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i hate myself

I know

by Imaginary Girl 6/4/2018

written by Imaginary Girl

I know. I know everyone says suicide isn’t the answer. I know I wouldn’t want my friends to commit suicide. I know this will hurt you. I know this will remind you of Sean. I know this will disappoint all my friends, my teachers, and my family.

And I know this is self centered and entitled; it’s pretentious and trying to sound too deep, but I don’t believe I was meant to have a happy life. I don’t think I was meant to grow old. I was meant to die early on, eventually forgotten.

I don’t believe in fate, and I don’t believe in god. I only […]

6/4/2018 6 comments

Will mixing Zoloft and seroquel kill me?

by kattwilliams77 9/23/2017

written by kattwilliams77

I can’t take it anymore I’ve wanted this for years. After my grandma died I felt lost. I was with her when it happened, I was only 12. After that my life just went downhill. I dropped out of school got in trouble with the police. I’m never going to amount to anything so why does it matter.

9/23/2017 10 comments

wrong.

by catsnap24 10/20/2016

written by catsnap24

i don’t know whats fucking wrong with me. i hate myself.

i spent 4 hours talking to a guy i thought i liked to only change my mind, all while my girlfriend doesn’t know anything. whats wrong with me? can someone, something fix me? or am i just ment be alone?

10/20/2016 5 comments

just wanna fade away.

by birds-will-sing-if-we-fall 5/7/2016

written by birds-will-sing-if-we-fall

My life and mindset changed irrevocably 29 months ago. i don’t really remember how!

i don’t write diary so idk, and don’t really remember anything before these two and half years.

i just remember that i was okay, maybe “happy”, just another one. anyways.

jan 2014, i decided that i can’t enter my high school finals exams cause i was afraid of not doing good and can’t go to the college that i always wanted. somehow my i drifted apart from my best “friends” and locked myself in my room for the rest of the year, about 6 months in my room alone.

my parents work all the time, […]

5/7/2016 2 comments

Im falling apart

by 2717_ 2/18/2016

written by 2717_

lately ive been crying and i hate myself so much, ive done horrible things to myself im seriously thinking about suicide with some pils. im fat af and ugly and all the bad things that someone could ever imagine. IM starting to vomit after every meal, im losing my mind lately, and no one notice.

2/18/2016 4 comments

I Hate Myself

by A Bullet Through My Head For The Words I Fail To Say 1/29/2016

written by A Bullet Through My Head For The Words I Fail To Say

I hate myself. I really don’t know how much longer I can hold out. I don’t believe in myself to make it through 2016. I find new things to hate about myself everyday and I can’t sleep without having nightmares. I’m mentally and emotionally drained 24/7. I don’t want to die but I don’t want to live either. I think of killing myself every hour of everyday because I just can’t do it anymore and it just seems so much better than how I am now. If I just ended everything, I wouldn’t feel, I couldn’t and all the pain would end. I know that there […]

1/29/2016 8 comments

Sigh

by No_one_care 12/2/2015

written by No_one_care

I hate feeling this way
I hate walking alone
I hate being the only one who suffers
I hate laughing to prove how strong i am
I hate being on meds cause of all the trauma
I hate myself above all else..for being a failure..a mistake
I hate myself for not being pretty..i hate myself for being dumb and unlovable

12/2/2015 1 comment

by cryxtalhatesherlife 9/22/2015

written by cryxtalhatesherlife

Mkay so hi call me Crystal im 12 dont judge plz

So recently my life has been fucked up. I live in Indonesia and yes im asian. But i just moved to this shitty place called Thailand and gonna fucking live there for 3 fucking years.
That wasnt so bad although im FORCED to leave my loved ones back there.
Everything was quite good until school came.
Yeah school, the worst place ever in my fucking life.
And yes, school sucks. Theres too many boys and i dont fucking like one of them. And there are too many people there and i cant fucking take it […]

9/22/2015 1 comment

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by Orphaned Soul 7/25/2015

written by Orphaned Soul

I dont understand why i hate myself to where i want to die. Somehow i envy the dead. Theyre so peacful and here are us. Walking about in agony and such sadness. Why cant things be better? Why do I try so hard and end up going no where or being the fifth wheel? what am i meant for besides being a total failure?

