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Losing Kat

by LostKat 5/11/2016

written by LostKat

I don’t feel like myself anymore. Any way I say it sounds stupid, but why am I expected to love myself when I cant even recall who i am?

There is so much I hate about myself and I cant see through it anymore. Ive been trying for years to be better. So many years. I cant do this anymore, I just cant. Im wearing thin.

When I look at myself, I don’t see me, I see someone else. She’s so familiar now. I know her more than I know myself.

She despises who i am, she’s hateful and deceiving, she’s scared and hurt. She’s the worst part of me. She’s almost all of me now.

Lets just […]

5/11/2016 4 comments

Revenge?

by the moonchild 4/21/2016

written by the moonchild

Sometimes I can no longer cope with anxiety and dark images/feelings in my head so I hurt myself, I waste time, I waste opportunities, I waste myself. I once was a rather clever child but now I am stupid distracted and numbed by all my fears. An ancient monster from the past, doing really dirty things. But I’m afraid of making him human so I did’nt ask for his name. My mother want this story to be burried and forgotten but I don’t no what to do. I hate him and I hate myself at the same time, and I wish he could fall and […]

4/21/2016 0 comment

Things that I am sick of…

by ImSurroundedByIdiots 2/18/2016

written by ImSurroundedByIdiots

Staring at these same walls day after day.

Having to eat every day. I hate being hungry. Why can’t I eat once every six months or so?

Getting hair cuts.

Being told it will get better.

Living in the U.S. with all these hateful, ignorant, uber-competitive, loud mouths.

Being misunderstood.

Basically being human or even existing.

I really don’t think I was meant to be human. I hate them so. Yet I must rely upon them.

Please. I just want the sadness and misery to end.

please

2/18/2016 7 comments

by neptune 9/8/2015

written by neptune

you know, i posted a few times, and i got really nice people commenting, but then there’s the others blunter ones. i’m not hating on yall, i’m not blaming on yall, in fact, i like your bluntness, don’t lose your bluntness. but when you tell me i need to “learn how to enjoy life without depending so much on other people”, i’m sure you meant to help me. i’m sure you’re just sick of this person who is so fucking needy. but do you think i haven’t tried? how can i depend on myself when all i do is make myself feel miserable? do you […]

9/8/2015 3 comments

What are they thinking

by BluDude976 9/1/2015

written by BluDude976

It never fails to amaze me how incredibly rude and dismissive some doctors and nurses are. Why if someone is struggling with depression would you seek help from someone that talks down to you and treats you like crap? I wonder how many people have killed themselves after going to the wrong doctor or because a nurse acted like a hateful judgemental asshole…

9/1/2015 3 comments

moments of rage

by sadsadist 7/7/2015

written by sadsadist

I am so disappointed with how everything ended I’m so hateful towards myself and everything around me so I have these moments were I cease to have any control over my rage today I got in a fight with my brother and all I could think was to make sure he never fucked with me again to seriously harm him Idk why I left Idk how i did eitherthe urge to let the rage take over was so strong (no he’s not much younger than me and no I didn’t even make him bleedi really wanted to do much worst)

7/7/2015 0 comment

It’s not a competition

by _NameLess_ 3/22/2015

written by _NameLess_

It makes me upset when I, or others post about things that are bothering us and are kicked around by some hateful comments. I hate that. For example, “Try living my life for one damn day I don’t cry about it on some shitty website 24/7 for attention. Get over your lesbian self harming self.”. We just need to vent. If people really are on here because they consider being miserable some sort of giant competition, what do you possibly gain out of it? I’m just on here to vent when I feel really shitty. I should find a different forum. This is so childish.

3/22/2015 5 comments

Life’s Ironic huh?

by Broken_Soul 11/29/2014

written by Broken_Soul

Let me tell you a True story.A story of a Childs dreams and how he ended up being the very thing he hates.Dont worry about his name.

Many years ago there was once a child,a boy.The boy was a very happy,and cheerful,and hyper.He loved going to his cousins house to play,he loved going outside,and he loved to be around other people.This child started off just like any other…pure.He had dreams of being a soldier,of being a firefighter,and of being a Hero.more than anything the boy wanted to be someone who helped others.He wanted to help the poor be happy,he wanted to give those who had nothing,everything.Unfortunately […]

11/29/2014 2 comments

In the end

by CreepySilence 8/14/2014

written by CreepySilence

Let’s say heaven and hell were real, would hell be a place on earth? All of this hate, anger fueled by lust, greed, power. If we were really the way “god” wanted us to be, then what is god? Is he hate? Anger? Lustful? Greedy? Or is he just puppeteer who get’s a hard on when he cuts one of the strings from the marionette? What if after we die, we keep on being reincarnated, to live this hateful torturous life for all eternity? There never really is an “end”, even when we live, we’re not really living.

8/14/2014 2 comments

breakdowns

by Mary Love 8/13/2014

written by Mary Love

My foster mom is so fucking hateful. I begin to take charge of my life, and she flips shit. I’m seventeen. I applied to take a nursing class at tcc so I can have a decent job in college and she freaked out and reminded me about how none of my family cares about me. About how i’m so alone in the world. I cried and cried….One more year.She got mad because “ever since I got back from my grandparents, I’ve acted like an adult”, which is her excuse to tear me down and rip me apart. I’m not gonna let her get to me. […]

8/13/2014 6 comments

by MariahXX 7/24/2014

written by MariahXX

When I am upset or seriously depressed I listen to music. Hateful and sad. Maybe that isn’t the best thing to do but after I get passed all of the crying and cutting, and panic attacks, I feel great again. My mother saw my scars for the first time today. I have always been so good at hiding them. I can’t believe I was not paying attention. I feel terrible for that. It isn’t her fault. It’s everyone else’s. I really want to speak to her about it but I am so scared. What if she does not love me anymore. My father used to […]

7/24/2014 10 comments

Stop pretending life has more value than it really does

by upos 2/5/2014

written by upos

share your suicide story with others
Reminder — don’t post hateful things here.
Do not post for suicide partners or discuss specific suicide methods
either. They will be removed.
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This is what I read upon arrival. Is this a joke? Don’t post hateful things? THATS WHAT SUICIDAL PEOPLE DO! It’s MY life and I hate it and everything it stands for and everything it might stand for because others always think they have the right to tell me what to do then they turn and hightail it through their brainwashed cerebral psyche feeling proud that they stuck their nose into my business then run me up the […]

2/5/2014 12 comments

Ingrates

by hiddensecrets 5/6/2013

written by hiddensecrets

I have no one to share my feelings with except the web where squalling little children are crying about their life and how “hard” it is because their parents “don’t understand them” and yadda yadda yadda. Get over it, you are 12-15 crying that you hate life and you never get what you want. Well, news flash! Life isn’t fair you little shit. You will learn one day as you grow up and it is going to be one hell of a ride but don’t fucking meander around moping how you have a shitfuck life because your parents won’t let you stay out till 2am […]

5/6/2013 15 comments