I’m still debating. If I want to go through with it or not. I’ve been thinking about it all morning, all night, these past few days and the different ways to go about it. What are the easiest ways, the painful, the painless, the long, etc. Actually if I go through with it, I don’t mind if I survive. I’m the kind of person who while (at least until now) I haven’t tried to commit suicide deliberately, I don’t care if it happens when trying to injure myself (aka I’m trying to hurt myself really badly not die, but if I die in the process […]
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is this goodbye
Tonight I can’t help it.
I’ve been trying to avoid all these thoughts that keep running through my head. But I can’t stop them. They keep intruding.
I’m scared of myself. I’m afraid if I’m left alone I’ll let these thoughts take over. That I won’t be able to hold back anymore. That I’ll finally go through with ending my life. I can’t take it anymore.
I don’t want to be left alone by myself. I’ll be lost if I am. Save me. Someone please just save me from myself. Otherwise I’ll truly disappear.