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My First Post: The plan, the hope, the end.

by toxicluminoth 7/25/2013

written by toxicluminoth

Iâ€™ve been suicidal for many years and, to an extent, most of my life. Not a manic obvious case of suicide but a quite, calm and patient case. It was supposed to all happen tomorrow, Friday, July 26th 2013 but wonâ€™t.

I realized recently that my plan all this time was not the right way to go about things. The plan was to take my friendâ€™s handgun and walk from his place to the nearby hospital. There I would warn the staff about the events that were going to take place, to prepare surgery for my organ donation, and to clear out the area so that […]

7/25/2013 2 comments

I’ve made my choice

by almp 6/2/2013

written by almp

I’m nearing my end and I have so few words to say. After all these years of dealing with PTSD from my first suicide attempt,borderline personality disorder and various other illnesses that have earned me the humiliating title of “insane”. After years of humiliation and abuse for being the gay goth chick, being turned down for every job, and being shat upon at every turn. After relapsing over and over again and after losing most of the quality of my life, I’ve decided to take my own life and put an end to the misery that probably won’t get better. It’s taken a lot of […]

6/2/2013 2 comments

My Story..

by MaryBeth 1/3/2013

written by MaryBeth

Well, I’m not really sure how to do this.. But, here goes.
October 7th, 2010, exactly a week after my 14th birthday, I attempted to commit suicide. I shot myself in the head with a 22 Rugger handgun. I felt as if nobody cared, like something was wrong with me because I just could’t be happy no matter what I did. I didn’t want to feel this way but, I couldn’t control it. I felt like a burden on my family, I felt as if it’d be easier on them if I just disappeared. That day at school, all I could think about was, “What […]

1/3/2013 10 comments

My Silent Scream…

by Shelly 4/7/2012

written by Shelly

Everything I touch I taint. Everything I do I botch. Everyone I know I hurt. Iâ€™m in pain almost all the time and because Iâ€™m in pain I feel a perverse need to inflict that pain on everyone else; my friends, my family and even my pets. Iâ€™m suffering and because of that suffering I have to make everyone I love, value and care for suffer as well. It isnâ€™t fair, it isnâ€™t right but I honestly canâ€™t help it I’ve become the sort of person I despise. I have interests that I take great pleasure in and which help to pass the time; collecting […]

4/7/2012 8 comments

Well

by memitim 4/1/2012

written by memitim

I’m new to the site (obviously) Been lurking around here for quite a while though. I don’t know why, Guess knowingÂ I’m not the only one feeling fucking miserable is comforting for me.

I’ve been suicidal for as long as I can really remember.Â I guess the only reason why I haven’t killed myself already is that I don’t knowÂ how my family would react. Don’t really want them to feel bad… Then again, They might be glad I’m gone. I don’t really care anymore honestly. They don’t pay any attention to me anymore…

I plan on killing myself tomorrow…But looking back, I’ve said that so many […]

4/1/2012 5 comments