I just dont understand, its not that i dont want to, or dont have the will, but, i just want to stay and its so hard… I’m sorry of this is how you guys feel, i really am. I can’t help myself, i can’t save you, i just, well, i cant do anything. I can’t imagine going on like this, not without Makaila, she was my best friend, she was my anchor, she was my everything, but she had to leave us, not on her own choice, she had gotten in a car accident, a little over a month ago, and was dead on […]
I am ashamed of being my parents’ child.
They’ve given me a beautiful life.
Yet, I don’t appreciate it at all.
I can’t give them, the true gratitude that’s within my heart.
I don’t have enough potential even if I do strive to do my best.
But my best is not enough.
A pitiful child, I am.
My efforts are nothing.
Even if I were trade my life for death, I could not do so.
As for now, I just need to look for the reason to continue on.
Everyday it seems to be getting worse and worse. I’m coming to the end of this pointless life that I have been attempting to live but it’s all too much. The final goodbye, it just a breath away.
Im sorry to the people that I made them feel bad because of what I post. I didnt mean it. Yeah maybe I act like a child but thats how I am. And thats why I hate my self. Everything I do is Wrong I beging in this website because I wanteds to be my self. Â But I just realize that even in a website people hate me. I wont write anything anymore. I am just a piss of shit. so bye
sorry for bothering entering in this webside
i wish today was my last day that i would cry
i wish today was the last day i hurt someone really badly without trying
i wish i didn’t feel fat or ugly
i wish i didn’t feel stupid and sad
but all this wishing is getting me no where
i have tried to fix what i cant
i have tried so many times
so i am sorry to all those i have hurt i am sorry i cant stop thinking like this. i am so sorry but you’ll never understand how sorry i am
maybe if i was dead i wouldn’t hurt you i wouldn’t do anything wrong
i just wish that i […]
Im 60 years old, was married for 25 years, 3 kids, 5 grandkids. Been divorced for 4 years now. Divorce was difficult since kids sided with the mother, but have since come back around. I was somewhat emotional about divorce but more upset about kids. Been dating since and has had its good and bad. 2 years ago I met a lady that rocked my world!!! She is awsum. Problem is I wouldnt commit and I messed up by pushing her away somewhat during a major house buying and renovating project. 2 weeks ago she dumped my sorry ass!!! I am devasted, been crying like […]
so i cut agen
so the blood spild
so sorry for the red stanes on the bed
so sorry for brane for the lack of the red stuff the you live on
so sorry for the day
for all the decay
for all the pane
i whant it to stop but it whont
ther seems to be a lump in my trote
iv given in on the doctors notes
for the weekly perscripshion
for the stuff i live on
and the illegul dope
so sorry bout me geting bulled
so sorry forÂ the harasmant and pane
im SORRY! for the wong ansers
im SORRY! for my mined is els were
IM SORRY FOR I CAN NOT LAUGH ANEY MORE NOT EVEN ON LIFES […]
Im sorry I can’t be perfect. I’m sorry I’m not happy. I’m sorry I was raped. I’m sorry I won’t eat. I’m sorry I cut. I’m sorry I won’t talk to anyone. I’m sorry I lie. I’m sorry you can’t tell I’m dying inside. I’m sorry I hide behind a smile.
It seems like it’s been that way for awhile now…me, hiding behind fake happiness. Trying to make everyone think I’m happy. But people have seen my cuts. People are starting to talk. They’re finding out, they’re gonna try to help me. I don’t want help.
So I’m really sorry.
I’m sorry I’m lost. I’m […]
Im here bc i need to pour my heart out somewhere rn. what better place than here, in public, to people who feel what i do? i used to post regularly on this, i’d always try to look on the bright side of things, try to hold on. but what bright side? what do i hold on to? there’s nothing,anymore. im tired of being my own hero. i don’t plan on staying here much longer, maybe until the end of march, little before april starts, maybe around 20-25th. i really don’t know how to tho, the pills i tried last time did not work. i […]
is today the day? Â im sorry, i havent been coming here or to chat lately… Â ive been really really depressed… Â the daily thoughts of suicide have returned, and it seems like with every almost love, the crushing aloneness afterwards gets stronger… Â i dont know if i can try anymore, and if thats the case, and im gonna end up alone forever… Â i cant help but think maybe i should just do it… Â i just dont want to be alone anymore… Â cya, and happy valentines day…
Okay im sorry but i really dont see the point staying on this sight anymore, i know its a good place to rant and shit. but i dont want to succumb you to my melo-drama. i really have no reason to be depressed anymore, i just need to grow up and move on. Goodbye guys, it was cool while it lasted i guess. i made some *friends* on chat.i had the opportunity to learn a few peoples stories and some thing to occupy my time, so to you i also say goodbye
hey. im abby and im 13… i dont know what to do. i am on medication for depression and anxiety. but they arent helping. if anything i got worse. i started cuttimg and became suicidal. the only reason im aliv Â is because my boyfriend monte talke Â me out of killing myself two nights ago. i have a therapist ut she is a *****. im sorry but i really hate er. and i Â cant get Â new therapist because there are none mor Â in my area. my friends have been supportive but they are getting tired of all my sadness. please i am writing the letters […]
This weekend was weird. I don’t know why I got so depressed this weekend. I think I’m just treacly tired and need some rest. I may take a sick day tomorrow and just get out of school. I think it’s what I need.
im sorry to have cut myself again. Â don’t know what possesed me to do so… But IÂ think we all feel that way sometimes
anyways I am sorry I will NOT do it agaon
hi everyone, for the past month ive been in hospital. you may of read the other posts but if you didnt then ill explain, when i tried to commit suicide my mum found me and i was only just concious, i told her to write on here and say sorry to all of you wonderful people. the things i did to try make this work was, poison, overdose and cutting my wrists and it would of worked if mym mother didnt come in my room. i left her and my family a letter explaining further details of this website and told her it was important. […]
my bf was going to commit suicide. we’ve always talked about it, but this time he sounded serious. he made me promise not to tell. he said he was going to write him suicide note and leave as soon as he was alone, most likely the next day. he said goodbye, and thank you for being an amazing gf, and sorry about a hundred times. But i was scared so i told my friend who knows all this and happens to be his ex. ive convinced her before not to tell anyone, but this time she said fuck it im telling, and told her mom. […]
its been a while since ive been online. not a lot has happened. but im getting worst. me and my bf broke up, and there is this girl i just wanna kill. me and my best friend are fighting and ive got no sleep in about a week. im going crazy. i run away a lot during the day and sometimes at night. i think about death more and more. i just wanna die. before they were just thoughts but now it is serious. self harm- if i cut my wrist and hope to hit a vein, it will take hours of painful death until […]
Im sorry that I’m misbehaving.
I need you to come here and safe me.
This one time I saw a little girl eating ice cream and playing with her little brother. Her hair was puffy and cute. Full of volume. she had glasses and she looked happy. She was smiling. She looked about 7-8 years of age. When i saw her my heart filled with joy of how cute she looked. i wanted to hug her because she looked really cute, but all I did was yell “oh my god look at that childâ€™s hair!” and i pointed at her. Like a *****. LIKE AN IDIOT. I went home and didnâ€™t say a word to anyone. I locked myself […]