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Hopes And Dreams

My Name Was Brett

by H 9/9/2013

written by H

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Preface:Â I’m not actually going through with this.Â I asked God for a sign as I walked with tears in my eyes tonight, he gave me one. At 8:00 pm, I received a internet message from a beautiful soul I hadn’t thought of or had any communication with in years. You know who you are and you did, infact, save my life tonight. Thank you beyond measure.

I was just writing this when I got that message and I think it’s really important that I continue to write this. Who knows what will happen tomorrow. There are no reasons to sit on these words. Words only matter […]

9/9/2013 4 comments

Uhhh.

by lifekilledthelifeinme 7/28/2013

written by lifekilledthelifeinme

So apparently I should be doing something with my life. Yeah, cause chasing after the wind makes perfect sense. Work a job I don’t wanna work at and make money that I could really care less about. This life is chasing after false hopes and dreams. Why are we even here? I don’t get it. Apparently to live this human experience I suppose. But there’s nothing that the world has to offer me. I don’t care about anything. I’m just accustomed to waking up, eating, taking a shit and repeat. Play some candy crush and drown myself in music, that’s life for me. […]

7/28/2013 0 comment

At World’s End

by Othello 6/7/2013

written by Othello

I never thought I would be on this site as someone posting from a desperate place, instead of helping out through comments. But life is ironic that way, no?

6/7/2013 13 comments

Too far gone…

by r3a9an 5/19/2013

written by r3a9an

I really don’t know what I’m doing. I’m extremely suicidal, I have no fear of death and I welcome it’s emptiness. However, I have this insane little happy part of myself that won’t shut up about all of my hopes and dreams and how they could still happen. I really feel like two people at once sometimes. I don’t know whether to feel good or bad that they both agree I’m ugly and look nothing like they do in my head. (I have a lot of self-hate.)

I think it might be worse because I don’t feel like I have the right to feel this way. […]

5/19/2013 5 comments

Goodbye Horses

by flatus 5/2/2013

written by flatus

You told me
“I’ve seen it all before, I’ve been there.
I’ve seen my hopes and dreams
A-lyin’ on the ground.”

I’ve seen the sky just begin to fall.
You say “All things pass, into the night.”
And I say “Oh no sir, I must say you’re wrong.
I must disagree: oh no sir,
I must say you’re wrong.”
Won’t you listen to me?

5/2/2013 0 comment

Death In Solitude

by Ichise8 5/1/2013

written by Ichise8

“I don’t understand why we must do things in this world, why we must have friends and aspirations, hopes and dreams. Wouldn’t it be better to retreat to a faraway corner of the world, where all its noise and complications would be heard no more? Then we could renounce culture and ambitions; we would lose everything and gain nothing; for what is there to be gained from this world? There are people to whom gain is unimportant, who are hopelessly unhappy and lonely. We are so closed to one another! And yet, were we to be totally open to each other, reading into the depths […]

5/1/2013 1 comment

Final Words

by HunterNightshade 2/5/2013

written by HunterNightshade

I have been holding on for too long and I am slipping. I have no one up top to reach down and grab me, pull me up; and I have no one to catch me when I fall. I was once on the edge now I am dangling and ready to fall. I thought I could handle the weight of the world, fight on towards my future until the day I die. But I can’t. The world is depressing even-though there is so much fun around. I am so heart-broken even though I have friends, family, and a boyfriend who love me dearly. You may […]

2/5/2013 0 comment

Waiting

by Empty Anna 1/26/2013

written by Empty Anna

Still don’t know what I want to be when I grow up. I wish I had never grown up. I’m lost and not sure I want to be found. It feels like I just exist. It doesn’t feel like I’m meant to do anything great, or really anything at all. I hate my job. I hate where I live, how I live. I hate who I’ve become, and who I’ve not become. I used to have hopes and dreams but now I just like to sleep and let my dreams take me away from reality. I don’t think killing myself is the answer though I […]

1/26/2013 2 comments

I Know a Girl

by RobynsRose 1/19/2013

written by RobynsRose

I know a girl. She always had two sides to her.

