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I Am Going Crazy Waiting

by SylviaPlathIsMyHero 11/16/2014

written by SylviaPlathIsMyHero

He is imperfect. Short, freckled, quiet. Intelligent with stunning blue eyes. Depressed and anxious. Heart broken and ostracized.

To me he is perfect. But he has been gone for quite some time now, locked away in a mental hospital I know he abhors. I didn’t know how much he meant to me until he wasn’t there. My days became more dull, I stopped smiling as much. I became sensitive, I holed up in my room, dreaming impossible dreams of a life with him.

I began to forget his voice. His beautiful face. His small stature compared to my tall one. The notes we would write each other […]

11/16/2014 0 comment

Maybe I’m Just Finished

by depressednihilist95 11/12/2014

written by depressednihilist95

I think I may have finished life a bit early. There’s really nothing more that I want out of life. Now that I think about it, I’ve never really wanted anything out of life at all, except maybe to be an astronaut when I was five. People often talk about dreams and so on, but I see those as just DREAMS, and not reality. I’m tired of living and dreaming, and ready to just go back to the earth as a lifeless clump of molecules.

11/12/2014 4 comments

Last night, I got a long hug. And someone listened to me.

by AmIStuckNow 10/22/2014

written by AmIStuckNow

Someone really helped me. It’s long, but I want to put it into words and share.

Yesterday I felt extremely lonely. Devoid of all emotion. I just…couldn’t feel anything at all.

Almost anything. Just when I looked in the mirror and saw age spots and gray hair on someone so young it just showed the fighting I’ve been doing and stress of my life. At that moment I felt anger, worthlessness, and wasted years. It was like all of the emotions I’ve felt were physically manifesting themselves as a cruel reminder, every time I look the mirror – looking back at me.

I was thinking about suicide…again…but I […]

10/22/2014 5 comments

Another shitty story.

by RamzanKadyrov 10/4/2014

written by RamzanKadyrov

Figured I’d vent on a perfectly nice Saturday afternoon since it’s not like I’m gonna be doing anything else for the rest of the weekend. To start off, I don’t have any tragic or sad past. I’ve never had a near death (or near life, for that matter) experience, never been molested by a strange uncle in a Garfield mask, never had some heartbreaking-ly awful romantic incident. Just a boring white male who’s lived a trite and meaningless life.

I wouldn’t say I’m depressed in a traditional sense, I don’t spend hours in bed trying to get up or experience general lethargy, but I sincerely want […]

10/4/2014 2 comments

My love story

by EvilKitten 10/1/2014

written by EvilKitten

Many of you know the basics of my story. This is the whole story, from when I met my soulmate, to when I lost him. I figured it was time to share the details. I apologize for the length of this post, but appreciate those who take the time to read all the way through to the end. If you make it all the way to the end, there’s a special treat.

We weren’t supposed to be separated. We were meant to find each other. We lived on opposite sides of the country, and through unlikely circumstances, we met when I went to Ohio for school. […]

10/1/2014 11 comments

Life holds no fascination for you anymore….

by EvilKitten 10/1/2014

written by EvilKitten

This is me. Nothing in life. There is no life. Not for me. I float day to day. Do what needs to be done. Go to work. Take care of my kitties. Talk to my mom and brother on occasion. I bide my time. Sometimes when I’m driving around I just wish that a truck would smash into me and obliterate me. With my luck, and my sturdy car, if it did happen, I’d survive, broken and bruised.

I get anxiety at night. Nearly impossible to ignore urges to jump into my car and just take off, or drive to a cliff and just fukin jump […]

10/1/2014 8 comments

Recent Events

by youngdork 9/9/2014

written by youngdork

First, I’d like to say that I’ve never used a website like this before. I’m sort of nervous about posting this, even though that sounds kind of ridiculous. Recent events have led me here.

I’m going to say as much as I can without saying too much.

Basically, I’m fourteen, I’m a freshman in high school, and I’ve been suicidal since the sixth grade. I’ve attempted suicide three times and I’ve been self-harming since I was ten. I’ve been hospitalized more times than I can count on one hand and I’ve been through inpatient care once. Along with that, I go to therapy, I see a psychiatrist, and […]

9/9/2014 2 comments

I Am Broken

by broken2017 8/15/2014

written by broken2017

I am lonely.
Mostly on days like today. I feel so completely alone though I am surrounded by so many people. So many people who might care, if I told them that is. But the thing is, even though I am surrounded by caring people, none of them notice.
Some days I get asked a simple question, “Are you okay?” and I know that I should quit lying. I should stop pasting on a smile and giving them some bullshit answer such as “I’m fine,” or on days I can barely muster that smile, “I’m just tired,”. As if lying to everyone around me will […]

8/15/2014 8 comments

my lame, never ending story

by ichosewrong 8/4/2014

written by ichosewrong

My story is different. I never thought I would end up here, but here I am, struggling with everything. I can’t remember the last time I was happy.

