Hey, I just want to post this because I really hate my life and hate my mom so much. you have no idea what I’m going through, it might be not as bad as some other cases but I hope it can change because when I’m writing this is still going on. I have Asian parents, and Asian parents tend to be strict, and I probably land on the most terrible parent.
The story begins like this, (disclaimer I didn’t put my name nor how old am I because I don’t want anyone to get in trouble, and I was in a rush writing […]
I’ve stopped taking my meds in hopes of bringing back all the shittiness and to maybe store meds for if I ever decide to kill myself and I tell myself that it’s better than feeling numb but I honestly just hate myself and I feel so uncomfortable unless my chest is bound and I don’t know why. but I just wanna fucking die. I’m so tired and I hate myself and I can’t find the energy to do anything and I can’t reach out to anyone and my mom won’t stop preaching about god and I’m all alone and fuck. I really just wanna die. […]
I don’t really know where to start with this. The school year’s just begun but I already feel like I’m dying. Like, I really just want it to end and I feel all alone and I dunno. I know that people would miss me if I died but now I just can’t bring myself to really care as much. I’m just empty and numb and I don’t know what I’m doing with my life. Like, why can’t I just move out and go to college already so that I can fuck up my life without anyone here to see. Like, why was I born. Why […]
About a month ago I hit a really low point, and during that time I wrote down all the thoughts going through my head, which I’m going to share below. Don’t reply worried or anything, I’m okay right now and won’t do anything drastic, a promise I made to a friend. 🙂
Now here’s the document:
I want to die…
I’m hopeless of the future. At this point I know mentally I’m not capable of living the life I dreamed of. I will only be a burden to my family and friends in the future. I can’t be this brilliant person that can change the world like my family […]
Still not getting any better. Laugh at everything. Interact with anyone. But still none. I still want to die (But I can’t. A lot of things to reconsider. It’ll be my fault if mother would go crazy, father would go back to drugs. My brothers’ lives would be affected. My girlfriend would be depressed again. So many things to reconsider but sometimes I just want to end it all.)
So, I’ll just cut and burn instead of committing suicide. Alternatives. I still want to die.
A coward. That’s what I am. I kept on running and running and running away.
In the end, I’ll just cry. Nothing changed. […]
okay so iv been thinking about killing myself and i want someone i can either talk to about it without them telling me that im loved and that i shouldnt do it or someone to help me kill myself. im from northern ireland. im trans and theres a lot of problems going on and idk if i can go through it all. so yeah get back to me if anyone wants to either talk to me or if someone wants to help me die.
Okay. today sucked. Woke up getting yelled at for shit I didn’t do. Went to sleep with people doing stupid shit. Okay so you should fucking know that if you have a damn headache , NOT TO FUCKING SIT AND WATCH LOUD ASS VIDEOS WITH YOUR GODDAMN HEADPHONES ON WITH THE VOLUME UP TO 100. But NO god FUCKING forbid you do it anyways. Is it helping you? DO YOU FEEL ANY BETTER? SO HOW DOES IT MAKE YOU FEEL? HOW DOES IT MAKE YOU FUCKING FEEL TO SAY YOU LOVE ME THEN FUCKING IGNORE ME? DOES IT MAKE YOU FEEL GOOD? CAUSE IT MAKES ME FEEL LIKE […]
Nothing that out of the usual I guess, but today I swear to god was the worst I’ve had in a long fuckin’ while. If you are a parent and think it’s okay to tell your kid who they can and cannot date and how to live their life, then fuck you. Apparently my mother thinks it’s okay to boss me around and bash my decisions in life. WELL FUCK THAT. FUCK HER. FUCK EVERYTHING. If I really wanna smoke, then I’ll fuckin’ smoke. If I wanna date him or her, then I’ll fuckin’ date him or her. YOU WILL NOT TELL ME HOW TO […]
I’ve wanted to die for such a long time but now I’ve fallen apart so badly and I have no idea of how I can hope to survive…
He hurt me, he really really hurt me. I’ve been left panicky and scared of everything because of what he did and I just cannot deal with it at all, I have no idea what to do anymore…
I’m just done. I really don’t know how to cope with anything anymore. My mom has been in a bad mood for the past week, because she is very stressed about christmas shopping. And of course whenever she’s angry, who does she take her anger out on? Her family. So her and my older brother were fighting about were the clicker was, and my mom got really angry. She was calling him a bastard, lazy ass etc. And my brother just said “Can you stop being a dick to me”, which he should never had said. She starts saying how terrible we all are then […]
I’m new to this so I’d like to apologize in advance for the length of this but I have a lot I just need to get out there and I appreciate you guys taking the time to read this and/or comment.
