Tag:

Insanity

Broken Dreams

by buried and dug up 1/5/2013

written by buried and dug up

Somewhere life has nothing left for me,
Some how everything’s taken over,
There’s nothing left for me to be,
Nothing to keep me under…

Old and slow decayed is,
All this man has obeyed,
So tired and displaced,
Ill still run on and on misplaced…

All my dreams, never come true…
Is it so hard to ask for a father’s love,
When a cold stone is all I feel?
Hard rock against my chest,
Cold stones, all depressed,
All I ever see,
Are a load of broken dreams

Maybe Jesus Christ will come over,
Right when Hell freezes over me,
Maybe you can cry your way,
When your […]

1/5/2013 3 comments

a little thought

by RobynsRose 12/12/2012

written by RobynsRose

I have thought about this for so long now. Why should I complain about wanting to die? I have a pretty good home life, an amazing boyfriend, supportive friends, even a good life going for me.
But there’s this tiny side of me that scares me.
I have my parents bitting at each others throats, jerks who wantto talk trash about my boyfriend, friends who abuse my feelings, and all these bad traits I see in myself.
Who said life is perfect? Why do I have the right to want to die?
I do though.
I really Do.
I have lied to so many […]

12/12/2012 2 comments

Frustration

by friedoysterskins 11/30/2012

written by friedoysterskins

Hey everyone! I just wanted to share something….

Lately, I’ve been wishing for my death whenever I’m irritated. I’m sort of easily annoyed. Little things get under my skin. Like, whenever someone comes into my room and leaves my room without shutting the door. That really pisses me off. Whenever I try to get my uncle’s attention and he takes forever to respond (He deliberately does that) because he’s focused on his iPhone irks me, too. I dislike going through the trouble of doing something for someone else because they choose not to do it themselves (Referring to family. I am the youngest, so I’m ‘bossed’ […]

11/30/2012 0 comment

The darkness is creeping in…

by Alayna 11/4/2012

written by Alayna

Everyday I fight off the demons. Everyday I act like I’m okay. Everyday I creep a bit closer to insanity….

I can’t stop thinking about death. The thought of it scares me less and less as the days go by and that in itself terrifies me. I contemplate the slipping away into darkness, and I smile at the thought of never having to cry or feel again…

I have the means, but not the courage and that makes me want it even more. It’s like a forbidden fruit…

11/4/2012 3 comments

Ending my life is a viable option

by timofthepast 11/4/2012

written by timofthepast

I’m thirty years old, and I’ve done nothing with my life. I have no job. I have no friends, and I’m failing in school again. I can’t take these cycles any longer. I do well for a couple years. I make friends, hold a job, and do well in school. Then the depression comes back. I push my friends away, lose my job, and fail in school. I’ve gotten help in the past, but that only left me tens of thousands of dollars in debt. I need ECT again, but I don’t have insurance or any […]

11/4/2012 1 comment

Deep-set Insatiable Need

by humansdestroyhumanity 10/15/2012

written by humansdestroyhumanity

Rapidly spiraling
down,
down,
always downward.
Never up.
Envisioning in my mind
of blood running down my arm
my face
my stomach
my legs & ankles.
Feelings of nothingness.
Wanting to cry, throw up,
and turn away with guilt and regret.
Suicidal Tendencies come forth,
beckoning and pushing me away
from the temporary refuge
I had inexplicably found in dreams.
Regrets pile up around me
little post-it notes on the walls
covered in despair and insanity.
Incomprehensible thoughts running through my head
screaming in agony I bleed
scarlet rivulets create a river of inconsistencies.

10/15/2012 3 comments

Insanity

by Nolentwohundred 10/12/2012

written by Nolentwohundred

Insanity: An allergic reaction to society.

Most of us wish for our eyes to swell shut, so that we would see no more.

We wish for our throats to close as we gasp our last breath.

Unfortunately, we just keep couching the shit back up, only to succumb to more.

