I’m 15, depressed, suicidal, and I don’t care about who will cry if I am dead. I have a few of the best friends in the world, but they just don’t get it. Comforting me won’t work, I don’t want you to tell me I’m perfect, or anything close to it. I don’t even want you to tell me I’m alright. Because I know you’re lying, I’m not anything. I’m just a stupid f*ck who can’t do anything right. My parents hate me, I hate me. I’m scared of my extended family, I’m scared of everyone, even my own friends.I don’t believe anyone, they’re all […]
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That is not tough love or correction its pure hatred. U like fut jmIcan guy, your dad ends w f, im going to hell. They cup prt of my hip off…u know I died in the wtc. I’m a pig. True love always wins. Who in their right mind ever loved or wanted you or even considered u a beautiful.girl. God wants winners not bum dirt fornicating lowers or liars. What a cruel tool I am. Future jmaicn guy I love.
What does it take to find somebody in this world who actually cares about your situation and who actually works for your benefit? All I keep meeting is people who turn towards their darkside for any little petty stupid thing and people who have nothing but LIES. Here I am, Amphetimine addict who has just had a dealer I’ve known for over a decade stop serving me and blanking me completely just because HIS stuff  made me paranoid and I guess it tripped him out a bit, after all we havent all got brain conditions due to drugs.
I cant find anybody else who sells it and EVERYBODYÂ I know […]
lies bs and sadness i dont like this SMILE I SAY SMILE AND PEOPLE GO AND HATE ME
Your is a FUCKING liar!!!! Please, don’t tell me you love me and kiss her behind my back!!! Fuck it all!! Im done with you her everyone!! Liars, liars, liars, all around us. WHY was i born in to a lie!!!! Im a lie, your a lie, she a lie, were all damn lies!!!!!
I am scared of myself.
In the day.
I am pretty, I am smiles, I am the girl who aids.
At night?
My skin starts itching.
Then aching.
Burning.
I don’t want to die just yet.
I break perfume bottles.
Eyeliner caps.
Anything to get the words from my head on my skin.
Nothing stops it anymore.
I stood on the roof.
Three floors up, that white concrete calling me.
I shouldn’t want to jump.
What’s wrong with me.
Why do I hate myself.
Monster.
I can’t save myself from my mind.
I am falling again.
I cut my palms then left words on my […]
I hate you, you fucked up and lost it all. Get out of my head. Stop reminding me daily….your mom doesn’t want you back. You’ve lost your family. Your fucked. You can’t fix it. Help me. I want to but I don’t. Anybody. Talk to me. . I fucking hate you you stupid *****, look what you did. I’m sorry. I never thought it would turn out like this. It did. Now look at you, sitting here while it eats you alive while your not even fighting back. How can I try when it’s overpowered me? Nobody’s gonna fucking listen anyway, they say they will […]
After putting a gun to my head yesterday I decided to go see my psychiatrist today. Â I called the ombudsman in my area about his lack of ethical behavior earlier this year. Â After 4 months, the case was assigned a ‘resolved’ status without my knowledge. Â I MADE THE FUCKING COMPLAINT!!! Â How can it be resolved without me even being notified? Â The agency has lied to the ombudsman from day one and she told me that they told her the situation had been resolved. Â I asked her what the resolution was cause I sure wasn’t included in that decision. Â The agency told the ombuds that they […]
I’m too sane for this crazy world. You can’t be a man who’s word means something in a world filled with liars & manipulators. I know. I was one of those once. I did the work to change. I made my name synonymous with integrity and honor. I fought every day for my family, for others, for the underdog. Then one day everything I worked for was demolished by the person who I thought cared the most. Someone who placed the blame for their choices, choices they made years before I ever met them, on my shoulders. And I looked around and no one was […]
If you feel like suicide because of how life is, I understand. This world is full of liars and corruption, people telling you that your problems are self created, and that you are somehow too lazy or unwilling to fix them. This is untrue. Since you were born, the NEW WORLD ORDER has sought to indoctrinate you, through TV, school, and even the radio. Everything works opposite to what it should. The wars of the world all happen by design, to allow the filthy rich and powerful to profit. 9-11, JFK murder, and the London bombings were inside jobs. If anything, fight the NEW WORLD […]
“Think of the people you’ll leave behind.” They’re the reason I’m committing suicide.
by SuicideBoy
written by SuicideBoy
One of the  big reasons people don’t kill themselves is that they don’t want to hurt their friends & family. But when I think of them it just makes me want to pull the trigger even harder. All those two-faced liars and hypocrites need to see me dead with my brain in a million pieces; they need to wake up and see the real world… a place where cruelty has consequences, where lies can kill, and where some of us should be taken seriously when we say we need help. To all my friends and family who failed me, I do this for you.
My grandparents were gonna let me see my dad in California before I go back to VA but he can’t afford to get me back in time for court, so again, not gonna see him. This game that’s been going on between them my whole life. So I have a choice. Go back to VA early with my sister or stay the rest of the summer here and go back when we were planning to-at the end of the summer. If I leave early, I know it will break my mom’s heart again and I’ll have to be with my grandparents longer. But if I […]
I’m only 13 years old and I self harm myself almost everyday. It all
when I was only 2 years old matter of fact I was not even 1. My
mother got MS and she lost her legs. The older I got the worst
everything become. I never went on a field trip or went to a friend’s
house to play. I had friends but the older I got the worst of friends I
got like the druggies, whores, bullies, liars, and abusives. When I
was in 6th grade I found a boy I liked tall, rocker, handsome, and
sweet. It was a thursday morning in the hallway when some of my
friends […]
Right now I’m only living because I am alive.To not waste what I consider a magnificent oportunity to discover,feel and enjoy everything that moves your heart.Yet no matter how hard I look,no matter how hard I search,I can’t find the rope to guide me trough the maze.I feel so alone…Everyone around me seem so far away,like I was in a different dimension overlaping his one but I couldn’t be touched.I can’t find what moved my heart anymore.Everyday seem wasted.I think: “If I was going to do nothing again,I should have stayed in bed”…Worthless chatter “It’s finaly geting hot outside!”…”I love the cold…”.Everybody looks at me […]
My quest for perfection is finally starting to destroy me. I’ve been caught up in the staunch objectivity of school- the only thing I care about is my future academic career. I’ve always been an above average student in terms of sports and academics, but now I feel like its all coming to nothing- I care too much; but I don’t want to care, I don’t want the pressure of having to achieve and do well in life.
The most blissful moments of life are those moments in which you simply don’t care. I just want to sit back and accept what I seemingly have no […]
It’s 3 am, I can’t sleep, but I am tired.
I wrote a few weeks back, this is a follow up, things have not gotten any better.
I managed to tell a girl i was inlove with that it was so, she reacted as i had thought, told me there were no feelings and ignored it ever happened, it bothers me. Not just that i feel somewhat heart broken, It’s is not too bad. It is more the feeling that this is the one person i can talk to about my real thoughts, but it is slipping now. I feel myself growing more distant, not daring to […]
Lies mess things up. I’ve told lie upon lie to try to get through each day, week, month, year. They all come back to bite me eventually. I have a few more out there – bills about to come due. God, please make the landing gentle or erase the debt.
My mother lied to me about using my credit card without permission, even with the evidence in her face. My father tells lies – that my stepmother doesn’t hate me, that things will turn out okay. (Things might turn out okay, but he sure doubts it. I can tell.)
If I go on living, I’ll tell lies. […]