I’m glad to have found this site. I stumbled upon this place when I was googling a correlation between intelligence and suicide. Ever since I was a child I loved filling my head with all sorts of information, even when I wasn’t actively interested in something I had a little voice in my head that said: “Hey, that sounds useful! Remember it for later!” As the years went on I began to notice my self becoming more socially withdrawn and out of touch with people close to me. It took a while but eventually I reasoned that I was getting progressivley more depressed and apathetic […]
I seem to have a problem. Well, multiple problems, but the key outcome is that I keep screwing up. All my life people have told me how great and intelligent I am. So gifted and kind and well-rounded. Blah blah blah.
Do you detect a hint of disdain in that? The reason for that is, I don’t think I ever learnt accountability or the actual meaning of hard work. All through school, I could study the night before and still rock an A, or a high B at the very least. Hard work to me was just listening in class and occasionally doing my homework. But […]
Why bother in the world of inequality, where billionaires have everything and the masses are destitute. Why work, why slave over, why even participate in the game of social mores and maniacal head hunts. Maniacal CV and Resume sending. This is not the way life is supposed to be. Spend all your money on pleasure, and then let someone else play it. Fuck all the GDP statistics and the deranged global money-changers.
I have no reason for it. No reason for the pain, guilt, or regret. No reason to complain or whine or say anything bad about my life.
My family are some of the nicest, kindest people on this planet. My friends are always there for me no matter what. I love them all so much and would do anything for them.Â I came from a wealthy home. While I was not given everything, I was given what I needed(and a little extra) and that is not something everyone can say. I’ve had a good education. I wouldn’t say I’m a genius but if I.Q. tests tell you […]
How aware are you of your own intelligence, creativity, potentials, etc?
Do you think that you try too hard to be clever, or smart?
Do you take yourself “seriously”, maybe too seriously? Or not at all?
Does it not dawn on you at all? Do you not care?
How aware are you of your own stubbornness and it’s hold on you, or lack there of?
And if none of this relates with you.. Are you aware of anything? Just name anything you are conscious about.
Me: I’ve been aware of my own potentials and intelligence, to the point where I tried way too hard to develop […]
My name is praful raj.
I am suffering from torture of this world.
I came on this earth on 24th april 1995Â at 8:10 PM (GMT 5.50).I was born in an Indian state i.e Andhra Pradesh in Telangana region inÂ a city named HYDERABAD.
I want to commit suicide because my mother,father and brother hates me.
BUT i still love them.I am a hard worker.I study very hard to get *** marks.But my family wont support me and they always discourage me.They say me that i dont have any caliber or intelligence.They always join me in an institution in which rote learning is preferred.And i hate rote learning.They dint […]
This aint no religeous site or forum. But y’all should please be reminded that God does exists and he still oversea the state of things in this planet. The world is too small to absolve him. Your present situation on earth would stand irelevant compared to what lies in the great beyond. You shouldnt give up on God. Cus he is and would always be. Could anyone please tell me something. If it is possible for humans to exist with a special intelligence that supercedes that of all other creations why do we find it hard to believe that a more supreme and supernatural being […]
Why does this shit always happen to me. I try to be happy everyday but i guess im just really good at making a facade to every day of my pathetic little life. Who am i? my apparent friends always back stab me in the end i only have one friend who is my brother (not real brother) ive known him since we were 4 and i trust him with my life but others i meet sure ill be nice to them and shit like that but i try not to trust them or else id be breaking rule 1. Trust no one Suspect everyone […]
(Sorry for my english I’m chilean)
I offer a no-soul body, a broken heart and a intelligence like a baby monkey… If someone want it just call me
I feel like i’m in the same hole since september and it comes worst day by day..
I want to die.
It has taken me a long time to come to that conclusion.
Why do I want to die? In a nutshell: because I’m in intense emotional and mental pain.
The longer version?……… Life is too much of a struggle. Most things I go after results in total failure and misery. I find it very difficult to relate to people on a deeper emotional level. Conversing with people is an enormous challenge. I wish I didn’t stutter.