10/12/2012 9 comments

Insanity Bound â™¥

by Elly 9/29/2012

written by Elly

Wrapped in a catacomb, bound by my fears
Insanity knocks, as doomsday is near
I open the door, and let it walk in
To take me to ruins, to show me the end

Lucid at times, and fearing what’s next
But insanity reassures me, I’ll enjoy the big wreck
I’ll glow in the torment, that takes over my mind
And relish in darkness, that is so easy to find

I will walk in the pestialance, that grows oh so near
But will not feel the sickness, as I face my own fear
I glance at the shell, that once held my life
And I know now at […]

9/29/2012 1 comment

I thought it was over.

by everwondered 9/24/2012

written by everwondered

Have you ever had a moment where you’re just thinking, not about anything in particular.. and those innocent thoughts take a nasty turn? Next thing you know you’re talking yourself out of hurting yourself. Moments of insanity I like to call them. When something in your head shifts ever so slightly and everything you’ve stuffed and hidden inside for twenty years tries to get out? It over loads the brain and you just want to make it stop. You’d do anything for the memories and the pain to leave.

I’ve never been able to fully tell anyone the whole story. Why not a bunch of random […]

9/24/2012 2 comments

The mind of…

by RogueShadow1281 9/16/2012

written by RogueShadow1281

I feel sick to my stomach. Maybe it was lack of nutrition, most likely not the alcohol. I don’t know. I will try to avoid text slang as I am accommodated to it. My life has desensitized me, I guess. I just picked that word up from a previous post. I believe I might be insane but how can I be sure. I have begun wearing a “happy” mask at my new school as its the last year of high school, so why not keep everyone out of the loop of my insanity and depression.

Yesterday, my happy place was destroyed (the imaginary place in my […]

9/16/2012 2 comments

Failed Last night, will try again tonight.

by Malistroph 8/29/2012

written by Malistroph

Hello. I am 21 years old and an old friend to depression. I believe I have always been depressed. In middle school and high school, I had no close friends. I have gone one date in myÂ entire life. I am not academically gifted given the fact that I have no willpower.Â Three quarters ago, I hadÂ aÂ 4.0 in college andÂ now I have a 3.06. I feel inferior to my sister who has always been better at meÂ at everything. My brother doesn’t give aÂ shit about me at all andÂ has attacked me on some of my issues. I have been to aÂ counselour and a psychologist. Every time I talked […]

8/29/2012 7 comments

cant wait

by passionfruit3 8/3/2012

written by passionfruit3

i have been doing good in the last three weeks.Now i really dont know what to do.My voices have suddenly come back with a vengance.They were really quiet and i was fine.Hearing them a little is normal.But lately there pretty loud and constant.I wont call anyone theyll just bring the cops.I dont hate cops unless i have too deal with them so i try to stay away.My insanity is increasing day by day. I will possibly end up in the hospital for an attempt.I dont know what else to do two of my therapist are sick one i dont see my main therapist till monday.And […]

8/3/2012 1 comment

I Hate This World, I Love This World!?

by UltimateReaper 8/3/2012

written by UltimateReaper

Life is just luck of the draw
I wish I was luckier. Life has been going down hill for such a long time, and honestly I’m not sure I can endure.
I’m growing so tired, even my health is declining. I feel so sick, and I’m only 18
Life doesn’t seem to hopeful, and its not just because I’m young,
everything in this world is controlled by might, by power, and I, have no power
Sure, everything is in the mind, illusion and manipulation, but honestly I’m so tired
This world is full of the mindless, the uncaring and ignorant
So many horrible things are […]

8/3/2012 3 comments

How do I keep from going insane?

by RogueShadow1281 7/9/2012

written by RogueShadow1281

The line between sane and insane (reality and imagination) is skewed heavily and it’s getting hard to decipher and find out if it’s which. How do I slow down the process of insanity? I still have my head, but not for forever.

