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I still want to die..

by englishboy. 4/27/2014

written by englishboy.

..this is 10 years of low self esteem, depression, suicidal thoughts and anxiety.

This is 4 years and 4 months since I first discovered this website.

I still want to die.

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People always talk about holding on, it gets better and this isn’t your life forever, but when is the way I feel about myself or my life going to differ from the past 10 years? I’ve been shattered and broken by depression and this idea of suicide.. I’ve held, and held, and held, for what? Nothing has changed the way I feel and believe me, I have really put in maximum effort and tried to change […]

4/27/2014 2 comments

I am done

by jocie13 4/20/2014

written by jocie13

I’ve been done for years now I just keep holding on in hopes of a better future but I can’t keep holding on to hope then watching it shatter in front of me I love to much so I break to easily even my Mom doesn’t care I’ve been trying to stop feeling this way to stop feeling that’s all I want I tried to kill myself Thursday but as I’m typing this you see I failed and now I have decided it’s the end I don’t how I’m going to but I have to

4/20/2014 2 comments

why

by RealKris 4/13/2014

written by RealKris

Why am I here

What the fuck am I doing

I hate life

I’m just holding on

Why

What’s the point

Haunted by my own thoughts

kill yourself

They gently whisper

…I may oblige

4/13/2014 3 comments

Do you really want to die?

by cemeteryfairy 3/19/2014

written by cemeteryfairy

I lost my father to suicide and harbor no harsh feelings toward him for what he did. He was in pain, depressed, unable to break away from alcohol and drug addiction and the worst part to him was the IRS said he owed $50,000 in back taxes and he had no idea why. Turns out after his death the IRS informed us he really didn’t owe anything, in fact, they owed him! A sickening feeling that was. The IRS was the first mention in his suicide note. They killed my father just as much as he killed himself…but I digress…Now I stand in his place, […]

3/19/2014 11 comments

Not Sure I Can Wait Until 2019

by Counting Down the Years 1/24/2014

written by Counting Down the Years

On Mother’s Day I wrote that I wanted to wait until my daughter turned 18. I don’t want to check out while she’s so young, but I don’t see myself holding on another 6 years.

1/24/2014 13 comments

and then I fell apart

by mysmilecoversalot :) 3/7/2012

written by mysmilecoversalot :)

I walked outside today and realized it was warm enough to not need a jacket. As the sun shone down on me I fought back tears, the change of season would mark the one year anniversary of my downfall. It would remind me of how long it has been and how deep I have gotten myself into this. I never knew it would go on for a year, I thought everything would be fine by now. One year ago if you were to have looked me in the eye and explained how I would starve myself, then force myself to vomit every single day, multiple […]

3/7/2012 1 comment

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