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Intensity

A Dull Light in the Immense Dark

by medownyou 1/1/2014

written by medownyou

Beyond the abyssal vile pits of filth there is a only a small flame

Producing a light source in the blackness of obsidian cold and barren

It cast shadows so the darkness is never truly gone

We can see the light for miles wanting desperately to be where bright light and radiance shines

The shadows that are from the light harness the full power of the pitch black night

There is no where to go to avoid it the shadows engulf your very essence

They are most noticeable in the night, yet they hide in corners and under objects never leaving

Day in hiding, night they have come out to play, but […]

1/1/2014 0 comment

why?

by all for nothing 5/7/2013

written by all for nothing

Hey everyone.

I am so unbelievably unhappy that words cannot describe the myriad of emotions (or perhaps lack thereof) which plague me with an intensity that is almost incomprehensible. However, I currently have the urge to try to do so for reasons that I do not know. Â I am not begging for attention, sympathy, or pity. I am merely using this post as an outlet for my own thoughts and emotions which I cannot express by any other means than by writing them down. Then again, perhaps I am subconsciously attempting to incite empathy, to offer others a glance at my own perspective with the intention […]

5/7/2013 13 comments

Not long

by SoSoTired 4/19/2013

written by SoSoTired

It’s now only a matter of time, I’ve been contemplating the end for many years and at my 27th will be the time to go, it’s never been clearer. Working out sufficient ways is a daily schedule, every bridge I cross is considered, every pill I swallow is worked out to which quantity will be lethal, what side effects may beÂ incurredÂ along the way. I am at least content in the knowledge that I want to sleep my way out.

I don’t need to write the way I feel, thousands of times makes no difference, and I don’t need to go over them any longer. I simply […]

4/19/2013 6 comments

a crazy X.

by jeseria 2/23/2013

written by jeseria

I’m not sure I have a grasp on reality.Â The only things Â I know are my feelings and its hard to see events objectively.

I know that I was in love, I mean real unconditional love…for 10 years. The sound of his voice soothed my soul and being around him made me happy. i know how i felt about him terrified me. Â Â And I know he went away. I know I was on medication for years afterward because I dreamed about him every night and somewhere deep downÂ inside meÂ my soul groaned endlessly – like a demon in hell. The suffering was unbearable and no comfort came. I […]

2/23/2013 4 comments

If I were going to…

by DawgMom 2/18/2013

written by DawgMom

Â this is pretty much what I would say…

Dear Someone:

First of all, I don’t think I can explain why I’ve done this so if you’re hoping to get that from this letter, just know I will probably disappoint you. Second, also know that I have always detested suicide letters. I think it’s a load because I know nothing I say is going to matter. The only reason I can think of for doing this is so that people canâ€™t ***** that â€œShe didnâ€™t even leave a noteâ€ – blah. As if it will make a difference. People will draw their own conclusions and forensic psychologists and […]

2/18/2013 1 comment

You don’t need anyone.

by sand_dude 1/21/2013

written by sand_dude

I really do feel like you all are my true family. You all know what it’s like to hurt with such intensity you’ve considered ending it all. I acknowledge that within each of you, and I love you for it. I’m gonna quote Ellen DeGeneres in saying people will change, and things will get easier, and you should be alive to see it.

1/21/2013 2 comments

What’s the big deal

by jjgirl13 10/31/2012

written by jjgirl13

I was just thinking. Why do people guilt trip over cutting themselves?
Who the fuck cares what other people think? (Well, maybe that’s more of my perspective.) It’s non-lethal, it hurts less than getting a tattoo, you just don’t get a pretty picture at the end. I mean, for pain itself, there would be constructive and productive things to do like yoga, or running till your legs give out, that hurt a lot more than some scrapes. The intensity of pain you feel from pushing your bodily limits are usually a lot worse than the actual act of cutting. If you consistently need stitches and […]

10/31/2012 9 comments

How do you prepare for failure?

by fallen2far 7/16/2012

written by fallen2far

Dedication, intensity, effort, practice, determination… all those words in Gatorade commercials: sometimes you just, fail.

You get back up again, and fail again.Â Every failure hurts.Â You see people trying until they succeed, but you never see someone trying and failing all the time.Â If you try a a hundred times, they tell you you’ll succeed the 101st time.Â If you try a thousand times, you’ll succeed 1001.Â At what time can you quit and you’re not a quitter?Â You tried, you failed….. you’re a failure.Â You stop trying, you’re a quitter.Â You tell yourselfÂ you don’t care.Â It might even be true after a while.Â Passion […]

7/16/2012 2 comments

Two more days, Then I fade.

by [SyKo]Nuclearanthrax 4/26/2012

written by [SyKo]Nuclearanthrax

Oh my it’s almost here. I can’t stand the intensity of this fear..It’s almost here, the end is so very near. I am scared, I am worried. I should have of never hurried. I just rushed my own death, right when life was at its best. Gosh,Â I messed up so bad..Now the world around me is ever so sad.. They know its the end, i had to tell them.. They are my family, my life..They have been here throughout all this pain and strife..They saved me many times, but they can’t save me now…Out of the billions of words they could have said when I […]

4/26/2012 1 comment

He Didnt Know

by wristcutter 5/17/2009

written by wristcutter

he started at 13

it got worse every year

i guess it was an escape from harsh reality

she loved him with all her heart

she wasnt aware of his problem

she really cared

he didnt know how much

he was 17

she got a phone call

he was going to jail

she finally saw

the intensity of his problem

they didnt see each other for 6 months

she started to care a little less

they wrote

and called

but she was slipping away

slowly going downhill

he didnt know

that he was the source of her problems

he came home

she was happy

he had changed

she was glad

he lied

she found out when they took him away

he didnt know how much it hurt her

to see him taken […]

5/17/2009 2 comments