I have been married for 25 years to the love of my life.Three months ago I was diagnosed with non small cancer of the lung and mets to the brain. Inoperable. One week later i found out my wife has been having an affair for three years. when I confronted her about it she told me she did not love me and has not most of our marriage. She stayed because I was a great provider and safe choice. she told me she has had six affairs in all. I am a broken man. She will not even take me to my chemo treatments. I […]
Having An Affair
All the crazy emotional experiences have come and gone. Years has passed and time heals all wounds. Yet, here I am with all goals killed and/or died. I shouldn’t have made it through the experiences I experienced. Now here I am alive and empty. Somewhat like Salmon spawning. They swam upstream and laid their eggs. But unlike the salmon dying soon after, I’m still alive.
I’m not a young kid. I’m 50 and have a career. Here is my story. I lived the American dream. No, not a millionaire but I am ok making 89K a year. It all started about 5 years ago. At […]
Let’s see. 4 years. 4 years ago was the first time I took a blade to my own wrist. And now here I am, barely a teenager and I want to die for the millionth time. Whenever something bad happens I automatically think; “let’s save that for later, you can rid the tainted blood with one trip to your special drawer”. But sometimes, sometimes it isn’t enough. Sometimes I just have a thousand thoughts running through my head, all of the bad things that have happened and keep happening. Hey, your antidepressants make you cold all the fucking time. Your dad is never here and […]
As of tonight, I don’t know what family is. My mom walked out on my family sept. 29th, I’m pretty sure I’m the only one still in so much pain from that. She’s off with the guy she was having an affair with, I still talk to her but she’s changed it will never be the same. My dad was doing good, he planned a trip to Toronto to visit who I thought was his family. Turns out he’s going to visit an old girlfriend… Not impressed. Why? He hasn’t told me. He hasn’t told me he booked a ticket, he didn’t tell me who […]
hi. my name is unimportant, but i am 13 years old. young, right? i know. please don’t judge me or complain and say i have so much to live for. i just want to say my story, and say how i feel.
two years ago around summertime, my parents split up. it was hard on me to drag my stuff back and forth. it was okay though because it was only a walk up the street. my mom was diagnosed with cervical cancer in december that same year. my dad had accused her of having an affair while she was undergoing chemotherapy and radiation therapy. i […]
They say it gets better, and that it won’t last forever. But Â I wonder when it will start for me?
It started 3 years ago. I had heard my parents fighting, and then my dad put a gun to his head and he said no one would care if he pulled the trigger. But his 12 year old daughter was watching from the doorway, and to her it mattered very much. I never told him I saw that, so he can’t understand how much that messed me up. That year was already bad. I was bullied for my weight and I’ve never really gotten over that. […]
I’m sick and tired of feeling like shit.
My mom walked out on my dad and I a month ago tonight, and is now renting a house with the man she was having an affair with. I still see her like twice a week, and she wants me to live with her some of the time. Fuck that, her… boyfriend? friend? I don’t know… creeps the fuck out of me. I get the most uncomfortable feeling around him, and he was trying to “talk sense” into me like he was my father and I lost it. My mom even called him my dad and I yelled […]
I am trying to hold on but don’t know why. My mom died when I was 9, my dad has never really been in my life & raised by my grandma & grandpa, they both passed a long time ago. I literally have no family & 4 years ago my life changed forever. It had been 11 years together and was so in love when I found my ex-husband. I was married once before and had one son, but we were too young and I thought thats was love was until I met my ex. He raised my son as his own and really gave […]
My parents have been going through a messy divorce. Found out my dad was having an affair but he ended it. there was a trial. my mom wanted a restraining order on my dad so he wouldnt be able to see her or my little brother. she said he was dangerous. he’s not dangerous. i have people who have only known my family for probably two years trying to tell me that i dont know my dad at all and even worse that they do. i do know my dad. he ended the affair, told my mom about it but mom lost her mind. she’s […]
Â I’m forwarding you this just so you can understandÂ a little of what I’m going through right now. I don’t want you to do anything with this, it’s just to help you understand.Â
My life has been a life of trauma. My mother sent me away(I reminded her of him too much)Â for many weeks, at 8, when my brother was crushed by a brick wall. I saw it all. I was not allowed to cry over his death. I was forced to pour soil over his urn. We had always been stuck together like glue.
Â At 14 I was gang raped in broad daylight by some […]