I made the worst mistake of my life by trying to end it. But the craziest thing happened. It became the biggest blessing as well. I grew up hearing things like, “you’re ugly,” “worthless!” “a mistake” “why didn’t you get an A?” This over time by family, peers, and our culture in general just eroded my self-confidence and by the age of 23 I was in full blown anger and depression. I was so tired of being rejected, judged, teased, bullied, etc that I couldn’t see any other solution but taking my life and so I tried. Well, God decided he had another plan and […]
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Hearing Things
i have decided to take my mom suggestion and move away. she thinks it might help me , but i honestly don’t know. Last night i started cutting my self, apart of me felt good doing it then another part of me felt as if i am just stupid and sick.
i think i have a personality problem idk its just that there are times when i do things and am not sure why, or times were i sit and stare at my self in the mirror and talk to my self, i end up so deep in conversation that the other part […]
“oh what a delight, a day at the zoo,
seeing the sights, i love the zoo
stay by the mungkhees an hour or two
people watching because people are brutes”
These words keep running through my mind. I wrote them and have read them over and over and listened to the recording over and over so maybe that is the reason that I can’t let go of the words. But I’m here, wondering about hullucinations. I’ve never mistaken a hallucination for reality (except when I think an event has occured, but it only has in a dream) but I think I’m seeing and hearing voices.
Could just […]