In the spring of 2012, I met my best friend. Let’s call her Anna. She was pregnant and we instantly began doing everything together. My boyfriend and his best friend and me and Anna would do everything together. She had her son in August and everything changed after that. She was always a mild person. Never got into any trouble. From September 2012-June 2013, the four of us got into all kinds of things we shouldn’t have. Drugs, […]

8/4/2014 3 comments

In a corner

by depressednihilist95 7/31/2014

written by depressednihilist95

I have no creative outlet or any way to express myself because nobody wants to hear my doom and gloom, so I just bottle everything up and become more jaded each day. There’s nothing to look forward to but all that is dead and lifeless, like video games or computers. I’m not looking forward to college because I’m already tired of living a life that is all about money, and I don’t want a relationship because all of my experiences have been weak and disappointing, and I’m not too fond of human nature anyways. It feels like I will have to choose suicide as an […]

7/31/2014 4 comments

Not Yet

by quaero 7/8/2014

written by quaero

I have not yet accepted my defeat. I shall complete myself, whatever it takes. in my this journey yet i have explored many forbidden zones. the deeper i go the more forbidden zones lose their holiness/untouchability. and a mere touch of me crumbles their whole fortress that they created in thousands or millions of years. And now i shall move one more step. Once social connectedness preserved the species and it was called the highest good. But what is species preservation to me? My suffering has paid all my debts and i owe nothing to nobody. Tell me, what makes another person more worthy to you than […]

7/8/2014 1 comment

From dizzying heights to deepest ditch

by Bloodboil 6/26/2014

written by Bloodboil

Life. This never ending charade of lows marred by a few high points. Here I am once again and no, I do not feel good. I put up one heck of a fight but it wasn’t enough. Rather it was against the wrong opponent. I slaved away, hacked every piece of work to tiny shreds and earned my vacation. Achievement? Yeah probably but it did nothing to make me feel better. Quite the opposite, my slaving away left me in an all too common spot in life. All the friends i had graduated and because i dedicated everything to work. I turned invisible, uninteresting again. […]

6/26/2014 1 comment

today is my last day on earth

by unwantednyc 5/18/2014

written by unwantednyc

welp, i’ve finally grown the balls to end my life, end this pain. honestly, i don’t know why i’m writing this. i guess i don’t necessarily want to die, i just don’t want to live. actually, let me clarify, i don’t want to live my current life; i would trade my life with ANYONE else on this planet. i have nothing, i am nothing. no one loves me, and whenever i try to love someone i end up smothering the person to the point where he/she hates me.

anyways, i think i’m just going to do it. i think i’m just going to get drunk/coked out/messed […]

5/18/2014 1 comment

I think it’s said that only 3 people in 1000 are capable of suicide.

by Stain 5/1/2014

written by Stain

Is it possible that this entire human world is completely upside down in its beliefs, and in fact life is a bad thing; death is a good thing; and suicide is the act of an enlightened soul that has come to this awakening?

What do humans live for? Ostensibly to contribute to life. To make life better for themselves, their families and other humans. Longer, happier lives for everyone.

The same thing can be said about an acid trip. You want it to be a happy one. You want it to last as long as possible. You want to share it with your friends. But in the […]

5/1/2014 2 comments

You just don’t care.

by creeper tales 4/2/2014

written by creeper tales

you go through each day like every other. you don’t smile, you don’t frown. you’re not in deep thought and you not I’m a conversation. your just listening in. you’re not with friends, you’re not alone, you’re just…there. someone hits you. you choose to ignore it. you got a good grade on a test. whoopee. not like it matters. every person that has ever hated you could start to love you. but you wouldn’t notice. every person in your family dies. can you tell? you don’t know where you are. but your not lost. your just wandering. one minute you have a dream. the next […]

4/2/2014 2 comments

Suffering In Silence

by drowninginsorrow 4/25/2013

written by drowninginsorrow

She woke up today feeling happy till she heard theÂ screechingÂ of her mothers voice. She had overslept. The kids were not ready for school and she did not have breakfast ready. She was so tired from the night before from having to meet two men.

She slowly got out of bed afraid of what her mother would do when she saw her. She raced quickly getting the small children up and on the bus. As they left she slipped the money onto the piano for her mother, knowing she was expecting it. She found it not quite fair that she had to sneak out of the house […]

4/25/2013 2 comments

Help.

by Janke23 5/24/2012

written by Janke23

Nothing, no one, nowhere, why me?

5/24/2012 6 comments

How I felt today.

by solus4 4/18/2011

written by solus4

So I took my sleeping pill in the early hours of the morning, and it kept me in peace until 8am. I woke up, drowsy. I think I drifted off again.. til 10am. But when I woke up then, I felt weird.

I felt lost, today. I feel empty, there so much pain and thoughts going on in my head but.. I can’t make them come out. I can’t cry today, I can’t feel. I feel disconnected from the world, like I’m not a part of it.

Even punching things, or cutting, didn’t make me cry or have them come out. I didn’t even feel the pain.

Today, […]

4/18/2011 1 comment

My Hardest Lesson

by Eshie Lena 4/8/2010

written by Eshie Lena

I am not looking for sympathy nor am I looking for it but there was a quote I wrote and this story explains it… I just want people to understand where the quote came from…

Quote:

“My head is banging, my brain complaining, my body hurting, my thoughts are roaring. Pain is all there is. My life is tumbling my emotions are mumbling… God please help me. I don’t know what to do… my fears are living, taking over me. My mouth is tumbling as I try to say goodbye… but, my body can’t take the pressure as the words goodbye slipped from my mouth. You […]

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