Have you ever thought about what it would be like if you were dead? Like, what if you just killed yourself one day because you had finally just had enough? I’m only 16 and I’ve already had enough. How am I supposed to make it to my 20s or even to 18 for that matter? I cry myself to sleep every night. I just wish […]
i dont knkw what it is, from the age of 12 my whole life changed ive never liked myself. i have just split up with my boyfriend today. we was together for 2 years, wenr through alot together he made me feel wanted and loved, made me feel like there was actually good things to me. i thought everything was fine, we talked about having a baby, getting married how much we loved each other. we went on a mini break to devon to just be together without any one else, without work just to spend time together. i was happy.. he told me today […]
I want to die. All I can think about is that, and how I have no friends (save for a few I have online), how I have never had a boyfriend (except for an online one), how I won’t ever be able to make friends or get a boyfriend in real life, how I’ve been sitting around the house doing basically nothing ever since I dropped out of school in March, how I won’t be able to start some (online) college classes this semester, how my parents have forever been disappointed in me, how I can’t get a job because I can’t drive yet, how I feel completely unmotivated […]
Fuck my life. I want to die. I feel so alone and empty. There is so much pain it is unbearable. All day I pretend to be fucking okay and I am not. I go to work and do everything but I am not okay. I smile and laugh and say, “Yes, I’m doing good,” when its all a bloody lie. There is no end to this pain. It is unrelenting, stalking me through every moment of every day, reaching out to suffocate me with its gnarly hands. I am a shell.
I’m not for sure how I want to go. I really want to just die and the only way I can do it right now is cutting too deep and I’m scared that I won’t cut deep enough and I will just have big cuts on my arms. I either don’t want them there or I do but I would rather be dead, ya know? Like I don’t want anyone to find out that I tried to kill myself. Anyway I’ve looked for sleeping pills but I can’t find any. All I can find are 4 bottles of freaking ibuprofen. I really just want to […]
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SHqo2FDJSU0I feel like nothing is going anywhere… nothing is getting any better. A year ago I moved to my father’s to finally get away from my mother, sister, and my mother’s boyfriend, because they were pushing me to the edge. They’ve always been “there” for me, at things like competitions for band, and driving me to school events… but that is pretty much where it ends.
My mother loves me, and I hate seeing her upset, but when my sister is around, there is always a pointless fight started by her, and I get to the point of just wanting to jump off the […]
hi i dont really know where to start but i guess i can start by saying im suicidal. ive been depressed for a long time and im still not sure why. i really wish i could have the courage to tell someone but i dont . im too scared they’ll make fun of me or will worry too much and i dont want that. i really know i need help but im just not sure why im so scared to tell. my dad is so understanding that he could help and my mom could help too i just dont know… i also dont know why […]
hi my name is umair ad i am 21 years old my story of life is very unique when i was 5 year old my cousin said me that she loves me she was just 4 years old and now our love is 17 years old this is very strange we started to love each other when we did not know the meaning of love but i think we started to love because we born for each other i was living very happy life with her but at the start of this year my cousin told me  that her parents are looking for a good boy […]
it’s been 17 fucking years.
in all honesty i can’t wait until it ends. 14 cuts this morning, more soon to come. starving myself, pulling out my hair. what a great way to spend my birthday.
anyway, im losing everybody, which is what i want even though it hurts. i dont want anyone to live for so i could finally just fucking die. my birth day isnt a happy day, i’d say its the worst day of my life tbh. all i want is a nice new pack of razor blades…..
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