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Human Contact

wish cuts would disappear after blood as dried

by Knightofdoom 9/9/2013

written by Knightofdoom

well, well well, idk even know what well mean… but i say it alot

it pretty obvious to me im in pain, i know this because,i get urges to hurtmyself’, in different way

but i have this one repetitive , where i have slit all the way down my fore arms, and crosses cut at the wrist.

and i sit naked and bleed out,

i have alot of physical pain in my wrist Â and that could be why and honestly i know if Â cutting will do it any more, and draw super attention i hate, i think these day

but i know im no friend of human contact, i find […]

9/9/2013 0 comment

alone

by kristink 6/15/2013

written by kristink

having a pleasant time high, home alone. i usually have better insight into me and my “distorted” thinking when i am under the influence. major insight of the day-i like being alone too much. i am having a hard time tolerating people. if i am around people i have to talk. and be fairly pleasant. after awhile i can’t keep the facade up-takes too much energy. easier if i just keep my mouth shut and smile. it has gotten to the point where i watch tv with the sound off. i read the subtitles. the chatter, the noise grates on me. what is going on […]

6/15/2013 1 comment

How close am I?

by canitgetanyworse 6/3/2013

written by canitgetanyworse

If I have my flexril, ultram and Ativan counted out, does that mean I’m ready? I can’t stop thinking bout taking them. I can stop thinking bout makin the pain go away. Does that mean I’m ready?
I’ve stopped caring bout gettin up and showering, I’ve stopped wanting or needed other human contact, are these signs that its time? My phone is off more than its on, even if its on I no longer answer it. Can’t remember the last time I actually spoke to a person.

AM I READY?

I think I am, I can’t think of a good reason to stay.

6/3/2013 0 comment

They Must Be Dead:

by Andy2112 12/9/2012

written by Andy2112

I just now figured out the reason I cannot seem to find anybody around my age (at support groups, @wherever) so utterly lacking in social support and so needy for human contact and connection–they areÂ already dead.

12/9/2012 9 comments

my mom wont let me die

by frankcastle 5/21/2012

written by frankcastle

iv been unemployed for 4years plus and my gcse are rubbish and there no chanc of my life improveing iv applyed to go back to collage iam hopeing they take me back. i do jui jitsu to help me stay up but my coach is hardly there and the students are rubbish there no other gyms in my area ether. my brother younger 2 years is a marine and all my family rave on about him and my gf is an A level student and is joinin the raf as a medic she is sucsessful i get 40+ hrs a week of no human contact. […]

5/21/2012 1 comment

Still here. Barely

by Dr.Shazbot 5/12/2012

written by Dr.Shazbot

Before I begin, if you might want to read my previous post for some context. Â http://suicideproject.org/2012/03/want-to-just-die/

I’m still here. Â Not much of an accomplishment really. Â Still depressed. Â Still having very suicidal thoughts. Â Not constantly, but it’s like they’re always there, waiting for me to have just one very bad day.

My ex and I were friends. Â The she just stopped returning my texts. Â I didn’t know why. Â Still not sure I do. Â About three weeks ago. Â I texted her and basically wouldn’t stop until she told me what was going on. Â All she said was that I can be annoying somtimes. Â I admit that sometimes this […]

5/12/2012 3 comments

Only two beings more helpless than I am.

by trappedbyhelplessness 3/27/2012

written by trappedbyhelplessness

So. There is nothing holding me back. There is no one who loves me, no one who cares about me. The last one who existed on this earth, my father, got run over by a truck a year ago next month. I am a single woman in my 40’s who grew up in an abusive household and will never have a mate or children or a loving home. I want to die more than anything in this world. Each night i lie sobbing on the floor, pulling the side of one hand down the wrist of the other, feeling the cool, smooth sensation of a […]

3/27/2012 7 comments

When I’m Alone

by Pot 2/20/2012

written by Pot

I put my mask on when I go out, I put my mask on when I leave my room, when someone enters my room and when I have any form of human contact.

It’s when I’m alone when everything comes at once. The failures, the lack of prospects. The undeserved pain. When I’m alone I’m a different person.

2/20/2012 4 comments

I don’t belong here.

by justawhisper 1/15/2012

written by justawhisper

A couple of years ago I was a completely normal person. I was happier and my life seemed normal. I laughed a lot and I loved my family. I concentrated on them, because they were my life. Years passed, and things have gotten progressively worse. I’ve always had depression looming over me, but never this dark. I’ve always had anxiety, but never this painful. I’ve always been afraid of the outside world, but never this bad. Now, I am looking up ways to kill myself. And I have no where to turn.

I am a 21 year old with nothing going for her. If you knew […]

1/15/2012 7 comments

explaining….

by nate 7/1/2009

written by nate

i posted here once before… but i did a really bad job of explaining… i basically told what has happened to me, but thats not really all that needs to be said….. its just frustrating when you want to die, you are hurting so much, and the people you turn to just start blaming themselves and apologizing…. its also really stressful when you have to help the two closest people in your life go through the exact same thing as you, and see them suffer like you do. i think i die a little bit inside whenever one of them begs me to let them […]

7/1/2009 3 comments

broken

by NowInTheEnd 3/21/2009

written by NowInTheEnd

Im putting this somewhere in cyberspace since no one in my life would bother to read it if I left it here and I want someone somewhere to know my story.

Ive been alone for so long now that I can barely remember what its like to have an actual conversation and the crushing solitude has crossed the threshold of the unbearable and any hope of rekindling any kind of social connection has long since faded so its time to hang it up (not literally though im way too much of a ***** to do it that way).Â […]

3/21/2009 8 comments