How do I fix this? Memory games? Extra reading? Keeping my mind off of any critical thinking? I got the last one covered, this whole weekend I avoided thinking and further depressing myself. At least I ain’t going back to asphyxiating myself.

This is odd. Is it really insanity? Or is it just another disorder. Or maybe I’m actually getting schizo, after creating another persona […]

7/9/2012 3 comments

Screams

by lostchild445 6/11/2012

written by lostchild445

Screams

Screams no one can hear
In the darkness there is silence and fear
The shouts uttered by a madman
Heard throughout the ward

He is the forgotten one
The one whose lost all hope
There’s nothing anyone can do
To help him cope with his pain

He talks to himself
His brain and body taking sides
Of his split personality:
One to live. One to die.Â

The voices in his head
Tell him he should be dead
And half his will wishes to oblige
Yet the memories of his friends
Keep him moving to mend his life
And live another day.Â

He’s got nothing left
Nothing left to hide

6/11/2012 0 comment

photos and thoughts

by crimson regret 5/26/2012

written by crimson regret

Earlier i was sat looking at some old photos and i got quite emotional, thoughts started racing through my head so ill write them..

Its funny, people always try to work people out, but how can you work someone out when they dont know themselves, they are lost, alone somewhere.
You take photos to remeber happy times, but it makes me sad you can never get those old happy times back they are gone forever and like the photo just a distant memory.
The people in the photos have gone, i wont see them again until i too are slso ‘gone’

I am sat here alone,counting the […]

5/26/2012 8 comments

They Say Hurt People Hurt People

by syrinj 5/17/2012

written by syrinj

It’s true: hurt people hurt people. I’ve never walked around rejecting others while genuinely in a happy state. On the other hand, when I hurt, I hurt those around me; not always intentionally or maliciously. It’s more of a”too stuck in my head to deal with anyone else” kind of hurting. Sometimes, it manifests itself in the form of quickly rejecting the presence of those around me so I can not-soon-enough resume my isolation. The chiming in of anyone else is dismissed as nothing short of a threatening disturbance.

I normally stave off the constant “get me out of here” feeling through substances or the validating […]

5/17/2012 1 comment

So very tired of exsitence

by thoth2012 5/16/2012

written by thoth2012

Hi all, It is very sad that we are forced, I am forced to live in a world that kills all life so freely and they justify it in their minds as either a good thing or a needed evil. Our world Governments kill without pause. But If I want to Leave what I view as a painful and unjust life I am considered of ill mental health. I have been diagnosed with major depression for many years. I have been on many drugs, did therapy from 1991 to 1997, I am 55 yo. Gay and blah, blah , blah. I am looking for a […]

5/16/2012 0 comment

I am just a Metaphorical Hypocrite

by [SyKo]Nuclearanthrax 4/30/2012

written by [SyKo]Nuclearanthrax

Everything about me, all that is, is just a big metaphor =]Â

Because I am a Loony, So damn Loony! I got engulfed in the dark flames that got created within my life. And I love it!

I will never die, I WILL NEVER DIE! I post on here often about me dying, it is a metaphor! I die, very often, almost everyday, everytime I see that damn face, and that damn picture on the wall, I DIE. But I will never die!

I hate HATE, so that makes me a hypocrite, I hate LOVE but love LOVE. I Hate Anger but Love it! I am just all […]

4/30/2012 0 comment

forever alone in my insanity…

by NotReallyHereAtAll 4/7/2012

written by NotReallyHereAtAll

I’m screwed up and I’m broken and I don’t know how or why I came to be like this. Nothing horrible has ever happened to me and from the outside, I have a perfect life.

But somehow, I am not normal. I am steadily going completely insane and nobody has noticed, because I keep it from them. I hide my craziness because I shouldn’t have it. I don’t deserve it.

It doesn’t make logical sense for me to feel this way, but still I know that I’m screwed up. Completely and utterly fucked up and insane.

I’m too many contradictions. I don’t make sense. I can’t even explain […]

4/7/2012 9 comments

Newer Posts

Older Posts