide Project. I haven’t been here in awhile if you have noticed if any of you know who I am.
So awhile back I made a post about I Dye my hair. Its my self distraction from self harm. People seemed to like that so I think I’m going to make a journal hopefully everyday or maybe a cpl days or once a week in not sure yet. But I’m here for all of you. I wont judge because everyone needs a friend and you shouldn’t feel alone. So if I make a journal for you guys it’ll be self distractions vs self harm. I’ll so some of my own problems and let you guys know I’m here and your not the only one out there. I don’t care if you think its something time and no one wants to hear you. I want to hear you and I want to help you okay. I’ll be here Just tell me what’s going on ill give the best advice again or just listen if that’s all you want. I promise I’m here for you give me a chance . I love you all even though i don’t know you but we all are on this site for a reason right. I’m nit going to let go to waste. Sorry for this being so long but its worth it and so are you. Yes You! ALL OF YOU AND I LIVE ALL OF YOU.
My name is Ashaia you can call me Shai and ill leave my kik if you want more of a connection thank you for reading lovely ?
love you ??
So im guessing from the posts most u guys are in the US. That got me thinking, how much does everyone pay for cigarettes.? In Australia I pay about $20 per packet of 25. Needless to stay I need to quit. anyway, just interested.
Hello. In a few hours I have an interview and it’ll probably be a disappointment. But for right now I wanted to ask you a question. What do you guys do for entertainment? How do you guys get your mind off of things. I play video games and watch youtube ( I love game grumps and I’m watching the new episode right now). I also love animation. Not working on it, but seeing the process and the final product is so cool. I have major respect for anyone who can animate. It’s just so cool to see it all come together. So what do you guys do? Do you draw or write music or have a favorite show? I just thought that a casual post today would make everyone feel a bit better. Well thanks for listening and I can’t wait to see what you guys say.
Hey, just wanted to let you know here how much I appreciate everyone here. I think we all were looking for something unheard of in the real world when we joined up.
I also just wanted to let you know I read as many posts as I can and even though I don’t have the words to help most of the time, I do support you.
Thanks everyone who responds to my posts for putting up with my whining even though you clearly have your own trauma to deal with. I feel I don’t have a lot to offer in return. But sincerely, thank you.
Ok, so I realized that I’ve been doing something weird. I’ll find myself laughing or smiling about something, and then I’ll focus on it and feel bad about laughing or smiling… then I immediately think of stuff that makes me depressed and I shift right back into my depression. It’s like… I refuse to allow myself to feel any kind of happiness.
I don’t know what this is… It’s like I’m punishing myself. I don’t understand what I’m doing to myself.
Does anyone else do this?
hay guys I’m still alive iv been trying to keep busy just in case you was wondering how has everyone been holding on I hope we’ll I’m not sure when the next time il post again but if u want to chat feel free to email me new and oldies on here email@example.com
darktide cordless hazy phantom crowbar procel and a few other names iv been thinking of you guys thanks for the support I appreciate that we have met and help each other though some rough dark nights thanks you everyone who is joined to suicide club
drowning hi5 everyone stay stong il be back like terminator haha
thank you everyone for your support. i’m awake now and doing alright, feeling sick but hopefully that will pass soon. this community has been so nonjudgmental and kind throughout this all, i really appreciate it. thank you so much guys, love you all.
as far as feelings… i’m angry that i failed again, angry that i tried to begin with… when did things start getting so bad that it seems impossible that things will get better? my mind is scattered, i feel like a failure. i’m just glad i wasnt found while i was out… i might find my way into the psych ward again, but it’s a dark place for me and i was happy to wake up, although sick and tired and sedated, in my own bed and not locked up in the hospital.
