I had one good day and then things fell apart. There were 2 1/2 decent weeks leading up to my one good day. Then my health problems came back. My health issues came back in an instant. The summer is basically over and I’m sick of this cycle. I can’t string together 3 good weeks. It’s hard to build a life this way. At times I really hate myself and my life. I ask people “What’s the point?” and they have no sensible answers. Having that one good day I could see that life is much better when your health is good and normal and […]
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Why do we reach out to those that have harmed us?
Is it somehow an innate desire inside that they will change and see the error of their ways and realize that after years of degrading us, we’re actua lly worth something?
Dad used to scold me for my self-worth being low, but he kept contributing to it by making fun of my weight, or my bleeding issues. Â How could a Registered Nurse be so cruel, knowing, as a biology major, that the health issues I have are pretty severe?
The truth is, they weren’t severe because he didn’t want to foot the doctor bill. Â Years later, they’re […]
I’ve been on a slippery slope for months.
I have a health problem that has driven me demented, lLiterally have not been able to relax or think straight for so long now and there is nothing anyone can do to take away this mental anguish.
I feel close to the edge. I have a beautiful Family and Friends and had a fantastic life before the onset of this ailment but now I feel the day is coming where I can’t carry on.
I am so ashamed to do this to the ones I love, but I’ve reached a point where I am beyond coping, my lust for life […]
I’ve been pondering this question since my time is near. Of course no one knows for certain, but I think a certain blogger had the most likely description.
Time existed before you were born, other people lived and died before you were born, and other people will be born after you are dead. One has no memory of anything before they were born (of course folks will claim to be someone in a past life, but people imagine all sorts of stuff). Before you were born will be like it is after you die. You won’t have any memories or consciousness that goes on. In other […]
My father once said to me, “Life dealt you a really shitty hand, but all you can do is play the hand your dealt.” That was before I lost bladder function. I did not think to say to him at the time, “Well dad, I can always fold.” I was born unto a house of pain, and now I have to deal with health issues on top of all the psychological issues, all the arrests, all the beatings, all the hospitalizations, all the incarcerations, and for not ever really even breaking the law. I have been locked in a dry cell with nothing in it, no plumbing, no […]
Zoloft a drug prescribed in so many western societies to deal with a range of health issues particularly depression and anxiety. Zoloft for me is not what I expected. I thought I’d feel happier, I do in a way but I don’t feel any less sad or miserable. I know I should kill myself but I can’t Zoloft has taken that from me. So now I’m stuck in a mood where nothing truly matters, I should give up. So tired…..
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I’ve figured it out! I feel like celebrating! I’m so happy and relieved!
In my heart of hearts, I believe people should be allowed the dignity and respect of deciding how long they live. To me, what drives a person to end their life is the devestating part; that profound suffering and internal unending pain. But not the actual suicide; that’s freedom.
For example, I recently had to have […]
For awhile now I’ve been “Ready to die” so to speak… I haven’t been able to think of a full proof way to end it yet but my mind is constantly thinking of new options, none of which will actually work. I have 2 in mind, but they are both extremely difficult to achieve, and 1 of them doesn’t have a very high probability of success.
I don’t think my depression is curable and ending it would be a permanent solution to a permanent problem. I can’t suffer the humiliation, shame, regret, loneliness, pain, and sadness any longer. I feel as if my very existence is […]
I am 17 years old and have been depressed for a few years now, suicidal for about a year at least… I keep reading things online about how depression is only going to get better, but in my case it keeps getting worse. My health continues to spiral downwards and make me feel like a complete invalid.
A few months ago I believe I posted another story here regarding the reasoning’s behind my depression and since then it has become much worse. The thought of suicide has become an idea that is able to make me feel at peace.
My whole life has been a battlefield between […]
So, I get annoyed when people complain about how much their life sucks, but hey this what this website is for right?
Okay so i’ve been struggling with depression for a long time , around 5 years or so. I’m 19 now but even when I was 13 and 15 i would get in these slumps, especially when I was 15 since my entire school hated me and I just kept fucking up with my family and things.
I always felt like i was missing something.. Me and my family didn’t always get along but we do now. No one I know has ever known […]
So. There is nothing holding me back. There is no one who loves me, no one who cares about me. The last one who existed on this earth, my father, got run over by a truck a year ago next month. I am a single woman in my 40’s who grew up in an abusive household and will never have a mate or children or a loving home. I want to die more than anything in this world. Each night i lie sobbing on the floor, pulling the side of one hand down the wrist of the other, feeling the cool, smooth sensation of a […]
I’ve done all my preparation; house is in foreclosure, no job, no family, absolutely no friends, chronic health issues, I’m on 5 prescription meds, I’ve got a loaded 12 gauge shotgun, nothing but an old dog to leave behind. I need help pulling the trigger, it must happen, I’m done!