7/25/2015 0 comment

hate by the one you

by cant take it anymore 7/22/2015

written by cant take it anymore

I live in a common law relationship. And wen i was younger he told me that him love me. 10 years has past and all i got was beat down to the ground right though. I thought he love me but the thing is he never did. He been with many women and tells me that my breast was just too small for him n he need a women with bigger breast so he can rest his head upon. I dont know what to do but to drug myself everynight and cry because of someone that i hold so dare to my heart has broken […]

7/22/2015 3 comments

thoughts…

by hard2smile 6/20/2015

written by hard2smile

does it make sense that i hate myself because im too skinny? Most people hate being too fat i hate being too skinny. I want to be strong, i want to be big. Someone girls find attractive. Not someone they laugh at cause my body type is like a 5th grader. I want to be someone’s first option. Not “oh i invited 20 other people youre the 21st. wanna come” i want to be a friends first option, a girls, my fucking mother. I cant even be a first option to my mother. It makes you feel useless. I dont do anything. I sit home […]

6/20/2015 9 comments

Why does no one want to spend time with me…

by please just let me die 6/4/2015

written by please just let me die

So, I know I’m a terrible person to people I honestly hate, but as for the people who I try to be nice to and care for… WHY CAN’T YOU SPEND FIVE FUCKING MINUTES WITH ME. I really don’t understand how hard it is just to get off an Xbox, or take a few minutes after you get off work, or a simple moment when you get out of school just to talk to me or hang out with me. I mean…. I actually TRIED with you. Even after I gave up on everyone else, I stuck with YOU. Not him or her, not the […]

6/4/2015 2 comments

happy birthday to me

by kristink 5/27/2015

written by kristink

well today is my birthday. and i am debating whether or not i want to stay alive. no one knows what is going on with me or else i probably wouldn’t be sitting here alone. but that is ok. the people who do know i am suicidal ie shrink, therapist, all have other people to attend to. i am willing to bet i am not even on their radar today. i have the means, a place picked out, all i need is some gumption to get moving. the bottom line is i can’t take living like this anymore. this depression just won’t let up and […]

5/27/2015 4 comments

What is Life? Part 1

by QuietlyBleeding 5/16/2015

written by QuietlyBleeding

What is life? Is it what we believe it to be? Is there a god? Is there evil? Why do i hate myself? Why do i hate life?……well i will answer every question that everyone has without knowing the specific questions. In order to understand what I’m about to write, you need your thinking caps turned on and tuned up all the way, and you must keep an open mind. I’ve eaten from the forbidden fruit of knowledge and I’m sharing the truth. God doesn’t exist and hell is life. I will use common sense, logic, and science and actual facts to prove everything…..in order […]

5/16/2015 3 comments

Always felt like a big ball shit…

by Someone kill me.. 4/18/2015

written by Someone kill me..

Ive always felt like shit, always felt hated and ive always craved attention and i hate myself so bad for it.

Ive been bullied for years and havent told anyone. My brother felt the same way and he told me about it, instead of our parents, he then told our parents. They stopped him from going outside for weeks and they hired so many people to keep him from it, it was that way for 7 months then he got out and commited suicide. He was the only person to ever talk with me and he meant more to me than anyone else. I’ve never told […]

4/18/2015 6 comments

I hate myself

by lovemyshihtzu 2/21/2015

written by lovemyshihtzu

I let him get away twice because how awful I am. I just want to die and soon. i hate myself so much let me out

2/21/2015 0 comment

I just can’t

by moonlitrose34 1/4/2015

written by moonlitrose34

Yup that’s how I feel right now. Screw it, screw all of it. Everything. I don’t even care anymore. I want out.

Every time I’m happy, or get motivated, or get some determination in me…it quickly goes away, like *poof*. So screw it, I’m done.

1/4/2015 7 comments

I Hate People

by Tara 11/22/2014

written by Tara

*WARNING LONGEST STORY + RANT EVER ABOUT FIGHT WITH FAKE FRIENDS*
So once again I am taken advantage of and treated like shit for it. I try to be a good person and this is what I get. So I was friends with four girls, their initials are S,M,ME, and E, because i don’t want to use their real names. I was friends with them for almost a year and I noticed that even at lunch, M stopped talking to me. And a few days later, E told me M said “I need to talk to you about Tara, I am so done with her […]

11/22/2014 3 comments

Struggling Again

by MissCMF 10/6/2014

written by MissCMF

I’ve been clean for three, four months and a couple of days ago i cut again, i hate myself for it, everything that’s going on, friendships, wanting to be non-binarry/ftm but my mum will never ever accept me, i just feel so load, and hour ago i broke down in my Uni class, i hate myself i’ve always been so strong and right now i’m the weakest i’ve ever been, i feel like i’m being pulled and dragged around by my family, the people i talk to i don’t know who i am anymore…

I won’t eat, i’m losing so much weight, i’ve got people saying […]

10/6/2014 3 comments

Attempted Suicide

by leftforthedead 9/26/2014

written by leftforthedead

Today was the day that I was supposed to die, but I have failed once again. All week I have been getting my affairs in order, and I was finally ready to depart from this world. I woke up, went to my one and only class, and left class feeling completely and utterly at ease, and at peace with what I was about to do. My letter was written, I had said my goodbyes, I was ready. I drove home from class, and started tearing up a little bit in the car, but that quickly subsided when I realized that everything […]

9/26/2014 1 comment

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