I’m sitting here at 4 in the morning because I’m in too much emotional pain to sleep. I can’t stand being myself. I care too much for my best friend. I don’t understand it. I think I love her as more than a friend, even though we are the same gender. I have to force myself to support her when she tells me that she wants to be with a guy. I have to sit and pretend she isn’t sleeping with someone else. I have to pretend I don’t love her because it would ruin our friendship. But I love this person so much. I care […]
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I’ve been fucking on and off depressed for fucking 3 fucking years maybe now. Fuck I know im fucking swearing a fucking lot. The fucking bull fucking shit thing is I hadn’t sworn for fucking 8 months until now im fucking exploding. I fucking hit my boiling fucking point. Fuck life. Only fucking thing I care about is my Dog. Fuck people. Fuck everyone. Fuck peoples fucking fucking shitty fucking bullfucking shit fuck opinions. Why can fucking fuckers just shut the fuck up and keep there fucking mouth shut. Fucking FUCK.
I’m going to try to refrain my swearing from now on although it’s still completely […]
Insecurity is a part of our lives. It’s what strikes the fear of rejection into us. Insecurity is something that drives us to perfect ourselves, so we can “fit in.” We’re scared of rejection and just want to be able to fit in. But… So many people, so many guys and girls alike are judged on their appearance, and personality. It hurts to get judged Rejection hurts, being an outcast because you’re not as pretty as someone you know.. It hurts. There is one thing you have to always remember though, you are perfect just the way you are, with every flaw you have. Anyone […]
im from a little country in the caribbean. my whole life ive lived with terrible social anxiety. i shut down when i try to be around anyone. its prevented me from growing up and becoming anything. im 24 now.
when i was younger i got the chance to live in england w my aunt. she saw i had no life here with deadbeat family. i had dropped out of school and slept through the day.
years were difficult in england. my problems eventually got me sent back home.
i live now w my parents and every day is the same. i never go out and i dont have […]
I just come across this site and thought I want to contribute.
i have recently got back from hospital after my third attempt to overdose. As a child my parents were violent and drug abusesers, I was in care for a while made homeless twice by my mother. Beaten, emotionally abused. I lived with an auntie for a big chunk of time who also abandoned me at 13. My dad left the house when I was 16 leaving me to look after my 14 year old brother. My mum come out of prison and set the house on fire. As I have grown up I have […]
Everyone lied to me…A girl lied that she is different … A man lied that my condition will get better…A adult lied that she wanted me…A friend lied that she needs me…Stop it…Shut the fuck up! You people thinks that I don’t know? I am smarter than you thought I am… Your lies are too obvious for me now…I can’t believe that I used to trust you…I can’t believe that I was such a fool…But I don’t have to care anymore ….I used to be a kind person…But my 2nd personality is gaining control ….That dangerous 2nd personality ….He’s gonna kill you all…Or I will […]
I honestly don’t know anything anymore, I’m not sure why I am here, what my purpose is, or why I do any of the things I do, but I do them. My suicidal tendencies continue to stay in my mind, and in the last 24 hours they have grown considerably. Now that I think about it, the last time I left the house to do anything social was months ago, sometime around February. That part I don’t fully understand more than most things. I consider myself, and I’ve been told by other they consider me, to be a kind person, quite fun and a good […]