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Instinct

Questions, questions, questions…

by WillowH. 8/24/2013

written by WillowH.

Yesterday on my way to work i passed a man. He was looking up and chanting, probably praying, Â his hand was reached out. I pulled out my wallet and took some money out, returned and gave it to the man, when i looked in to his eyes, i understood that he is blind. My heart broke. I admire him, he keeps on living…. then i started to wonder why? How do all these people take it? Why wont they end it?

The human lives when he is loved, the human lives when he desires… but when that is lost. All that is left is the instinct […]

8/24/2013 5 comments

A Cutting Story

by medownyou 5/9/2013

written by medownyou

May 8, 2013

Today is the day that the (I guess you can call it “my”) story is written.

Now i’m 19 years old. My body a nest for scars and memories that should have been long forgotten. Not all scars have stayed with me, and i hope that one day i’ll be free from them all. The sad reality of it is that some of those scars will never leave my skin, and always be a reminder of what i have done. It’s been mere days shy of 6 months without cutting myself for the relief that i have so desperately wanted during this time. The […]

5/9/2013 3 comments

it beats feeling

by passionfruit3 4/17/2013

written by passionfruit3

I stopped taking my meds.By the end of the month i will have enough.I just hope i get the courage to go all the way.In the past ive been scared and gotten help.dont know why i keep doing that?although im pretty sure theyd let me bleed to death at the hospital.Ive been there to many times for them to care.I remember taking my psych meds and i almost suffocated.Funny how just when your dying instinct kicks in and you fight to live.Damn i wish i could stop doing this already.But the crazy side of me just wants to keep trying.Who knows if ill die this […]

4/17/2013 0 comment

I used to Be

by underneathope 3/21/2013

written by underneathope

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WFjKJc-Sn-w

Beautiful and vibrant as can be,
Thatâ€™s how they remember me,
So far from what I used to be,
I hid from the world; you see,

Skin so smooth and fair,
Now scarred and dry,
I still have my beautiful hair,
But I changed so much it makes me cry.

I cry myself to sleep when no oneâ€™s there,
Trying to accept the damaged look,
So much lost; I canâ€™t even start where,
Dusty covers, lost pages, judge the book!

Of all clichÃ©s this one I will never forget,
Passing through life betwixt and between,
In the end all youâ€™re left with is regret,
Was I made […]

3/21/2013 4 comments

there are four minutes fifteen seconds

by renxing 11/29/2012

written by renxing

The Jiangchuan offensive, the same as changing people cool heart pleasing to the eye. In my core, Jiangchuan team favorably Nanyang nothing sharp again and again ripped Nanyang line of defense, nike nfl jerseys,the basketball into the basket.

The tenth minute of the time, the score 21:18. The Jiangchuan team leading to one-third, the situation appears to be evenly divided.

“Flute!” Whistle sounded, Nanyang team called the first half of the first suspension.

Chen Qifeng particularly satisfied with the current score happy grinning: “Hey, see it, is now leading us yeah!” Unknowingly Chen Qifeng himself as a Jiangchuan a.

Geng Tianfang look calm water, lightly: “The first half […]

11/29/2012 1 comment

I can’t last another week..(Please Help Me)

by fakeasmile 9/16/2012

written by fakeasmile

I’m a fifteen year old girl in the 10th grade and I have never felt so miserable in my entire life. I’m tired of being that optimistic girl that fakes a smile for the sake of everyone else. Most of my friends know about my depression but they think I’m okay at the moment. Last night I was almost positive I wanted to die, but instead of acting on the instinct to kill myself, I just lied in bed shaking and crying. I could never tell my mom that I feel like I want to die sometimes because it would either break her heart or […]

9/16/2012 7 comments

i, a chewy side Letter -without sugar

by ColdCage 7/26/2012

written by ColdCage

Random Reminiscing , cos’ I let mom read the instructions..

(just like the bubble gum components being molded by our mouth, exchanging places to nowhere )

My clothes, school books, mags, and other toys for big men were designated to be inherited by my close relatives. I really thought she would be happy when she realizes my breathing identity is about to disappear from this lively planet, instead she scolded me, saying I had to help my brothers raise their family. So I wondered again, Am I really just the one selfish? or does it just runs in the family? Nah, we were programmed both from our […]

7/26/2012 0 comment

Quick rant and weird dream.

by RogueShadow1281 7/24/2012

written by RogueShadow1281

1:30 A.M.

Ghosts of my dreams of voices hit me randomly. I can’t explain what I hear, but it sounds like a voice, but like a broken record player rapidly replays what it said, anxiety fills me and then the continuous ringing fills my ears again.

I wonder when I’ll dream of it again.Â

7:10A.M.

Dreamt i was part of a program to test things for money. We started out on a metal bed where I laid down and it began descending. Quicker and quicker until I was free failing. While there i was freaking out until i realized it would lead to my death so […]

7/24/2012 3 comments

press start.

by cagliostro 6/4/2012

written by cagliostro

‘Oh, you’ve got your whole life ahead of you.’

‘In the grander scheme of things, you are really insignificant.’

‘You’re too young.’

‘How can you expect anyone to care for you, to love you, if you don’t love yourself?’

‘We’ve spent this much money on you, the least you can do is pay us back.’

Yeah. Okay. I comprehend that. I don’t stop thinking aboutÂ them for a moment.

But I’m 19 years old and I am tired. I am tired of clawing my way through classes, I am tired of not being able to look anyone in the eye because I’m afraid of them, I am tired of not wanting to […]

6/4/2012 2 comments

some people care

by tphg 5/1/2012

written by tphg

it’s my birthday this friday, 26 I think. I’m 99% sure 26 but I don’t want to shatter the veil of ignorance I’m under by calculating it or trying to remember how old I’ll be. I remember rhyming about being 25 some time ago but that could have been 2 years ago.

Anyway, I’m moving today or tomorrow. My odyssey in my mothers jungle of an apartment is over, hopefully. I thought it was over once before but their were rats in the ceiling of the new place. I’ve gotta be sure to do another check at this current place I want, but it seems […]

5/1/2012 0 comment

If there is a god, he’s laughing his ass off

by antilex 2/10/2012

written by antilex

Hello everyone. I’m female, 17 y.o. – actually i’m turning 18 in 2 days. This is my first post. I’ve read the posts in this site before, but it wasn’t until now i decided to write something. It’s not the first time i’ve been thinking about suicide, as you can tell. Since the age of 11 i’ve been depressed most of the time, and i think i’ve forgotten what “joy” even means. I’ve never gone too far in my attempts, i’ve stood on the edge countless times, i’ve tied so many nooses and climbed high building, and i’ve actually prayed, i’ve prayed day and night […]

2/10/2012 3 comments