The Outside; She was pretty, happy, loving. She always put her friends first, did everything she could to help them, always had a smile and a hug set aside for anyone who needed it. She had hopes and dreams for a future, she had a loving boyfriend, who was dedicated to her. She always told the truth when it came to other people, even when she knew it would hurt. She always found the brighter side of everything. She had good grades, she had every talent, she was amazing.

The Inside: She hurt. SheÂ couldn’tÂ cry, so she […]

1/19/2013 2 comments

by raskolcp 1/4/2013

written by raskolcp

For ten years I’ve messed around with my brain.Â I was never happy and I’m still not.Â I’ve lost almost everything that matters.

Last night I woke up screaming. I was asleep, had JUST fallen asleep, and in my ‘dreams’ I was talking on the phone when I had a seizure. It felt so real. I fell forward, unable to reach the phone just staring at it. Finally I screamed. And that woke me up. This happens all the fucking time.

I laid there and I realized, the dreams really aren’t that bad. Even that terror that I feel at the last minute before the screaming wakes me, at […]

1/4/2013 6 comments

Am I just a superfluous person?

by ajft 12/30/2012

written by ajft

I went for a walk tonight and it occurred to me that maybe there are just too many people in the world. Maybe somehow the universe just created too many people and some of us are just not needed. Perhaps I am one of the people that isn’t really meant to be here. I really am unwanted. I have no friends. Yes, I have people that I talk to at work, but no real friends. I am 37, I work in a professional job. I don’t have kids. I have been in a relationship with a man for the past 7 years (we don’t live […]

12/30/2012 4 comments

shatteredglass

by Tormenting Dreams 12/14/2012

written by Tormenting Dreams

i dont know when the pain forst began, or if it ever did. maybe i was just born with it. stuck in a life where dead ends is all there ever will be. that everytime i leave it, i get something worse. its become the normal. and sometimes, well most of the time i feel like i need it. like it will always be there and i have nothing without it. it seems to me that i am inviting it, that i look for it. im always down and depressed for no reason at all. and maybe the reason is me. maybe i truely am […]

12/14/2012 2 comments

At the end of the line

by Karma44 10/8/2012

written by Karma44

I just cant see a reason to go on.

I have lost everything in the recession. I was lucky and found a new job in a new place. I found a job I loved. I was a respected professional. I was doing so well. Had my life back on track. I befriended a coworker. We were both in a new city and both new with the company.
I had a new home with a yard for my dogs. Slowly our friendship grew and we both helped each other to do amazing at our new jobs. I started […]

10/8/2012 6 comments

Does this sound pathetic and corny ?

by lydiarose 9/16/2012

written by lydiarose

Im trying to write my final note – But i don’t wanna sound to boring and ” woah is me ” – so without further ado is an excerpt from my suicide letter –
I lost interest in everything , even music , Music was my everything , my comfort , my hobbies , my lifestyle , Even being a piano player for eight years you would think i would have come to love and cherish every moment i could play on my beloved piano- But i was ( excuse me – am) so broken , even my beloved music couldnâ€™t […]

9/16/2012 5 comments

Castle Walls

by queen827 2/26/2012

written by queen827

Everyone Thinks That I have It All,
But Its So Empty Living Behind These Castle Walls,
If I Should Tumble,
If I Should Fall,
Would Anyone Hearing Me Screaming Behind These Castle Walls,
There’s No One Here At All,
Behind These Castle Walls.

I live a very different life. This is my first time trying something like this, I’m not doing this with the intention that it’ll bring me pity or sympathy from others, Im doing this hoping that it’ll bring me some FORM of peace.

Im not like alot of people out there. I live a very different life. Luxuries people would never even dream of. […]

2/26/2012 4 comments

I feel like that woman in “The Yellow Wallpaper”

by ConstantDisaster 2/12/2012

written by ConstantDisaster

If you don’t know the short story, look it up…

I’m always alone, or left alone, the people that supposedly care about me, do absolutely nothing to stop this pain. I’m always told to move on with life. WHAT LIFE? I have nothing left, no way to continue education or getting a job, my credit was completely destroyed by my own school, and my education opportunity completely destroyed by my ex. They take everything from me, but I’m not allowed to be angry, or depressed?! They steal money and people’s lives, and I’m not allowed to do anything to fight back? Why do they get rewarded […]

2/12/2012 4 comments