i need to get help and i’m going to try and get it. i just feel so alone but this site makes me realize that i’m not alone and there are some really good people out there! if i told my friends theyd call you “internet strangers” but the truth is more friends who can understand what this feeling is like, who really do care and try to help and make things better… i love you all so much. i’m sorry if any of what i did hurt or triggered you guys… i am trying to get better, i really am. love always
Hello. I think I’m running out of steam. I just don’t really care anymore. It’s a hassle to get up in the morning, I stopped talking to a lot of people, my grades are starting to slip (yes I’m in high school), my teachers and other students are getting visibly frustrated when dealing with me. I just don’t really care anymore. I try my best to put up this front that I’m fine, but I’m starting to lose motivation for that too. It’s starting to show, and I can’t afford another freak out and get sent back to therapy. I’m tired. And I feel shitty complaining about this when I’ve seen other people struggle so hard on this site. My problems are infinitely small compared to some of your guys’ problems. But yet I still feel miserable. Even when typing this post I’m struggling to maintain focus. I just don’t really care anymore. A couple of days ago I had a major freak out (I was able hide from my parents when this was happening) and that prompted me to sign up. Now I feel just low. Sorry for subjecting you guys to my bullshit. And sorry to all the others who are having a tougher time than me.
You’ve come back again, and here i am again.. i thought last time was the last time that’d id post because i was officially out of the shit hole i was in.. i have a feeling there are going to be more of those situations to come in the future, maybe this will be the last time.. Hopefully the light will shine sometime soon.. For those of you still hanging on, i fucking envy you, you guys are the strongest people i probably know in my life right now.. I mean I’m still hanging on, but running on fumes, i don’t know how you guys are but in all honesty i just hope it gets better.. For those of you that have made it to the end of the tunnel, and reached the light, ya mind sharing some over here? I can’t see shit.. Any way i really admire you guys too.. You’ve reached your destination and are still proceeding to look back at the hole you were in, and help pull people out.. you guys are awesome.
Right now, life just stinks, i am trying to get out of the place i am in right now and.. It’s hard. I am in the process of getting a license but its taking forever.. I know i’m close to the end.. But i don’t know if i want out of this house i built half my life in anymore.. I think i just want out of life.. i mean think about it, you get rid of one problem and another comes. Is that life? Is this what life is all about? I don’t want that… i look at so many people everyday and see them laughing and smiling with there families and there kids and apple pie and whole 9 yards i mean it all looks so perfect.. I managed to talk to one of those strangers the other day, i have no idea the conversation caught on but it eventually ended up with me telling him congrats on his new family and life and you guys look so happy and cherish it, its a wonderful blessing etc. Turns out the is on his way out the door.. Leaving his two kids and wife.. brand new fucking family and just up an leaving.. Because he doesn’t want to deal with it.. He was only 20 something and he figured he had them to early and he wants to go and live life.. sorry fucking excuse but Jesus what a tragedy. It was all smoke and mirrors the whole time, everyone is carrying burdens. No one I’ve met is at peace with anything. I have heard a shit ton of stories, everything from beating up their dad to committing suicide.. That last one honestly doesn’t sound like a bad idea because life doesn’t sound like it gets better at all.. I don’t know if I’ve said this before but it used to just be an idea in my head.. “What if i just ended it all?” i would ask myself.. Every time a bad situation would come, it would go straight to that.. Now it’s “How can i kill myself without anyone knowing?” or “What would be the most painless way too go?” And i just sit there and think it through. I’ve literally already made plans, and am taking steps, baby steps but i’m taking steps. It’s so tempting to leap… But i don’t have the guts to do it.. i cant go through with it, im to much of a fucking *****.. I’ll just randomly say, i am a firm believer in God and hope and destiny and we’re all here for a reason and all that.. But everyday i wake up and i think why did i? Why did i today? What is so important today that i have to be alive.. and nothing happens either.. so i guess i was meant sit in my house and do absolutely nothing but feel depressed. I can’t think of a reason.. This is a really long post so I’m going to just stop here.. I’m sorry if its really long, if you made it through, please don’t just skip this.. Just please answer me, is anyone fully out of the woods yet? If so please help me out.
Also please forgive me if i make errors or at times make no sense or contradict myself in this post, i was just writing whatever came to mind so if you have any questions because you were confused or something than just ask and I’ll clarify.
Well I’ve been on this site a couple of times now and I have been wanting to join for a while.
I have noticed how so many people are hurting and I honestly can empathize with some.
I hope I can share my story with you guys someday. (I’m not sure I’m ready right now)
Anyways, I really wish you guys the best of luck with whatever your going through <3
so the last few days iv drew a character which has mental illness each animal represents a different mental illness or disorder thanks for helping me guys youve been keeping me busy I haven’t been as low in a few day thanks for the support Suicide Club -drowning
ps thanks to everyone who helped me pick animals and names 🙂