It tortures me that I can’t even say my name without stuttering. The look I receive from people when I stutter is extremely painful, so I mostly choose not […]
When I was young, I was ‘diagnosed’ as being gifted. High intelligence, learns fast. They forgot to mention the side effects. I analyse everything and everyone. I can’t stand being around people. They never say anything interesting. Meaningless discussions about the boring crap they do all day long and are planning to do. I can make almost anyone like me with the masks of sanity I put on every day. Cheerful to some, great listener to others and a serious guy to more others, everyone likes me. I have a good job and decent enough looks, by all accounts a great guy.
But noone sees […]
When you stop chasing the wrong things, you give the right things a chance to catch you.
So starting todayâ€¦
Give up trying to be perfect.Â â€“ The real world doesnâ€™t reward perfectionists, it rewards people who get things done.Â Â ReadÂ Getting Things Done.
Give up comparing yourself to others.Â â€“ The only person you are competing against is yourself.
Give up dwelling on the past or worrying too much about the future.Â â€“ Right now is the only moment guaranteed to you.Â Right now is life.Â Donâ€™t miss it.
Give up complaining.Â â€“ Do something about it.
Give up holding grudges.Â â€“ Grudges are a waste of perfect happiness.
Give up […]
Well… I know I should have life made for me. I’m part of a middle class, happy family. I come from a tradition of academia. Intelligence is highly valued. I go to a fantastic school, and everyone thinks I’m going places. Before this year though, I was bullied since I was young, around 7. I have never had a high opinion of myself, and about two years ago I started feeling more andore miserable. I withdrew from everyone. I now believe I was depressed.
I am a weak person, and I have done a terrible thing. I again feel like taking my own life. What is […]
People are part of life, family, friends, even unknown people whom we have to talk with if we want to walkÂ through life. Do we really have true friends? have you ever make this question to yourself? Human nature is to be selfish. Friends will let you down, that is a fact. People will always come and go. Â That is a fact that we have toÂ accept if we want to feel at least comfortable in life. because I don’t like to use the term “happy”. Happiness is actually anÂ illusion, an illusion that suddenly will become a need. Parents , boyfriend, girlfriend, our friends. Everybody have said […]
Words have the meaning you put to them
Well I choose to make room for them
In my head heart and soul
I believe them to be true
But as my head well knows
Most people never show
The meanig behind their cruel words
For jokes, for laughs, for a moment of fun
They’ll go out of their way in their very busy day to make fun
Of my looks, of my beliefs, of my intelligence
Now, I know a few people who say that these lies are purely that
Lies that are told from someones fat ass
But I take them to heart
And that’s when I […]
I am a pedophile. There, it’s out in the open for the first time ever. I have sexual feelings towards boys, and it is breaking me down. It started in my childhood, when I experimented with a friend who was the same age, and now I’m stuck with it. I’m in my twenties now, and although I have never abused a child, I do have fantasies and I have visited illegal websites countless times. I don’t feel anything for women, and I’ve never had a girlfriend.
On top of this, I’ve recently been put aside by people whom I considered to be my best friends. They […]
I wrote that on my arm last time I was on a psych ward, and then was about to take my life when the girl with learning disabilities across the hall from me came and knocked on my door wanting me to do her nails. She had been through so much and we were friends, she really didn’t deserve to have to watch me be brought out in a body bag which would have happened right outside her room. So I held on for a while and now I feel the same hopelessness again, the same desperation I just wish there was a way to […]
Why bother attempting something when all it will lead to isÂ embarrassmentÂ and worsening of the situation? When somethings fucked, you can never fix it back to 100%, so why do you try? It will never be as good as you could possibly make it.
The social problems started in middle school. Being a quiet nerd has downfalls. What’s worse was trying to break out and improve myself, only to lose the one thing I had going, which was intelligence. Giving up good marks to have a couple friends and still be bullied.
The bullying ended in 9th grade. I suppose everyone was just tooÂ weirdedÂ out by me to even […]